บท 86: Chapter 86 - Kept Me At Her Heart

R-18 (suggestive)

Her skin was warm from the blush creeping on her neck and up to her cheeks. Her hands a bit icy from us walking outdoors. Her kiss was like a feather brushing against my own. It was soft and quick, like she was testing the waters. But soon, when she saw that the water was welcoming, she dived right in.

My mind was buzzing. I was not even drunk and maybe barely tipsy. But I felt like a live wire. I felt alive. I did not hesitate to reciprocate back. I felt thankful that my mind was clear to carve this memory into my soul. I tried to be gentle but it was like I was a man in the desert who found an oasis. I greedily consumed in haste what I have been desiring most.

I grabbed her hands and pulled them up locking them in a grasp above her head. My hunger insatiable, I kissed and held her like I would die if I didn't. I only paused a second to let her take a breath before going for her neck. To give pleasure to every inch of her being. The perfume she wore was soft and sweet. Just like its owner. As much as I have lived wild and free lifestyle, nothing as been as addicting as her scent and taste. I needed more, I craved more, so I kissed and suckled at her skin biting gently and moving to spot behind her ears.

"Dean..." She whispered and mildly groaned. She arched her back, clearly indicating I was doing my job with flying colors. That sound alone nearly snapped my sanity. I wanted to take this further and take her over the edge. To bask in her glory. But where I thought the devil in me would incite me to move further. The unexpected angel stopped me instead.

'Does she want this?' I growled a bit as I bit her ear and after holding both of her wrists in one hand, the other began to roam the territories yet to be explored. I tried to shake off the feeling but it spoke up louder. 'Is this something she will regret?' The haze my mind was in from my pleasure was rudely cleared. For the first time, fear clouded my mind. 'Fuck. I need to stop.'

She was worth the world and heavens. I did not want to be someone who did something just to her just because I wanted to. While she may have kissed me and said she wanted me I needed a clear answer. Her lips and taste while sweet also held a the slight acidity and bitterness from the hard alcohol shots she took before. It reminded me that she could be drunk.

She drank more than me. I needed to know first. If I was really what she wanted. Her consent. Her words meant more than her actions.

So with a heavy heart I brought my head up from her neck and rested it against her forehead. We breathed together for a bit and I lightened my weight from her body. I had her wrapped up in my arms as my whole frame swallowed her and covered her up.

"Celeste." I needed to be serious. I closed my eyes. Her rejection if it came would feel less painful if I did not face her directly. "Are you ok? With this? With me? Right now?" I licked my lips in anticipation. "Do you want me for real?"

I peeked a bit from my lashes and I anticipated her eyes to be hazy like others I have seen look like when drunk. But her clarity is there. My Celeste is there. She cradled my head in her hands and shuffled a bit to lean against the bed frame. "Maybe you don't believe my words but let me show you. Yes. I want this."

To my surprise she ushered my head against her chest. The roles reversed and I felt my skin flush from her intimacy. But before long I understood her intention. It was her heartbeat. It was beating fast but it was steady. She continued speaking but kept me at her heart.

"I think sometimes my words are lies but my body and soul know the truth. Honestly, you are to me the most perfect man I could want and that I ever truly wanted." Her hands moved from just cradling to running her hands in my hair and dancing across my cheeks and ears. "I may have some liquid courage in me to say this but trust that my judgment is clear. I want you."

At those words she lifted my chin and I faced her eyes. She is normally so guarded, even as a child it was hard to tell what she was thinking. But I would catch glimpses. I could see past the wall she created and see inside who she is.

And both the her she shows everyone else and the her that hides within her own walls, I have fallen deeply for. However tonight the her that hides behind the wall was facing me. She was front and center.

That her reminds me of galaxies. Just full of wonder and beauty and depth. There is a wildness to it unlike anything else. And she was here.

I felt like I was smiling like a fool. I cradled her hand that was in turn cradling me. I turned my face to kiss her palm. "You don't know how many times I have dreamt of this." I murmured into her hand. We both sat up on the bed in anticipation. Both live wires. Both alive.

She smiled so brightly that it was like the sun came out in the confines of the room. As I began to remove my tie she placed her hands gently over mine so she could take over. She pushed my chest to have my back against the bed. Switching our initial positions. She crawled like a cat and sat on top of me, specifically at my hips.

I was already turned on. But her moves made more blood rush down below, and I am sure she felt my excitement. She tossed my tie off to the side and began to slowly unbutton each button from my shirt. I did not wear anything under so my skin was exposed. As her hands worked their way down she kissed my open skin.

Her lips were like fire. Burning as she went further down stopping just shy of my pants. My hands griped her hips and thighs. My moans unfiltered as I whispered expletives, straining as I felt the tightness increase.

She suddenly stopped and I looked up to face her. Our eyes locked as her hands removed my belt. "I will say it again. I want you."