บท 7: Chapter 7: Why are you doing this for me?
In a few moments, everything will soon be over and I will be alone again, it is a crystal clear possibility.
Sitting on a seat, I watched her slowly approach me.
'' Hi... ''
She said to me once she was close enough to me.
''Hey, it's finally the big day. You will be free from me and everything can go back to the way it was. ''
We remained silent for a moment. We looked at each other without saying anything. This silence surely meant the end of our relationship. Of course this relationship wasn't real but I suppose it's always complicated to find the words to break up with someone. I then decided to leave, I shouldn't make things difficult for him.
I was walking forward when suddenly she grabbed my arm.
''What is it? '' I asked, turning around.
"Nothing, it's just…"
She let out a sigh. She seemed to be having trouble finding the words she wanted.
''Okay where to start? ''She was a little stressed.
''First I wanted to thank you all for your help. Thanks to you and your idea I was able to protect the friendship that existed between me and my friends. ''
"No, it's not…"
''Let me finish please...''
''...''
"I also wanted to thank you for protecting me from Michael. Without you, I don't know what could have happened. Also, I enjoyed chatting with you, it only lasted a few days but I really enjoyed these little moments. Thank you so much... ''
I was starting to understand. She wanted to say goodbye to me in the right way. As I noticed last time, I was really wrong about him.
"There's no reason, you shouldn't give me all the credit. Everyone respected their contract, nothing more. ''
She immediately frowned and as usual she puffed out her cheeks. With the little time I spent with her, I got used to seeing her in this state.
"However, I can admit that it was also fun. ''
This behind-the-scenes statement, I sincerely meant it, but this sentence didn't really fit with the shadow character that I am. I rushed at full speed towards the exit. I was a little ashamed.
''Wait... Please wait. ''
She suddenly called out to me. Surprised, I stopped without turning around.
''I...I would like us to become friends! '' She said sharply.
His request out of nowhere surprised me. I had already accepted the fact that I would return to solitude. I hadn't thought about the possibility of becoming his friend and I didn't know what to answer. Why would a girl like her want to be friends with me? I should decline his offer immediately for my sake and also his. There's nothing good about being around me.
However, I felt a doubt deep inside me. I felt my heart tightening more and more. Logic would dictate that I would say no, a girl like her had nothing to do with me. I knew it very well, but I was plagued by doubt and this doubt was due to a feeling that I did not understand. I couldn't say no, I knew there had been a change in me.
Could this be what Carole was talking to me about last time? This feeling that I can't explain, could it be these emotions that have nothing to do with logic? At that moment, I thought it would have been better if I had never met him.
It's scary to step out of your comfort zone. I'm afraid to open my heart again and suffer afterwards. But this inexplicable feeling pushed me to do it. It was frustrating.
''I don't know... I'm sorry but I can't answer you right away. '' I said with my fists clenched.
"Okay, I understand. ''
After that I left... Left without looking back.
''Hey! Why didn't you reject him? Why didn't you tell her you didn't want to see her anymore? '' asked the rabbit in my head.
"It's okay, I don't want to hear you. ''
I felt weird and didn't want to hear anything. All I wanted, all I thought about, was to be home.
7:20 p.m.
I had barely woken up. After what happened this morning, I didn't know what to think anymore. I got up and went to sit in my study chair. I stood there for several minutes without saying anything.
Then suddenly my phone started ringing. I had no close contact so I had no idea why anyone would call me or who would actually want to do so. I looked at the ringing phone for a moment and then it stopped.
A few minutes later, it started ringing again.
This time I grab the phone. The number was unknown. I found it strange but decided to pick up anyway.
'' Hello... ''
''Ah! Finally you answer me, I tried to contact you but you don't
didn't pick up. ''
I was speechless and my eyes widened. This voice, I even recognized him on the phone. By reflex, I hung up.
The phone rang immediately. I took a little time but eventually I picked up.
''Hey! It's not okay to hang up on someone so brutally! ''
It was intriguing. How did she get my phone number? I wasted no time in asking him the question.
''Can I know how you got my number? "Don't try to change the subject!"
She then took a much calmer tone.
''I've been trying to contact you since earlier, you were running away from me, that's
That ? ''
''The number is unknown, so I couldn't find out who it is about. How do you expect me to avoid you? ''
''Ah. It's true... ''
''Now can I know how you got my number? ''
'' Hihihi... I have a very good relationship you know? With the permission of the director I had access to the list of psychology students. Your number was written there, so I wrote it down. ''
"Ah…"
''I knew or at least I had the impression that we wouldn't see each other again so easily. I wanted us to become friends despite everything. That's why I did everything to get your phone number. ''
If I understood correctly what she et was telling me, is she doing all this just to be able to stay in contact with me? We don't live in the same world, she is so different from me.
In comparison, I am the shadow and she the light. What's in her interest in wanting to stay in contact with me? Why would she want to be my friend? Could it be his heart that dictates this to him? And me? What do I really want?
''Hey are you listening to me? ''
'' Said... I would like to know why you are making all these efforts to
Me ? Just to stay in touch with me. ''
"You would like to know why I make all these efforts to stay in contact with you? ''
She remained calm for a moment, then she spoke again.
''Well I won't tell you. ''
She was a little embarrassed. I could tell by the tone of his voice and also guessed the expression on his face.
'' All right. ''
"Anyway. I told you about my friends, I also told them about you and they would like to meet you so we didn't decide to organize an outing this weekend. I know it's sudden but, would you like to go out with me again? ''
I found myself once again faced with a dilemma. Choosing logic or the feelings of my heart.
Since the incident that happened during my first year of high school, I have withdrawn into myself. I had made a firm resolution to no longer open myself to the outside world. I ignored others and distrusted them. This suited me very well.
And yet, for once... I could feel my heart racing. I would be strong in my chest. The words that had to come out of my mouth seemed too heavy.
I exhaled and inhaled to relieve stress. Then, once calm, I spoke again.
''...It's okay...''
''What.Are you sure?! ''She seemed surprised.
'' Yes... ''
''I didn't think you would accept so quickly, I'm so happy! So we'll see each other this weekend. ''
'' Yes... ''
''Okay, see you later! ''
End of communication. I decided to follow my heart on a whim. I hoped I wouldn't regret it in the future.
''Of course you will regret it! ''
It was the rabbit in my head. I turned around to face him.
"This girl attracts too much attention and easily influences the people around her. It was a mistake to get closer to her, she is a bad influence on you. Don't trust him. She'll let you down once she gets what she wants, trust me. ''
I continued to listen to him speak when suddenly I saw that something was wrong with him. I got up and moved closer to him.
''What is it? ''
He asked me with a fearful look.
It was a first. Usually, he always seemed confident. I didn't say anything and continued to move closer to him. Once closer, I noticed a detail, a very small detail.
"Is it me where you shrank? ''
He was no longer as big as he used to be. He was now the same size as me. When I made the remark to him, I felt irritated.
He didn't answer me and disappeared.
End of chapter.
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