บท 9: Chapter 7: Girl's Fight (1)

I can't still believe that Xian brought me into the sea the other day. How I wish I can still see the aesthetic scenery of the world. "You are smiling alone, like an idiot, Sophie. Can you tell me what happened, huh?" Kate told me in a serious tone.

Lately, I felt something strange at Kate's action. More often, she spends more time with me but the moment I met Xian, she began to do something else. "Nothing. I can't still believe that I passed the audition, you know how how much I dream to be a top star." I replied, studying the lyrics of a song that I'll perform next week.

Kate cleared her throat and sit beside me, "Here, perhaps you feel thirsty." Kate put something on my armchair, without hesitation I opened and swallowed it, realizing that it was a soda.

I felt uncomfortable after drinking too but I hid the truth within me. "Woah! I've been longing for this chilling taste of soda!" I exclaimed, lifted up the empty bottle.

Kate throws the empty bottles into the trashbin, and I'm not certain if she shoots it all rightly. "Hey! Throw it properly." I sighed deeply.

"Ohh! Sophie, Xian is waiting for you outside!" Kate replied, surprised, and startled.

I don't have an idea why Xian is waiting for me, again. I told him not to disturb my life again, that I don't need someone's help. That I can stand in my own feet, firmly and still. "Tell him not to waste his time in me, and tell him that I'm busy." Upon saying those words, my heart skips a beat like I was hurt.

To be honest, I've never been felt this way to someone. It's strange but it feels really good and it's me to give solace.

"Sophie?" Xian called me, while I'm savoring the cold breeze and the sound of calm waves. "Hmm." I murmured. "Please, don't get offended." I shook my head for him to continue, but my heart beats so fast.

"How long you've been blind?" Xian gasped. I turned my head at my right side, where he stand and gave him an abrupt, bitter laugh, "If I'm not mistaken, I become totally blind when I was 7th grade." I paused for a while, breathing deeply as I continue.

"I was eight when I was hit by the truck. I was crossing the crowded, busy road when unexpectedly the truck came over and hit me. You know Xian, I thought I was going to die that day, I felt like I was numb after the accident. And because of great impact, my head was damaged. But before that, I was born naturally sick. The doctor said that my eyes vision is losing, not just an eye stroke but I have asthma. I don't know what to do anymore, but, still, I'm fighting, I'm still believing that somehow, someday, I will surpass all of these pain ang sufferings." That was an emotional speech, and, I can't hold back myself not to Xian the truth.

Xian did not say anything, he gasped and he tapped my shoulder, gently. "I am sorry, but this all I can do now, Sophie. I thought that my life was miserable not knowing that there is someone who's really suffering in life. I was too childish and immature." I smiled painfully.

Since I was young, I'd never blessed such a healthy body. Despite all illness, I know that I can reach my goals when I don't stop dreaming. Dreaming is free, and so, all of us can dream no matter what we want to become, as long as we don't stop at someone's dignity and life. "Don't waste your life doing nothing. Listen to your soul, listen to your heart Xian, follow what you want to become, and stop walking alone with a narrowed eyebrows."

For all my life, it's never been this way. I mean, this tenderness in my heart and in my soul.

"What is your passion, Xian?" I added, swaying my hands.

Xian laughed abruptly and said, "I love to paint."

"Painting? Wow! That's cool!" I've never heard about a guy who loves art and abstract. It's a rare passion, indeed.

I was stunned with Xian, if only I can see, I could let him teach me how to paint. "Hey! Say something!" I nudged his elbow, he seems quiet and silent.

"Sophie," Xian uttered.

I felt so nervous like there's something in his voice. "Hmm," I replied, uncomfortably.

"Ms. Lim!" I came back to my senses, gaping when Mrs. Gyie called me.

Goodness! Stay away from me! I tried to get rid of Xian.

"I'm sorry Mrs. Gyie, shall we start with the practice?" I lowered my head out of shame.

Mrs. Gyie gasped and replied, "I can't coach you today, but, I already assigned someone to do the practice. Is that okay, Sophie?" I nodded and smiled disappointed and disgruntled.

Mrs. Gyie left me alone, she told me to wait for someone she assigned and appointed to train me today. Since I'm bored, I begin to sing a song.

🎶

I am unwritten, can't read my mind

I'm undefined

I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand

Ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten. 🎶

As I finish singing the song, someone pulled my hair from behind. "Ouch! Let me go!" I tried to pull my hair back but someone was too strong than me.

"I told you before, I will not let you win!" Yhen said, clenching her teeth.

I knew it! It was her!

"Let me go, Yhen! You're hurting me!" I shouted, hoping that she will stop pulling out my hair.

"Beg, Sophie. Beeeg!" She added.

I don't know how to fight against her. I can't see anyone around me, I can't stand and fight for myself. I'm such a hopeless, blind girl, wishing for someone to save me.