บท 5: Mother, I Crave Violence

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The world of Spiritias is a mysterious place. I had not visited such a planet in my previous life at all. I've begun to wonder where this world could even be located within the Map of the Universe, but I am left with no answers despite my vast knowledge.

I had yet to see a world that locked their own people from using magic so much as this one, although perhaps I was simply untalented, and I couldn't use Mana properly.

I had recently begun to feel as if the interior of my very soul was strangely dark. There was something within it stopping me from using many of my soul's innate talents.

Even if I had the body of a baby, if my soul was truly as strong as it was before, I could easily dominate this world entirely. However, most likely because I detonated my Origin Core, alongside this strange "Curse", I cannot use this power at all, I have to start from zero.

But even if I could start from zero, with my knowledge alone and some mana, I could reach far…

However, that doesn't seem to be the case.

It has been approximately two months since my encounter with those children. At first, I really didn't care about them, nor I have any interest in them.

They were fun to play around with, I had a knack for younglings, as there were many children within my empire that I protected and brought from slum planets. Even then, I wasn't someone that particularly enjoyed being with them all the time.

Nonetheless, perhaps because I am now a child, I've begun to enjoy it for some reason. It is particularly bizarre for me, a person with a mature mind that has lived thousands of years in my previous life, to enjoy playing around as if I were a child.

But there's certainly something that soothes my heart and calms my mind when I do this, perhaps as the body of a child, I must act like one sometimes to feel relaxed and happy.

Happiness… I had not felt such a feeling much in my previous life, despite my grand accomplishments.

Chris, Eric, and Erika had begun to grow a bit inside of my heart. Although it would take a long time for me to actually consider them my friends, but I suppose there's a lot of time ahead before I can even awaken my Spirit yet, which is actually rather frustrating.

Due to this frustration, I decided to change my plans and begin growing stronger right away without waiting for the availability of Mana.

Originally, I had planned to train my Magic Power and Mana Pool while I was a small toddler, as my body wasn't as developed as it would be when I reached my teenage years or a bit older than that.

However, those plans were broken as I must wait until I am five to even do this. Because of this, I've decided to switch my plans and begin training my physical body, yes, even as a two-year-old.

This might be a challenge by itself, but there is no other choice, and I dislike wasting time.

First of all, Mana is not everything.

Although Mana is the fuel to most powers, there are other energies residing in the body and soul of a person.

Mana is the primary source of our supernatural powers and the most direct way to attain them, however, there are two other energies, Aether and Qi.

Aether is the energy of the soul, often called Soul Power, Soul Energy, Phantasmal Aura, and more. Aether is a unique energy that your soul produces, which you can repurpose into a usable force for your own techniques and powers.

It could be possible to conjure magic using Aether only, but it is extremely hard. Of course, not for me. But the thing is, my soul is extremely weak. I cannot even discern my Aether nodes yet, even less my Aether Veins, without that, I cannot even begin to extract Aether from my very soul, which might even weaken it and make me sickly if I attempt to do it forcefully.

Your soul grows with your body. As long as I can keep growing older, my soul will naturally grow older as well, and I might be able to utilize it better.

This leaves the only usable energy for me as of now.

Qi.

Qi is the energy of the body, the muscles, the bloodstream, the bones, the flesh, the beating of my heart, every kinetic energy used inside my body for it to be kept alive and moving, it is all fueled by it.

Some civilizations call this power Vitality, other Stamina, some others Aura. I call it Qi.

Since I reached two years of age, my Qi had begun to slightly awaken. There are several pressure points in the body of a human, which are not different from the humans here. When you awaken each pressure point, Qi will begin flowing like streams of power across your body.

This is my current goal.

There is also the Core of your Qi foundation, which is in the heart, if I awaken each Qi Pressure Point and my Qi Core together, I will be able to wield Qi as easy as I was able to do it before, although limited to the pool of a toddler…

To awaken the Pressure Points and connect them, I also need to first awaken my Qi Veins.

Therefore, I've sit down in my cradle, barely managing to sit cross-legged during the middle of the night where there was nobody watching, and I began to sense my own body.

Concentrating on this task without any supernatural power to help me was arduous beyond belief, especially because I had to concentrate to an extremely precise point.

I needed to do it, however.

I had to concentrate…

Concentrate…

I have to feel… the Qi.

The vitality, the power flowing through my physical body.

Qi, awaken…

FLASH!

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It only took me two hours, but I had managed to finally achieve "Feeling" my Qi.

It was a weak, very weak energy flowing over my body. It had yet to fully awaken.

I will forcefully awaken it now.

If I were less of an expert in this, I might even risk crippling my entire body.

