บท 94: Do you think I am worthy?
"Nikko..."
"What?"
"No, it's just that I never expected to be on a trip with you to this city."
"Yeah, me too. I can't imagine that we will be like this before."
Somehow, after spending his time enjoying every moment with Kobachi, Ishigami felt like he had calmed down and forgotten what had happened before. While he had to admit that Kobachi might be a little crazy, especially when he recalled the beginning of their relationship at how she would attack him and kiss him forcefully, when she was calm down, and there were only the two of them, he felt that it was comforting with her.
Kobachi also enjoyed this feeling when she was the only one by his side, and her smile had never stopped.
Sitting next to each other, the two tried all the bentos that they had bought previously at the station. The amount might be a little bit too much, but Ishigami's appetite was high, especially due to his high physical ability and metabolism. Moreover, he was young, so he ate a lot.
Meanwhile, while Kobachi's appetite might not be high, she was young, and if she couldn't finish her food, she could have him finish it. Frankly, she was quite excited to taste his food, too.
"By the way, the hamburger steak tastes nice. Try it, Yuu."
Kobachi held her chopsticks as she tried to feed Ishigami, to which he opened his mouth and accepted her feeding without much embarrassment.
"It's quite good."
"Right?"
Yet, for Kobachi, her heart was filled with a light feeling, hoping the time would continue forever.
This trip by train from Tokyo to Nikko would take at least two hours to arrive, yet even so, the two of them never thought to sleep, as staying by the one they loved made them all excited.
At the same time, Ishigami also took a picture of them, both when Kobachi ate the food and all the parts of the train, but when he looked at one of his photos, he was dumbfounded.
"What's wrong? Is the photo not good?"
"No, it's good."
Ishigami tried to mask his nervousness by saying, "I will go to the toilet for a bit."
"Okay." Kobachi nodded. "By the way, can I finish your sushi?" Instead of her sandwich, the taste of her boyfriend's sushi was more delicious, and she wanted to eat more. More importantly, the calories of the sushi were less than those of the sandwich that she had bought.
Her weight might be perfect, but as a girl, it was still necessary for her to take care of her calorie intake.
"Sure, eat them."
Still, Ishigami didn't pay much attention to his sushi. Instead, he walked toward the toilet with an oblivious expression, as if he didn't notice anything. Yet he wasn't someone who loved to remain passive, so he glanced at her for a moment before looking away.
Naturally, the person who had been following him noticed his gaze, staring at her for a moment, which caused her to hesitate before she stood up.
"....."
Yet, Ishigami, who pretended not to notice anything, noticed the one who followed him had taken the initiative to follow him!
'Dammit!'
He was so nervous at that moment and wondered whether he would be silenced. He might have prepared himself, but he had to say, he was so nervous!
This country might ban firearms, but it didn't mean that this country could be truly freed from it, especially when a certain prime minister in this country was shot by a gun.
Moreover, considering the one who had followed him, anything was possible.
Still, even if this person didn't bring a firearm, bringing a taser or other things might be possible, which made him helpless, wondering why his life was so dangerous.
His life in this world should be a gentle one, filled with love, or just a boring one, an unchanging daily, yet why were there so many dangerous elements before him?
Yet, once again, he couldn't complain since everything happened due to his greed. It was because he wanted to get rewards from the system that he brought all the dangers to himself.
Instead of complaining, he should think about how to solve his situation since he didn't want to go on a trip while being followed, especially when he thought about what would happen with Kobachi tonight.
Still, he wasn't sure whether he was fortunate or unfortunate, but he didn't need to wait.
The moment he was about to enter the toilet, his back was pushed from behind, and the door was closed forcefully.
"Huh?!"
He didn't expect that the person who followed him would be so aggressive.
"Don't move. Don't shout. Don't say anything until I say so."
Her voice was flat and lacked emotion, yet it contained the power to force anyone to follow her words.
Yet, Ishigami still talked and turned his body as he looked at the figure who had forced him to enter the toilet forcefully. "Hayasaka-senpai? What are you doing?"
"...."
Hayasaka fell into silence and felt a bit embarrassed since Ishigami didn't follow the script.
Shouldn't he be so scared at this moment?
Unlike others, who were naive, she was sure that Ishigami knew the power of the Shinomiya family, so in case he might anger her, then... it was clear what would happen to him, right?
Yet, somehow, he faced her calmly and even turned toward her, facing her directly as if he had been waiting for her.
"...did you notice me?"
"I did."
"...I still need to train, huh?"
