บท 44: Chapter 46

Metanoia

n. To turn from darkness and face light.

For the longest time I felt like I was floating. My body was numb and my mind was quiet, lost in the gentle feeling of drifting through nothingness. I couldn't remember where I was or why I was floating but I never questioned it and let the calm rivers of darkness wash me away.

Suddenly, the gentle river wasn't so gentle anymore and I felt like a strong current was pushing me forward. I wasn't sure where this sudden rough waters were taking me but slowly, it was bringing things with it.

It started off with an uncomfortable and almost painful sensation in my chest. I couldn't reach out to rub it since the rest of my body chose to stay numb but my ears were picking up voices.

They sounded hushed and quiet, the words too quiet to hear but somehow too loud at the same time. I wanted to tell them to stop, to yell at this river that was trying to wash me away but my mouth remained shut and refused to cooperate.