บท 313: Admission

My moans no longer left my lips, my voice long since gone from the intensity that my Goddess had displayed so far, so I couldn't give the woman that extra layer of satisfaction as she ejaculated inside my womb again, her raspy tongue lapping at my cheek as she moved her cock around inside my pussy, emptying herself once more and trying her damndest to breed me again, to replicate our first night together and impregnate me.

Of course, that wouldn't happen, but neither of us cared as she continued to splash her semen against the back of my womb, her strands of cum still thick and sticky enough to feel viscous inside of me even after how many creampies she had given me.

But, while her cum was still thick and her cock hard, we were both so mentally drained that my Goddess decided to stop it there, leaving herself buried inside me and just draping herself over my back, wanting to feel pleasure but not enough to cum again.

I was the same, but being stuffed in both ends - one with a cock, the other with a plug - made it hard to not orgasm randomly as they rubbed around in both of my holes.

She continued to lap at my cheek, the action soothing and comforting despite still carrying some pain with it, and it made the upcoming minutes bearable as we just laid there together, in an almost vegetative state.

Even with my new skill [Sexual Recovery] up and running, we had gone at it so hard that even the skill needed a few minutes to bring me back to my prime state, while the [Nectar of Life] skill allowed Sari to slowly return to her prime as well.

But again, our minds were exhausted, and I don't know how long we laid there together, drifting in and out of consciousness as we regained the ability to think again.

When she returned to normal, Sari pulled out and panted beside me, her yellow eyes lost as she stared down at me, before the Catkin crawled to the top of the bed and pulled me over to her, holding me in her arms and nuzzling against my cheek, muttering "I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I should've stopped sooner..!"

I blinked a few times before looking at her, confused, only to freeze as I saw her yellow eyes were wet with tears, the Catkin biting her cheek and trying to look me in the eyes, only to look away and continue to mutter "I'm sorry..!"

"S-Sari, I-I'm alright..! If I wanted you to stop, I'd have told you..!"

My voice was still slightly weak, but I was able to speak, trying to console the Catkin as she buried her face into the crook of my neck.

Holding her tight, I stroked her plated hair and murmured "It's alright." to her, trying to calm the woman down from whatever it was that was happening.

After a minute or so of us sitting like that, Sari eventually managed to get herself under control, the Catkin giving me a hollow smile as she rested her head against the headboard, staring up towards the ceiling.

"Just... listen, please. Last night, when Rhefia and I had sex? It started off fine enough; hells, it was actually really good. I... I prefer cumming with my cock, but the pleasure of a 'female's' orgasm isn't unknown to me, and sometimes I crave it. Crave having a strong futa cock flood my womb with semen and try to knock me up... Thankfully Catkin don't get pregnant easily by other races, and we need to track our cycles on top of that, but still, being bred is a pleasure I'm sure you know far better than I do...

Anyways, last night, being fucked by Rhefia like that was excellent. I loved the 'battles' we had as she tried to tame me; something about someone trying to rein me in like that and stopping me from being 'me' just makes me feel so hot. But... maybe it's because it's been too long, maybe it's because she was just so good at it, but... today, when we were on the hunt, Rhefia fucked me again.

She made me cum hard, and I got creampied three times by her, all while Aethisia fucked my throat... it felt great, but it... it made me remember things I thought I'd move on from. Specifically... my last mate. It's... I hate that I have to talk about it, considering everything that's happened, considering you are my mate now, but..."

She trailed off, her voice slightly shaky as she continued to stare at the ceiling, her yellow eyes holding such deep emotions that I felt my heart leap into my throat.

"I told you before, when we met. I've desired to be a parent for years. Mother or Dama, either or. I know it's surprising, but yes, I was willing to be impregnated if it meant I could have kits of my own; it was just something that I wanted... My first mate, my first true partner - and only one before you - she and I tried for children so many times. With the both of us being futanari, it should have meant one of us could be pregnant, but...

After months, if not a year of trying, we learned she was infertile in both her womb and her semen. It... devastated her, so much so that... Well, I'd like to think she's still alive, but I seriously don't know. She left me a letter saying she couldn't handle the shame, the deep rooted anguish and all of the hatred she had for herself for not being able to give me more of what I wanted from us. I... I don't know where she went, but she was my first true love, and she was the only futanari to make me feel satiated as a woman.

