I said that this would be my first time killing the humans...But that's not true.
I already killed a few humans when I first got transmigrated as Adele.
The first my kill was a servant that used to work for me but betrayed me, I still remember how I slit his throat apart at that time.
Then 6 knights from (Six Big Family) come over to Ashen territory to kill me.
Of 6 of them, I killed 3 of them.
But unfortunately, I killed them instead...
So in total, I had killed 4 humans but situations forced me to do so.
If I didn't kill them they would kill me.
It was or die situation for me at that time.
And I didn't want to die, So I took the necessary actions to defend myself and ensure my survival. Despite the moral weight of my actions, I knew that in those moments, it was a matter of life or death. I had to prioritize my safety and well-being, even if it meant taking the lives of others.