บท 60: 60. I see God in him

Intentional…

What does that word mean?

Do I really understand the depth of his words?

When he's telling me he doesn't want me to come to him impulsively, when he's saying he wants me to be intentional, what does that mean?

Something deliberate, something to be done after thorough thinking. Something planned and done purposely. Not just on a whim but voluntary and with all readiness.

So he's saying he wants me to come to him when I finally feel all these things? Not just because I'm scared to lose him, but because I, with all sincerity desire to have him.

That's what he's saying.

I don't even know what to say.

He has that effect on me. With others, I have so many things to say but I was always too timid to respond. But with Duke, I just… I just really become short of words. No… I am at a complete loss of words.

He's too good to be real.

"Alright." I say the only words I can think of at the moment and give him a smile.