บท 23: CHAPTER 23: An Old Paper

I've been having mixed feelings for Andrew for quite some time. Although I wasn't aware of the nature of these emotions.

At some point, I convinced myself that we just possess a strong sexual attraction towards each other. I couldn't see it or maybe I didn't want to. All these years I believed that I can't be loved, that I'm just not worthy enough for anyone to love me.

And I thought I couldn't love again, not after him. Damien...

Guess he's not more than a memory right now. And nothing more. Plus I was still very young and foolish and I was lonely. I had no family to go back to or friends and I thought that God sent him to me to stay with me and be my forever.

But no, it turned out that God made our paths crossed to destroy me once more. To teach me a lesson.