บท 143: Unusual Messengers

Hotaru's POV: 

Mina is saying I should give magic bean farming a chance? As if!

I really don't want to risk it…

I don't want to risk losing the goodwill of the villagers, any more than I already have.

I'll only screw things up for the entire village, if I try, because that's how it always goes. I'm just a screwup when it comes to anything I do: from my relationships, to schooling, and even when it comes to my gaming hobby—as much as I play, I never make it to the top of any leaderboards, or get called to go on tough raids.

Sometimes...I can't help but feel jealous of those who make it look so easy: people who fit so perfectly in the world, like there was always a place made specially for them; while I'm always the one being made to feel left out.

Heh…why should I want their approval, anyway?