บท 16: Ch.16

(Matt Pov)

After going to the Cullen's house, Edythe, Jasper, Emmett, and I burned some time playing on the Nintendo GameCube. While Alice, Esme, and Rosalie were cooking food for Bella and me before she would arrive. Carlisle was in his office, doing something, I'm not sure what exactly. Eventually, Bella arrives with Edward since we all hear the car pull up outside, the others were also done cooking at this point and I'm eating with Alice sitting in my lap.

"Leave some for your cousin," Esme says laughing at me and stuffing my face.

"Knowing her, she probably ate already," I say to her.

"Edward should have told us he was taking her out to eat first!" Rosalie says annoyed that they cooked for even more people than usual.

"More for me in that case," I say shrugging.

We then hear Edward and Bella enter the house.

"This place is so beautiful!" Bella says to Edward as they are walking to the kitchen.

"Hey Bella," I say while eating and Bella seeing me sighs, but ignores me.

"Bella this is my mother Esme and father Carlisle, you know the others from school," Edward says to Bella introducing her to them.

"Nice meeting you both Mr. and Mrs.Cullen," Bella says awkwardly shaking their hands in greeting and trying to be formal.

"You don't have to be so formal Bella, call me Esme," Esme says to her giving Bella her usually motherly smile.

"And me Carlisle," Carlisle adds in, also smiling at her warmly.

"Yeah Bella! Don't be so stiff or they might think Edward turned you already," I say to her laughing at her nervous attitude. Getting a laugh from Emmett and even a small chuckle from Jasper. Though Rosalie, Edythe, and Alice are giving me looks of 'really'.

"Hear I thought Emmett was the only idiot in the family with shit jokes," Edythe says to me rolling her eyes.

"Oh, already part of the family? We aren't even out of high school yet or married," I say to her with them rolling their eyes at me.

"Of course you are part of the family! My teddy bear!" Alice says squeezing me in a tight hug.

"Teddy bear?" Bella says giving me a mischievous smile.

"Yeah, though only Alice can call me that. So don't even think about it," I say to Bella with my eyes narrowed.

"Bella are you hungry? We made food for you and Matt, we had to stop him before he ate it all though," Esme says to her gesturing to the food on the table.

"Ummmm, Edward actually took me out to eat before we came here," Bella says in a shy manner.

"Told you! More for me though!" I say before Rosalie can berate Edward and grab the rest of the food for myself.

"When did you eat so much?" Bella asks since I usually eat over here now and at home. Alice has gotten a lot better since her first meal.

"Uhhhhhh, since my growth spurt," I say realizing I have to tell Bella what I am now. The others seeing that I didn't tell her raise their eyebrows at me.

"Well I guess since Edward told you about them, I should tell you about me," I say to Bella.

"What do you mean about you....wait did they turn you already?! Wait that makes no sense you're eating food….." Bella says to me trying to figure out what I mean.

"We have to go outside for this," I say standing up and walking outside. Bella gives me a curious look, then turns toward Edward who motions for her to follow me outside.

Going outside I see they all followed us outside, even Emmett.

"Uhhh, Emmett you sure you want to see this again?" I ask him while giving him an unsure look.

"Yeah I'll be fine, had a lot of time to come to terms with it. Plus like Alice said you're part of the family now," Emmett says to me gesturing for me to go change already.

"Ok, Bella wait here with the rest of them. I have to get undressed or I will shred my clothes," I say to Bella getting an even more confused look.

Walking into the woods, out of eyesight. I start to talk my clothes off as Alice skips over to me.

"Can I help you?" I say to her smirking.

"Yeah I'm here for the show and will hold your clothes for you," She says giving me a lust-filled look and smiling.

"Ok, but no stealing any of my clothes!" I say to her tossing my shirt at her.

"Fine! Though I'm still keeping your shirt from the first time!" she says while I toss the rest of my clothes to her.

Turning this time, I feel no pain whatsoever. It only takes maybe ten seconds to turn too. Showing that each time I turn the easier it gets.

'Maybe I should turn more…..wait that other ball of cold emotions inside me! Gonna have to figure that out after this,' I think to myself as Alice jumps on my shoulders and hugs my head.

"Where are my clothes?" I ask her not seeing them.

"In my room, I want to ride on your shoulders! So after showing Bella you are to take me on a walk as I see the world from this height!" Alice says leaving no room for disagreement.

"As you wish my princess," I say to her laughing and walking back to the others.

Arriving back to the others Bella's jaw drops and freezes up at seeing me. Looking at Emmett I can see he is no longer scared of me at all. Emmett walks over to me surprisingly. Then pets my arm.

"Alice was right you are fluffy," Emmett says after rubbing my arm. Giving him an annoyed stare.

"Emmett, stop petting me or I will punch you," I say to him, to which he chuckles and puts his hands up backing away.

"Is that really Matt?!" Bella says after getting out of her stunned state.

