บท 13: Chapter 13
Leidian San didn't know what was wrong with him until he sat by the river and finally understood the meaning of the word "worries".
He thought, even though his puppet body didn't have the organ called a heart, perhaps he truly had worries.
What could it be?
It seemed to have started when the little fox who had always been with him day and night turned into a human.
In his eyes, all living things in the world, whether they were gods or humans, were no different from each other. He didn't know why Yingjian was so happy after becoming a human, but seeing her joyful expression, he sincerely congratulated her.
Are there really such big differences between humans and non-humans?
He couldn't understand.
Clearly, everything was just normal everyday matters as usual, because it was always the same person. He had already considered companionship as a part of his life...so why, after becoming a human, did he no longer need him?
"...Is it because I'm being disliked?"
He had a feeling early on, but he had been avoiding thinking in that direction all along.
It seemed like he had started messing things up since that night. Otherwise, why would Yingjian let him leave even though she knew his responsibility...?
Puppets didn't need sleep, nor could they catch a cold. He had thought about it for a long time that night.
But in the end, he still couldn't figure out why.
When Yingjian told him the good news, he couldn't help but relax.
None of the bad outcomes he had imagined last night had happened; Yingjian was still sharing joyful things with him as usual. Until he realized he couldn't hear her voice anymore.
Puppets had good memories, and he still remembered what Baron had said.
"When you can speak in human form later, come find me to remove the power."
At that time, the reason for saying that was a prepared statement from the General to comfort Yingjian.
"If you just listened to your heart all the time, you would become a parent that the child dislikes, right?"
And he had been doing that for a month now, as if...being disliked wasn't that hard to understand.
Leidian San narrowed his eyes and watched the rippling lake water, his hand resting lightly on his knee.
Yingjian had said that she was very strong, and he had always believed it. He believed that she would shine and accomplish her missions, earning everyone's approval. These were all things she could definitely do. But...
If it were before, Yingjian would have been willing to let him accompany her. If it were...
"Little...Asan!"
Leidian San was startled and turned his head to see the girl running towards him not far away.
"Ah, I finally found you. I didn't expect you to come here."
The girl sat down on the grass next to him and looked at the lake while hugging her knees.
"You seem to be enjoying yourself here, you never brought me to such a nice place before." Yingjian took a deep breath, calming down her accelerated heartbeat from running. Then she squinted her eyes, "No, I'm a bit unhappy. I was in a good mood, but now I'm not happy anymore."
"...Huh?"
Yingjian, who had just drawn out her words, saw that the boy was really fooled by her, so she naturally turned her head, squinting her red eyes and looking at him, saying, "Of course, if you're willing to stay here and listen to me explain what just happened, we can forget about this."
That somewhat unfamiliar face leaned in, and in such a close distance, Leidian San seemed to feel a warm breath. He instinctively moved back a bit, his gaze shifting awkwardly.
"Does that count as forgetting it?"
"...I said it does."
'Kids are getting harder to tease.'
(Note: The above translation is a translation of the original Chinese text provided by the user. It contains references to characters and events from the game Genshin Impact.)
If it were a month ago, the puppet would have already fooled itself.
Yingjian sat up straight and scratched his head, closed his eyes and made up his mind, "Even if you don't listen, I still have to say it. The reason I didn't bring you along is not because I think you can't help, but because I believe that you have been with me all this time and haven't had time to do your own things. In this way, you will have the ability to do things on your own, and I don't want to delay you anymore."
"Things I want to do on my own?"
"Yes!" Yingjian nodded. "You've just arrived in this world not long ago, and there must be many things worth doing, whether it's practicing martial arts or something else—these are much more important than staying with me."
Yingjian had been thinking all the way about how to convince Raiden Shogun. This was her true thoughts, and Raiden Shogun's intelligence would surely understand. But what she didn't expect was that the boy did not reconcile with her as he had thought.
"That's not true."
Yingjian was taken aback, turned her head, and ran into the boy's purple eyes.
"I understand the importance of studying, and these are things I want to do. I will do these things on my own, it's my own practice. But..." he said, "I don't know how to differentiate between their importance, but I know that I want to do these things with you more."
