บท 71: Emotions
I said that I will take it slow but this is a bit too slow. Another day has passed and we have barely crossed the asteroid belt which covers Mars.
But we are in no hurry. I am sitting on my captain's chair and my crew are with me. But everything is automatic and Aera is directly controlling.
I am the <Spirit> generator. I am supplying the juice and Aera is using it to propel. Although both Aegis and Aera merged to become the ship, Aera is overseeing the controls.
And so I was bored. I decided to tinker with my skills.
Let's improve the singularity I got after absorbing a black hole.
I haven't had many chances of using it but it should be strong. I created a portal connecting two points in space with it. So I should be able to create a room as well.
I focus and dive into the singularity. If you want to fully utilize your skills then find out for yourself, what they can do.
I dove in. It's dark. Endless darkness and stagnation. It sure lives up-to its name. The point of space where the mass is infinite. It ended up tearing the fabric of space and delved into a new dimension.
This feeling is new. But why am I so calm? I am inside of a singularity. The point of no return. So why am I feeling at peace?
Like, I belong here. What is wrong with me? My heart is tranquil. I sense no agitation neither fear. I am just calm. Calmly indifferent to the reality.
I believe that a human heart should waver. Your heart feeling uneasy, scared and uncertain makes you human.
If you have an unwavering heart which does not crumble in any situation, it isn't a human heart. That's what I believe. And I think that I have stopped being a human.
I am not a human anymore. But neither am I a god or demon. So a pop quiz! What are you when you are neither a human nor a god or a demon?
Guess the answer yet! The correct answer is- a monster.
You can't be categorized. You do not fall into any of the known categories. So you are a monster.
Man…I am calling myself a monster. This singularity taught me this. Think of your surroundings before you act.
But, do I ever think? No. I am just a selfish person. I don't care what others think. I have never wavered. Not when I killed that guy and certainly not when everyone died.
I have never wavered no matter the situation. Maybe I was born a monster. A monster wearing a human skin.
"That's not true."
I look at my back. There stood System. As beautiful and radiant as always.
"What do you mean?"
"You were not born a monster. Because you were never supposed to be born." (System)
"Never born? Am I a system error?"
"Yes. The wheels of fate is whimsical. It's random. Even for the likes of me, fate is random. You can never truly predict what is going to happen. And your birth was the result. A being was born in the lower dimension where newly created creatures lived. A being so uncanny that even we would fall at his hands. That's who you are. Clive Belmont, you are the Harbinger. The one who will show the path of creation of the next world." (System)
What she said certainly made no sense! It seems that even I am having troubles fully grasping that.
"Do not worry! You are free. You are unbound by the physical rules. Meaning, you are outside of the godly bounds. You are choosing your own path. But by doing so, you are heading towards a genesis. And I am showing you the ropes." (System)
"Is that so? Then I am glad. But when will you tell me your name?"
"Soon. At this rate, it will only be a matter of months before I tell you my name. But more importantly, go back. You can not dive into a singularity like this. Your mind will be corroded little by little." (System)
"I see. Then thank you for the pep talk."
"You're welcome. And treat your women well." (System)
That last thing was really unnecessary to say. I always take good care of them. And I dive out of the singularity.
Feels refreshing after coming back. But all eyes are on me all of a sudden.
Hazel, Aura, Eden and Fay have circled around me.
"Master, what were you doing?" (Hazel)
"Just testing out my skills."
"Really? But the way you were talking wasn't like that. It was like, you were calling yourself a monster." (Fay)
"I was talking?"
"Yes. From the beginning. You suddenly started saying things like what you are and what your heart is like. I have a few questions regarding your killing incident." (Aura)
Ahh…. I did say that. If they noticed it then fine. I had no intention of hiding any of those.
"Well, that was something I had to do. I won't say that I did that to save others. I just did what I thought was right."
And I told them the story. How I killed that child molester and how after that I was isolated and almost poisoned by my own parents. And how I lived my life until now.
All of them were really surprised. I almost forgot that Eden was here as well. But looking at her, she is holding up pretty good.
"That wasn't a very nice story. But I think you should know. Because that is the past."
"No. I think what master did was right. If you hadn't then something awful might have happened. Sometimes you have to do wrong to make things right." (Hazel)
Now that's a surprise. Because Hazel gave a really good advice. Although I knew it but she said that all on her own. She is maturing.
"Honey, don't worry. That won't affect our relationship." (Aura)
"Papa, you are not bad. You did something that saved everyone from the bad guy." (Eden)
So they have become a bit mature as well. Maybe their mental growth is stimulated.
"You really do things the other way. A 10 year old boy killed a full grown man. In which world is that alright?" (Fay)
So she is the only one who can make a reasonable question.
"I know. But I did what I had to. And if the situation forces me then I will do it again."
"I won't stop you. You just have to do whatever you think is right." (Fay)
All of them have this affectionate face. Were they influenced by me? I can't say. But if they are being influenced by me then it would be wise to fulfill the dream I had.
I need to finish my journey and settle them with someone or something bad will happen.
I will think about it later as we have reached the Jupiter. Weren't we still away from the Jupiter?
But it seems that my dive into the singularity kinda sped up the process. So it's into the storm the warp version now.
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