"Yeah why else would I call him my teddy bear?" Alice says to her while hugging my head.

".......True I guess," Bella says smiling awkwardly.

"So this was what happened to you? Did this cause the growth spurt? What are you too by the way?" Bella says walking up to me, Edward following her and looking at me nervously.

"Yeah after meeting the Cullens the first time at school, that night I turned. I'm assuming that this caused the growth spurt and I have no idea what I am," I say to her shrugging as now she is petting me too.

"You really are soft!" Bella says in surprise, making the others walk over to pet me curious now.

"Jesus people! Can you stop now!" I say to them after a minute of being pet by everyone. They each nod and stop.

"I can see why Alice loves cuddling you in this form," Rosalie says after seeing apparently how soft I am.

"Told you guys he was soft!" Alice says to them pouting since no one believed her.

"After that Bella went inside with Edward to do whatever they were going to do. Everyone else also went to go do their own thing as couples. While Alice and I walked through the forest, her having a blast seeing things from this height.

"When I turn into this it's like I tap into this ball of fury inside me. I forgot for a while now, but there is another ball inside me, one made from my colder emotions," I say to Alice as we were walking.

"Is that why your emotions are all over the place sometimes? Like that day you killed those guys? I knew you were upset, but it felt like more than usual," Alice says to me looking down at me concerned.

"I...I don't know. Though I'm not sure who to talk with about this kinda thing. I'm the only one like me that I know of," I say to her sighing at how hard it has been to control my emotions.

"You can always talk with me!" she says hugging my head again.

"I know," I say smiling at her, even though I'm sure it looks like I'm growling at her since I'm more bear now.

"You said you have another 'ball' of emotions inside you? Did you ever try tapping into that?" Alice asks me.

"No had more on my mind and kinda forgot about it until showing Bella earlier," I say to her shrugging my shoulders and making her laugh since she is sitting on my shoulders.

"Well try it now," she says jumping off my shoulders and looking at me.

"I don't know what will happen and I don't want to hurt you in case I lose control," I say to her worried about what could happen.

"When I first turned I have no memory of what happened and woke up next to a slaughtered moose," I say to her remembering the moose and now I feel nothing thinking about its death, much like when I killed and crippled those men.

"The more I get used to this form the more it influences the emotions I feel," I say to her after thinking and see her thinking too.

"I believe you won't hurt me, though if it makes you feel better. Then I will climb this tree and watch you from above," Alice says climbing a nearby tree to about fifty feet or so.

Sighing I look inwards to myself and see the two balls of emotions, the one red fiery ball, and the one cold ice-like ball. Tapping into the cold ball, I can feel it pulsing like the red ball when I tap into it and then it explodes.

Like the first time I turned into my werebear form, I can feel immense pain as my body breaks apart to reform itself. Though my pain tolerance is high now and I just grit my teeth waiting for the transformation to finish. After about two minutes I'm done transforming. The first thing I noticed was I'm not bipedal anymore but on all fours. Looking up I can see Alice looking at me in surprise.

"Matt you in control?" Alice asks me with worry on her face.

'Yes.' I say to her, though only bear noises come out. As I speak I can see my breath even though it's nowhere near that cold for that to happen. Then looking into her eyes, I feel a connection form between our minds.

'Can you hear me?' I say in my mind and make her look at me in surprise.

"You can speak in my mind!" Alice says to me wide-eyed.

'Apparently,' I say in our connected minds.

"You are so different now! How do you feel?" Alice says to me jumping down the tree and looking at me.

'A lot more powerful, in my other form I felt I could lift mountains. This one I feel unstoppable, though my emotions are even harder to control. Like I could lose control at the slightest fluctuation,' I say to her while keeping my emotions controlled for now.

'What's so different about me? What do I look like? I can see that I'm on all fours and have bear paws now….wait are my claws made from ice?' I say while looking down at myself.

"Wait let me take a picture!" Alice says running back to her room to grab a camera.

While she is gone I can see that my height has grown, maybe twenty feet (6.1m) on all fours and forty feet (12.2m) standing on two legs. My every breath releases ice crystals in the air too. After a few minutes, Alice returned with her camera.

"Say Cheese!" Alice says laughing at me while I just sit down looking at her annoyed.

Taking the picture, she shows it to me. Though it's hard to see details at this size, I turn back to my human form and take the camera to see it better. Ignoring Alice as she is looking at me lustfully. Seeing the picture I can see that I'm like a giant polar bear, with fangs and claws made from Ice and ice spikes sticking out of my body. Some spikes on my forearms, neck, and back.

"What the fuck am I!" I say out loud seeing what else I can turn into.

"Hot! Or so hot, cold," Alice says still looking at me with lust.

"Can you get my clothes?" I ask her and she pouts at me, but then nods and run off to get them. Sighing after she leaves, I look at the picture trying to figure anything out.