She did everything right when we made love, and Rhefia... Rhefia felt too similar. Hit the right spots, held me the way she used to... Everything felt the same, and it felt like the 'me' that had been shaped over these last few years had begun to slip, that I was returning to who I was before she left, before I became... well, me. I... was confused. I didn't want to regress, to loose 'me'. Not when I finally am a Dama, not when I finally have a family. Would I still have a spot here if I lost what made me 'me'? If my more forceful, dominant side was peeled away and cast aside, would I still be able to raise Aka properly?

It's stupid and idiotic of me to think it, I know, but it's something that was nagging at the back of mind since last night, and it only blossomed into something worse earlier... something that just snapped inside of me and made me act the way I did... I mean, Astra, I'm a sadist, but that... if it was anyone else beneath me, that would have been rape. My mind was so clouded with the desire to prove that I was still 'me' that I didn't even care if you hated what was happening! Again, it's so stupid, but being reminded of her, being scared that I'd change so drastically if I didn't do something about it... I..."

Letting out a shaky breath, Sari finally looked back towards me and smiled mirthlessly, muttering "It felt good physically, but the entire time my mind was screaming at me to stop... but I couldn't. And that's even scarier now... what if I can't stop next time? What if I hurt you the next time we have sex? Wh-"

Before she could continue, I placed a finger on her lips and silenced her, staring straight into those slitted eyes and saying "It's alright, Sari... Just like with Rhefia, I can't say that I can replace your first love, nor will I try, but just know that I love you for you. I think that the woman I chose to accompany me that night will be an excellent Dama, and one that Aka needs. Don't be afraid of changing, of growing Sari! You're apart of the family now, and unless you try to kill one of us or something, you'll always be apart of the family, no matter what.

And... it's not stupid. That was your first love, and for it have ended the way it did... of course it hurts, and of course it would be scary to feel again; to be reminded of her... That's something that you need to figure out, but not on your own; we're all here for you. Rhefia and I, Aethisia and Camara, Yiksa and Kalia, Heila, Prixisia... all of us. Aka too, though I don't think she'll do much besides listen or doze off."

Sari smiled at that, nodding her head as she thought about our lazy kit, before continuing to listen to me as I continued on.

"If you feel like you're... slipping again, and you don't want to embrace that change, that's alright. It sounds crazy, but... if Rhefia makes you feel 'less' like the Dama that you want to be, and you need to remind yourself of your 'normal' self, come find me. Sari, you've seen how... weird this family can be, and I am the crux of it. Part of me... will accept any and all kinds of sex, no matter how terrible it is to anyone else. How painful or cruel it might be, for some reason, my body will love every second of it.

Of course, I would like to be forewarned if you need to get... heavy handed with me, but just know that I am entirely capable and willing to be... 'raped' by you, because... well, it's not only you, my sadistic Goddess, but also because I'll enjoy whatever you do to me. Just... don't think you have to bottle everything up, alright? Talk to us about anything, whenever. Rhefia and I are open to everything, and that extends to our children. I can't be too sure about Heila and Prixisia, but I doubt they'd hate you for speaking to them about something.

So Sari, please... just know you aren't in this all on your own. Give us your boundaries if you need them, and we'll keep them in mind. Speak to Rhefia about what you want or don't want during sex, or tell her that you don't want to risk it anymore. Just speak, and we'll listen. Alright, my Goddess?"

Her smile returned as she nodded, relief clearing her yellow eyes as she let out a sigh, staring back up at the ceiling for a few moments in silence, just enjoying the warmth of my company - warmth that I enhanced with my skills, of course, to soothe her turmoiled mind.

"Yeah... I... I guess I was just keeping everything bottled up, and it teetered to close to the edge. I should be good now... but if not, then I'll talk to you, my prey..."

Leaning over, Sari kissed me, her tongue prying open my lips for a second as she enjoyed herself, before she pulled away, only to be pulled back as I kissed her deeper.

Before I knew it, my lips were moved from her lips to her penis, and I was sucking happily on it as I gave her relief in another way, hoping that we had worked it out as best we could...

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To be honest, I feel like this was good but at the same time I feel like it wasn't..?

I have mixed feelings on it, but I already know rewriting things is not my forte, and I'd only make it worse, so it's best to just move on and learn, I guess?

Let me know what you thought about it, if it was too... I dunno, forced I guess, or if it was just weird?

Or if it was good, let me know that too lol

Anyways, this lets me approach Sari in a few ways, and the primary thing is that she remains Astra's Dommy Mommy, with the chance for her to turn into a demure kitten when presented with her being on the receiving end; provides an interesting gap that I think is rather fun to write about~?

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