บท 152: I love you

Patrick. 

He has been the best through my withdrawal.

I don't mean to push him away.

I am doing this because I am a coward and I don't like that I am keeping all this from him. I want to tell him the truth but I am so fucking scared.

She hasn't come to look for me again after that day, so maybe she wouldn't bother me again. Who am I kidding? Now that she has found me, she will not leave. She will make sure she ruins me.

I go into the shower, hearing Jack rummaging through the house. He has been weird. Okay, maybe not weird but extra supportive. Like, he is supposed to be pissed at me for the way I have been acting. I am being the opposite of who I wanted to be. I wanted to be open, tell him the truth but I guess at the end of the day, I am a coward. I am too scared to even tell him the truth.