บท 149: 149-The Broken Bond Cannot Be Fixed

Helanie:

I can't even remember how I spent the night. I was in and out of sleep the whole time. It felt like I had lost something.

Even though I hadn't entirely fallen for Kaye and had resisted the urge to be with him, his constant reminders of his love for me made me believe he was going to wait for me no matter what.

Which was kind of selfish of me. I'm not sure what kind of troubles and hurdles he was facing in his personal life.

Just like I wouldn't let him in, he wasn't letting me in either.

And then there was the fact that I never shared the truth with him. I kept so much from him, so it was only fair that I didn't judge him for not wanting to wait. In fact, he did say he would wait, but he also made it clear that he wouldn't just sit and do nothing while waiting for me.