Still, when Hayasaka thought of her schedule as a maid, she felt too lazy to train as a professional spy and bodyguard.
'Spy...'
Her expression filled with an intense guilt before she shook her head inwardly, then looked at Ishigami blankly. "Then, you should understand why I have followed you, right?"
"To be honest, I am not. I don't understand why you follow me."
"Because you cheated on your girlfriend, bastard!"
Yes, this guy cheated on his girlfriend, the girlfriend that made him part away from Kaguya.
Yet, instead of treasuring that girlfriend, Ishigami went out on a trip to Niko with another girl.
When Hayasaka thought about Kaguya's expression when she knew that Ishigami had a girlfriend, she felt her heart was torn, yet unexpectedly, this guy would cheat on that girlfriend!
Dammit, what was the point of that emotional struggle then?!
What was the point of her mistress being sad?!
Was he even worthy of her heart?!
At this moment, her eyes were filled with rage, and if her eyes could kill, then they would be her current eyes.
"Have you been playing with Kaguya-sama?"
When Hasayaka thought about how Ishigami would approach Kaguya to help him erase his stigma and then get close to each other, he had made her smitten with him, and she wondered whether all of that was just a ploy for him to use Kaguya.
When she thought about that possibility, she felt even angrier toward him and wanted to beat him up, but she calmed down since she wanted to hear his answer, and depending on his answer, then she would—
"You overestimate me. Do you think Shinomiya-senpai is such a gullible girl? She isn't someone who will be naively played by others?"
"...then, why? Why can't you answer her feelings? You should see everything, right? You should know her feelings, right? Why do you have to be playing around like this instead of answering her feelings seriously? You... you... why do you like this?"
Disappointment.
This was the feeling Hayasaka felt toward Ishigami; no, instead, it was something far deeper, as if she was trying to search for an answer from him, who was also a traitor.
"Sorry, I can't." Ishigami didn't really want to tell everything, but when he saw Hayasaka's expression, he knew that he had to talk. "It can be anyone, but I can't be with her."
"...is it because of Shirogane?"
Ishigami didn't say anything and only showed a soft expression.
'Shirogane...'
If it was someone else, Ishigami might do something, but Hayasaka knew that if it was Shirogane, then Ishigami would give up since she was clear about Ishigami's past, and she also understood why he would do nothing.
But—
"It isn't clear that he likes Kaguya-sama, right?"
"Are you sure?"
"That's..." Hayasaka lost her words, struggled for a moment, and then said, "But I think that you should break up with all of them. It isn't late, and I won't say anything to Kaguya-sama. If you can seriously love her, then... I will forget everything here."
Yes, as long as Ishigami could cut off all of his relationships, then Hayasaka wouldn't mind hiding everything, so Kaguya's happiness would be guaranteed.
"I can't."
"Why?!"
"I am already like this..." Ishigami looked at Hayasaka helplessly and asked, "Do you think I am worthy of her now?"
Like a woman who believed that she was already broken as she had been with many men, so when she found the one who could treat her sincerely, kindly, with all of his heart instead of being happy, she felt inferior and thought that she wasn't worthy of the love of such a man.
Instead of her, there was someone better.
Ishigami also thought so, and he didn't think that the current him was suitable for Kaguya.
More importantly, as he had said all the time, it could be anyone, but it couldn't be Kaguya.
Ishigami took a deep breath, trying to calm himself. "You can tell everything to Shinomiya-senpai. No, tell her everything, that way, she won't be disillusioned by me." He had had enough of everything, and he might as well go all out since he knew that nothing could change. He had made up his mind to be with everyone and take care of them.
If some girls couldn't accept it, then they might as well leave him now instead of being hurt by him.
Ishigami might feel reluctant for them to leave, and he would try his best to keep them, but if it was really impossible, then he wouldn't force it.
Naturally, he didn't think Kaguya could accept how he was now, and she would force him to break up with all of his women, but he couldn't, and he really couldn't betray Shirogane.
"I will go back first."
Hayasaka didn't stop Ishigami; she just stood on the toilet alone and fell into deep thoughts.
Meanwhile, Ishigami returned to his seat and looked at Kobachi, who was eating sushi like a squirrel, which made him smile.
"What's wrong?" Kobachi asked with confusion.
"Is it delicious?"
"Um."
"Then, eat more."
"...do you want me to get fat."
"I can help you with a diet."
"You mean that pervy workout you do with your girlfriend?"
"..."
As expected, talking with Kobachi made him forget all the things that bothered him.
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