บท 3: lies cause death
The next day I woke up I feel a little dizzy. my phone was ringing. I immediately get on my sense. pick up the phone and start a conversation. I calm down myself. ready to face the truth
I:- hello t
father:- I am sorry for not picking up your phone, I didn't get a signal due to the remote area and I saw missed call when we reached home
I:- everything fine there, what the condition of the mom
father:- everything fine. I don't want to lie condition are very serious .but sweetheart don't worry focus on study and make your mom happy with a good score, I will take care of your mom and she will recover soon
I:- ok I will do my best, tell mom that she takes good care of her
father:- ok I will, we love our precious daughter
i:- ok father bye I love you too and mom
then I hang up the phone
its waste to cry now when life is fuking me from the front all I can do is pray, but it still meaningless, I don't remember when God help me and when he gives support, human being are so weak they can suffer but not do a thing, they put their faith, believe, life, on someone who they don't know never witness with their eye, if their such a god who looking down on me then he better stay away I will kill him and the evilest being are God himself, I hate them
maybe I think stupid, did my mind is alright what the hell I was thinking
I should get ready now what if I will kill myself or do something arrogant
I am human or not I am feeling not right now maybe I lost my humanity, I hate that personality fuck this world I can't waste my time now
after that, I pull myself together ready for classes. I don't want to eat anything .but on that day I eat more than usual college was normal. I made friends and forget my problems behind. live my 3 years and get top 5 rank in the whole college I was very happy
now I can make my mom proud
I call my parents and I get news my mother was in the hospital for two weeks and her condition was very serious. my father take to my mom
(conversation)
i:- daddy I got degrees and I got 5 ranks in college
father:- iii know you will make your mom proud
i:- daddy are you okay why are you crying
father:- no I am so happy
i:- ( I know he was sad but I hang up and wait for him she was thinking) daddy now my college is overtaken me to mom I want to see her, I can't wait to see her reactions
father:- sweetheart I am coming. wait for me
I reached the hospital to see my mom. her condition was terrible. her face is white. her body gets so much thin. it was depressing I want to see my mom healthy but it was something impossible
(conversation time)
I:- mom look I got a good score as I promised and top 5 ranks now please get healthy again, I need you she opens her eyes slowly and smiles looking at her like this. I drop my degree and hold her hand she whispers welcome daughter and then she drops her hand and leaves this world and me. I was shocked my father know this will going to happen soon. doctors run and check her. my father pulled me from the room and I sit over the chair thinking what if I didn't go to college and spend my time with mom. maybe that was the worst thing I can do. it only going to hurt me and mom. It must be hard on daddy to carry all this burden alone. I should be glad to at least meet with her and make her smile. maybe she was waiting for me all this time
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