บท 88: chapter 88

ANGELINA POV:

People say that love can make you do stuff you'd never think of doing, it makes you search for stars and fall for mountains. Love makes you believe that there is beauty in the twinkling body above our heads when we watch them with our partners, that there is calmness in watching the waves kiss the shore. But there is a stronger emotion than love. It is guilt. Guilt can make you miserable; it can make you want to stop living. The feeling of guilt can kill people, it can kill relationships, and it can kill love. That was what I was feeling, guilt.

I sat by my window, gazing outside the lonely night, watching the stars. My heart was heavy with many emotions, but there was one which I couldn't understand why. Guilt. I felt guilty, less embarrassed, but guilty. I felt guilty for kissing Peter and embarrassed for enjoying it. Yes, I was vulnerable. Yes, I knew about his feelings for me, but still, I couldn't stop myself. Why? Why did I kiss him?