บท 28: Listen Yall

Hey there cuties. It's me, I'm not dead, unfortunately. Just kidding.

Uhm anyways, I don't know how much people are still reading this or lookin forward to updates but glad to have you still.

So the reason for me not updating, I felt I had to get this out the way on its own instead of just putting it after a chapter in the authors note.

Not sure if I've mentioned this but I'm in my senior year of high school, and since the start of the year we've been cramming almost non-stop. I wake up at 5am to get my brother ready for school, clean up the house, leave at 7, arrive at school 7:30 and then it's school till 5pm. I don't have weekends anymore since I go to class from 12am to 4pm most of the time then studying.

Idk why I put in so much detail but it helps with the imagination for yall reading. Anyways, it was exams for two weeks straight and that means I didn't get much sleep at all. I'm not the best at anything math related I'mma be honest, so I've been up till 2am and that's just 3 hours of sleep for me to last the entire day. I was so out of it while doing my exam that I accidentally, I kid you not, wrote the word "masturbating" in my sentence. I think my brain was linking things together for answers and it trailed off the path it was supposed to be on.

My luck has been just as shit. My first exam I did, some spiders fell from the ceiling onto my table and hair. I freaked out and caused a disturbance in the venue so that wore down my already tired mind.

I'm sure u could tell but my mood in this whole thing is rlly low. Lower than usual ig? Since I pretty much force myself to be positive but I rlly can't bring myself to, even when typing out sentences.

My pc got fucked as well. I could obv just use my phone but with my right eye and it's slightly bad vision it gets frustrating to type and check grammar, all that stuff. The words pierce to the very back of my skull.

I haven't even read the comments or notifications I get in that authors panel thing so seeing the bright red 99+ is giving me anxiety lmfao. I don't know why yall are pretty nice but I just don't text much people so seeing that many notifications is pressuring me.

Anyways, if u bothered to read this far then I'm sorry for no updates. I don't know if I'll be able to bring myself to post anything this week but I'll try to get smth out next week. I just need to get my head right. I was thinking abt making a discord server but idk, that shit is rlly stressful honestly. So I'll maybe try it later down the line and if any of u guys are actually interested in chatting with me about stupid stuff.

I guess that's all from me. Thank you for your continued support, imma summon the courage to read the noti's now and reply to whatever is in there. Have a great day, stay safe and I hope you're feeling awesome, love you cuties <3