And in the worst-case scenario…

Killing myself.

However, I was confident that I could do it, as I've always done it. I closed my eyes once more and concentrated my mind back on the task. In a few seconds, I easily managed to finally feel my Qi.

I followed it around as it traversed my body, the Pressure Points were dormant.

I pointed my finger into my chest while infusing the little bit of Qi I could use, and efficiently moving the tip of my tiny finger.

BOOM! BOOM! BOOM!

A tremendous pain hit my entire body as three Pressure Points were forcefully awakened by the fast movements of my finger imitating sharp needles, I gritted my teeth as small tears came out of my eyes. Having such a weak and tiny body really made things more painful.

"Hahh… Ungh…"

However, a few seconds after that, I felt my Pressure Points flowing with power, they had awakened, and the Qi was flowing relentlessly.

Good.

Only three had been awakened, and the Core had yet to awaken because I was required to first awaken the other ones. If I awoke the core without the others, I would die due to the overcharge of energy, crippling my entire body. It could even stop the beating of my heart.

I swallowed saliva, relaxed, sighed, and then continued.

BOOM! BOOM! BOOM!

Three more Pressure Points were forcefully awakened. My movements were swift and precise. Efficient as I could possibly make them by controlling 100% of my body in this state of hyper concentration.

I continued through the entire night, awakening more and more Pressure Points.

At some point, my pain was immeasurable, and I began to have a fever, falling unconscious.

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When I woke up, I felt anew. My body didn't hurt, and my vitality was overflowing from my body as if my surroundings had become a river of yellow-gold light.

I managed to awaken them all, even the Core.

This is the change when someone truly awakens their Pressure Points and then the Qi Core!

Ahh, power! At long last! I've been missing this!

Even when it is so small, insignificant… this is a good starting point, with just this it is enough for me to slowly rise.

Although the Spirit Awakening might aid me in this regard.

I heard noises coming from the first floor, they were my parents talking, cooking, and so on.

Now that I had my Qi, I was able to concentrate it into certain senses of my body and enhance them. This came out naturally, of course. I was able to easily do it because I had practiced countless times in my previous life.

The usage of Qi for me was even more easy than breathing, perhaps. However, this simplistic Qi won't do. I require stronger versions of Qi of different elements to utilize their power completely.

However, for now, the basic enhancement of my auditory sense, sight sense, smell sense, touch sense, and even the awakening of my sixth sense which allows me to detect things around me without me hearing nor seeing them has also all awakened.

I sensed my amount of Qi, I currently have approximately, in numbers, around 30.

This is terrible, I am very untalented.

A human child of my age should at least have 100.

But I have 30! Ugh.

What is wrong with this damn untalented body?! I am beginning to feel like Lucifer has put a damn curse on me that only makes things harder for no reason other than for his own amusement.

Is this bastard looking at me while I struggle?

I quickly gave a middle finger into the sky.

If he's looking at me right now, he must see it.

"Fuck you." I said.

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Of course, no response, I was alone in my room.

I sighed, shaking my head. Perhaps I had begun to grow insane.

The life of a toddler is truly filled with hardships.

Now… having Qi alone won't do, I cannot simply have this.

There are ways to enhance your Qi.

Qi is directly connected to your body state. If you constantly work out and have a healthy diet, your body will naturally be at its peak, which is where most of the Qi can gather and emerge.

Therefore, I must work out as a two-year-old-kid.

Hm… this is certainly a ridiculous thing.

But why not? I have absolutely nothing else to do.

I must also practice martial arts. All the techniques that can use the body would do, or well, the lowest tiered ones I can use…

Cultivating the Qi flowing through my body will also be essential. I also would be required to transform my Qi at some point.

Qi Transformation, the ability to transform normal Qi.

It is more of a technique than ability, and it can be used right away after Qi Awakening.

By using certain techniques, or even items and materials, I can refine Qi and transform it into other types of Qi.

As a former Vampire the Qi I was the best at was… Blood Qi.

To refine Blood Qi I require the usage of blood, fresh blood.

I could use my own blood if I wanted, but that will probably kill me. If I drain my own blood and consume it to transform my own Qi into Blood Qi, I will end up dried like a mummy and die miserably and foolishly.

"I need fresh… fresh blood!" I proclaimed, as my mother suddenly entered the room.

"Huh? Fresh blood?" she asked.

"Mother, bring me the freshest blood you can find." I said.

"W-What are you talking about?!" she asked while raising an eyebrow, picking me up with her arms and carrying me outside.

"I require it for greater purposes…" I said.

"No, blood is bad, you'll get all nasty…" she sighed.

"Ugh…"

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