บท 123: What is this feeling?

She smiled!

The maids and guards in the hall, somehow, disappear from my sight. I can only see Verena. Her tiny smile grasps my heart. I don't know how to breathe. It suffocates me, in a good way. The sight is rare, and exquisite. My wish is granted. I finally got a chance to witness her smile.

But, I feel like it was a wrong thing. I should have never seen her smile. Now, I can't get over it. I wish to view more. I wish to hear her laughter, chuckle, and observe her smile. I don't care if she smiles for hours; I can admire her till the death without any regret. What is this feeling?

No, it is not love. It is simply admiration. I want her. This is just an obsession over something I like. "Gavril, is anything bothering you?" Verena's voice lures me back to reality. I blink. Yes, this strange feeling within me is bothersome. Still, I refuse to acknowledge it. "No" I smile.