บท 58: 58. Just one kiss.

It's alright to tell Duke these things. Because he's different. He's always been. He still is. So it's alright if I tell him these things.

"That's why when I met Rowan, and I knew him asking for sex was inevitable, I had already closed my heart to following the rules of Christianity." I pause because for some reason I feel like he would laugh at what I just said. I feel he will laugh at me.

However, not a sound escapes his lips. Just the rhythm of his breathing. That's all.

"I was determined to not lose him to her. I was going to give him whatever he asked. And when he did ask, I gave my all to him. My conscience was eating me up because I felt I had strongly betrayed God, but seeing that he was still by my side after we had done it, made me believe I did the right thing by giving myself to him."