บท 75: LIFE AND DEATH SITUATION

I am still currently at the presidential suite drenched and swimming in my miserable state while rewinding everything that happened early this morning. I lost my appetite and surpassed two meals, because of my retaliation on Gabriel's pleas. Same as him, I am also in an emotional turmoil as of the moment. Both of us are hurting and both of us are equally in pain. But I have no choice, because this was the only option I had to stop ourselves from hurting further. 

As much as I wanted to prolong the relationship I had with him and as much as I yearn and longed for him, I couldn't force my mind to cooperate with the beating of my heart. It just can't seem to accept every cruel thing he had done just to avenge his past from me. I am fully aware of the consequences of my actions, that I just withheld myself of the love he has for me and a possible future for the both of us, but I simply cannot drive myself to be with him anymore without reliving those painful acts he did.