บท 1044: Afraid (5)

"After Hanhan came home from the hospital, Muqing hired a midwife to take care of Hanhan."

"At the time, I was still sick. There was one really serious time when I swallowed a whole bottle of sleeping pills."

"After I woke up, I was really unwell and in the hospital because I was throwing up my stomach."

"Muqing's eyes were red as she called me 'foolish' from the sidelines. She yelled at me for not thinking things through and asked what was going to happen to Hanhan if I left." 

"Actually, Muqing said a lot at the time, but I didn't listen. It was the sound of Hanhan's endless crying that let me know that I had given birth to a child. The baby who I fought tooth and nail to protect was born..."

"And it was from then on that I started to slowly come out of it and slowly shifted all my focus on Hanhan. I gradually got better little by little as Hanhan grew up."