The boy placed his hand where his heart should be, and his beautiful eyes were filled with determination. From the flat gaze when they first met, gradually sensing the existence of emotions, to the brilliant radiance—no one understood better than Yingjian, who witnessed the changes, the sincerity behind the boy's words at this moment.
Puppets don't deceive people. No one taught him this, but someone taught him that deception is wrong.
The puppet had once felt the unreserved joy and frustration that came through the other person's thoughts, so it knew the importance of sincerity. So it would always be honest, naturally believing that the opposite of honesty is deception.
The boy thought he would receive the same answer as before, but when he anxiously pressed his fingers against his chest, he didn't expect that before he could even think of avoiding it, his own hand was grabbed.
"I also hope to travel with you, so I don't seem to have a reason to refuse." The girl sighed, "But three days later, you still have to obediently go to the shrine to study. This way, you can help more in the future."
"You...hope to travel with me?" Raiden Shogun was a little surprised and pointed to himself, "Aren't you tired of me?"
Yingjian: "?"
"No, who told you that I'm tired of you? Wait..." Yingjian caught the blind spot and raised her hands to hold Raiden Shogun's face, testing, "Could it be that you were unhappy because of this?"
The boy nodded, and Yingjian almost turned into stone.
"You're not just overthinking, are you?"
"I have a basis for it." The boy shook his head and said seriously, "So, you're not tired of me, right?"
"No, how can I have the right to be tired of you?" Yingjian didn't know what expression to use anymore. "I'm such a bother all the time, it's almost understandable if you're tired of me... Quick, tell me what kind of logic you have, I'm so curious."
The boy was not satisfied with Yingjian's explanation and frowned his beautiful eyebrows. "First of all, I'm not tired of you, I like you."
"Mhm, and then?"
"And then, logically..." Raiden Shogun counted on his fingers, "You've been listening to your heart all this time, and this approach would make children dislike you, right? And also, you didn't want to kiss me, or let me sleep with you, and now..."
"Wait, wait!"
Yingjian quickly hit the brakes and covered Raiden Shogun's mouth.
"Where did you get all this logic from? First, being able to hear my thoughts is something you did out of necessity, and I'm already grateful that you don't find me annoying. Of course, as a person... a living being with thoughts, it's a bit embarrassing for someone to know everything I think." Seeing the boy starting to feel down, Yingjian quickly explained, "But of course, you're different! During the month when I couldn't speak, I would have been bored to death without you. As for why it's not working now, it's because the real Auntie saw that I'm okay and fulfilled her previous promise to delete this function on a whim—If there's something you want to know, just ask me directly, can I not tell you?"
Yingjian explained a bunch of words, but Raiden Shogun didn't really listen. But he remembered one sentence.
"So, only I can?"
"Uh!" Yingjian made up his mind to quickly appease the boy, so she nodded in agreement with his words. "You are different. If it were someone else, I definitely wouldn't be willing. Do you even need to ask?"
As she gradually calmed the boy down and saw the lightness and joy returning to his eyes, Yingjian secretly breathed a sigh of relief and continued, "Ultimately, it was my fault that led to this misunderstanding. To apologize... I'll go back and cook for you."
"Can we change it?"
Yingjian's heart shattered.
'So the little doll despises my cooking skills?' She couldn't even refute this point, since she was currently stroking his fur.
"No problem! Anything works!"
"Then, can you kiss me?" the boy asked. "If you kiss me, I'll obediently go to the Mingshen Grand Shrine to practice in three days."
Yingjian: "?"
"...What if I don't?"
"Then I won't go either. I want to be with you."
Yingjian: "..." It's over, she's completely caught.
Where did the little doll who was so easily fooled before go? Why does it feel like he's getting smarter?
As time passed, the boy's originally bright eyes gradually dimmed. Yingjian could sense his low mood, and based on her reasoning just now, she could vaguely guess his thoughts.
'Is it only if I appease him like this that he's willing to do it?'
Yingjian: "..."
"Then, just this once!"
The boy's beautiful eyes brightened again, and under that gaze, Yingjian couldn't bring herself to say anything to retract her words.
"Although... however, I still have to tell you... This is something that can only be done for certain special people. You can't do it to just anyone."
"Special people?" The boy tilted his head slightly. "Then, now I'm also one of your special people, right?"
"...Hey, don't learn strange things!"
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