บท 246: Lila's Story - Part 5

LILA

"Knowing you've done the wrong thing… it kills you inside. Deep down. And it makes you miserable and angry and… nothing good. Even if you want to do good, if you do the wrong thing… it hurts you.

"I was out of therapy when my dad killed himself, and it sent me right back in. And I realized something through all that: I would have rather my dad stood up to that man and he went through with his threat and killed me—or my dad—than that we went through what we went through. Loss sucks. I didn't want to lose anyone. But instead of my father standing strong and being admirable, or me getting lost in something that was out of my control, he tried to stop it. And it not only killed him, it sucked his soul dry first. It's not worth it, Dane. It's not worth it."

"Lila—"