บท 19: Chapter 19: Little Pitiful
Countless shattered images, like a mirror suddenly cracking open, filled the vision of Bai Wu and the sounds in his hearing, all teeming with a sense of severance.
It was a long time before he recovered from the deluge of information. This memory experience was different from the previous ones, resembling a giant jigsaw puzzle.
Scattered information resided within each piece of the puzzle.
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9.25.
Uncle Qiao was again emitting painful screams. I told the doctors not to torment Uncle Qiao anymore.
The doctors asked me who Uncle Qiao was...
Only then did I remember, Uncle Qiao was no one to them...His name had long ceased to exist for them, he was now called Yi Wu.
He began to plead for my help, his voice growing weaker and weaker, yet I heard him clearly. Uncle Qiao really wanted me to take him away.
I couldn't bear to leave him.
9.27.
Today I heard news that the patient on the third floor of Building Two lost control and completely turned into an Evil Fallen.
Evil Fallen...so Uncle Qiao didn't even have the name Yi Wu anymore, he was called Evil Fallen.
A black spot appeared on my hand, a tiny crack surfaced on my forehead.
The doctors didn't know the reason, and I didn't either. I just felt sad, Uncle Qiao was gone, he could no longer tell me stories about his daughter.
10.4.
I saw Xiao An again, curled up in a corner, in that black room I had prepared for him.
I once promised him a colorful room.
But I'm gradually forgetting... My world seems to have only three colors.
Black, white, red.
Xiao An told me that his bones pierced through his body like spikes. He was now a monster too.
I couldn't see Xiao An in that state. I so wanted to tell him not to be afraid, not to be afraid, your sister will protect you.
10.5
I saw Xiao An again. He was in the black room, wearing a bright smile.
I think if I had a little brother, he would be like Xiao An, right?
Xiao An came to say goodbye. He begged me to take him away. I started to cry incessantly.
The doctors thought I was troublesome and gave me a sedative.
But I was still so sad, so sad. Because I had promised Xiao An.
In the afternoon, I overheard the doctors' conversation. Ding Shiyi had become an Evil Fallen, completely losing human reason.
The black spot on my arm grew a bit larger, another crack had appeared on my forehead.
10.14
Gulu didn't want to stay any longer either. Even when meeting with me, he could no longer speak his own words...
Every day, he had to fight with the Evil Fallen from above. Each time I saw Gulu, he would have new wounds on his body.
My poor Gulu, let me take you away, but then I'll never see you again and I'll miss you so much.
10.15
The doctors began to panic. They didn't know why more and more subjects were suddenly losing their sanity completely.
Gulu… the one they called Jia Er had turned into an Evil Fallen.
Although Gulu always thought of himself as useless, he was the strongest, I knew that. In Building Two, he was the fiercest of them all.
I miss Gulu so much. Will he appear in my dreams?
The black spot on my hand continued to spread. Half of my arm had turned black, my forehead… seemed to be growing an eye.
10.19.
10.20.
10.22.
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More and more fragments are revealing a truth: inside the hospital, those experiment subjects who were once half-human, half-Evil Fallen, are massively turning into Evil Fallen, devoid of reason and solely driven by desire.
All this is actually related to Hong Yin!
Bai Wu was a very calm person, yet the contents of the fragments began to surprise him gradually.
Before turning into a pure Evil Fallen, every experimental subject seemed to encounter Hong Yin in their dreams.
To be precise, they had known Hong Yin for a long time. Hong Yin was like the only sanctuary in their miserable lives.
In their dreams, she used her power to create a haven for these subjects.
The souls full of scars found solace here.
But what Hong Yin could do, after all, was limited, her comforts not nearly enough to sustain their will to live.
The despairing life seemed endless; most of the experimental subjects began to give up.
At this time, Hong Yin would "take them away".
"Taking away" meant absorbing their resentment, bearing their pain, the cost was... the subjects would completely lose their will.
The dense medical records were all the sufferings of the subjects recorded by Hong Yin before they gave up on life.
She was commemorating them!
08.09.
I dare not look in the mirror, for I have become a black creature covered with eyes all over my body.
I have no regrets, I just wanted to protect everyone...
But it seems I too can't hold on much longer, who will take me home?
The Evil Fallen began to go berserk, am I about to become one of them?
My hair has all fallen out, and although I have begged the doctors countless times to comb my hair like grandma did, they ignored me.
The way they look at me is as if they're seeing a monster.
Ah... I am a monster, I am a monster, a monster that nobody likes...
08.10.
No one could leave, the myriad voices in my mind were roaring, telling me to lock this space down, to kill them all.
I am a monster, we are all monsters...
So what is it that created us?
08.11.
The doctors kept calling for help; the hospital outside was particularly noisy. But the people outside couldn't come in, and those inside wouldn't go out.
And the cages and chains can no longer hold me; I want to go find them to play, I've been wanting to play games with the doctors.
I used to love playing hide and seek with grandma, now they're all hiding, which is great, for the first time I feel a connection with the doctors...
Come play with me... Come play with me...
08.15.
What have I turned into? Everyone who sees me is trembling as they cry and howl.
When they wail, their bodies emit a strange fragrance, I so desperately want... I desire to devour them...
08.16.
I saw Elijah again, he's really amazing, even though he loses to me every time, he has never thought of leaving here.
He doesn't want me to take him away. He's waiting for his teacher... To see his teacher again, he told me that no matter how cruel the environment is, he can survive.
I am envious of Elijah.
I wish someone out there were waiting for me too, only grandma loved me, but I know... grandma has long gone.
I hope Elijah can keep waiting; I have granted him a portion of my power...
Though he resisted so much, it seemed because of me, his teacher didn't want him anymore... I'm sorry, Elijah, truly sorry.
08.20.
More and more doctors... Out of despair, the scent they emit gets thicker, some of them are dying, some are becoming part of us.
I should devour them, all voices in my head are screaming for it.
Qiao, Xiao An, Gulu... they're all roaring, telling me to tear the doctors apart...
But I don't want to... I just want to play games with them; I don't want them to die...
Yet they are all afraid of me because I am an ugly monster...
Yes, everyone hates a monster like me.
But I don't hate you, I just want to play with you...
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