บท 4: Bittersweet
Around six Namjoon came to get us for dinner nobody outside the group members was present. Everyone was doing something to get the table nicely set and the food evenly distributed alongside. I couldn't help myself to look around as soon as Taehyung monopolized Liam's attention, he pushed me lightly towards the windows after getting a hold of my baby but I suddenly was left alone on the main room.
I thought they wanted to surprise me with the dinner or something to be almost abandoned there just after they got us from my apartment.
A lighting made me look through the window, it was very dark outside for a city wiew. Someone was abruptly pushed in, the lights went out for a moment as the storm noisely made his presence. My eyes hurt wen the lights turned on again, Yoongi was getting up from the floor but tried to cover up his face as much as he could under his oversized hoodie. He was uncomfortable and stepped back when I tried to go towards him.
- I ...sorry - he muttered as truned around and tried to get out but the other boys yelled back so he tried to convince them to open up. I got closer to knock the door and Yoongi suddenly pressed his back on it because he didn't noticed me move.
- Guys it's okay you can open up! -I said and they abruptly did so Yoongi lost his balance and fell comically I tried not to laugh so I coughed to cover it up. Everyone could tell he was embarrassed but tried not to pull his buttons too much.
He took a seat and I tried not to be seated next to him. He wasn't eating much or talking at all. We had fun with the boys feeding Liam and each other. They were thrilled about what happened in the afternoon, as I could get they doesn't let anyone else know what really matters regarding their privacy. I got the feeling that they have done something similar before but couldn't nail it.
After dinner I helped Taehyung do the dishes meanwhile the rest run around playing with Liam, his laughter could be heard over the other noises. - Namjoon told him off, he was....-Taehyung moved his hand on circular motion on his chest área
- upset? was he hurt ?- he doubted but thinks that could be the case. Or something similar,his gestures and incoherent wording came to my mind as correct. Wen we finished he tried to read a book for Liam so he would calm down before bedtime.
I called Namjoon out and went to his studio so it would be more difficult to heard us from outside. I know they can understand more than they can tell.
- Okay just tell me, because I can guess but if you cleared it for me...better - I said as soon as he closed the door.
- Its not my place to talk about it, is just that you don't understand and he can't...- I waited for something more being said but after very frustrating minutes we remained silent.
- I realized that some of them wanted to push my interactions towards Yoongi to be ... to go faster than it should be but we all know that we have to put work first . I think he's going to close up maybe upset him if you guys pressure him much.
- We can't be with anybody to much, our lives depend on it... we managed to this point without incidents even with all the relationships our Fans made up, just from a smile or a hug . His profile is quite clear from our company's reports. He works with more other artists than the rest but nobody knows, he is very secretive and professional so I never imagined I had to have that conversation with him personally. You know how flirty they are? it embarrasses me sometimes, but we are focused and doing our best.
- I suppose... but the door was closed when I realized we were already alone in his room, it could be a problem to be left alone, I came here to work and help you out. I consider myself an army, but not a fanatic. There are much more for me to prioritize. I'm old enough to think about all the possibilities, but...- he straightened to prepare for what I could say. - I can't treat him as if he was a mannequin, he was .... a brat... his face could be in dictionaries to define social distance....He also wants to be himself
-How come? - he asked pensative.
- Do you remember the video you guys did for your latest Festa? and the celebration before for your 7th anniversary?-
-yeah, but what about them?- I sighed in frustration and get him seated and lowered myself to look straight into his eyes.He was taller than me.
- He is trying to speak up to spress himself, to keep his essence. It's well known that he values the facts of his life as a person to mature, to progress, to improve and to try. Just let him be he would sort it out but support him, give your thoughts when he asks, let him decide. His happiness is what he is after, afraid or not he needs to be himself here at home were you all allow him to grow.... Namjoon I'm sure you too need your moments, so notice it and control the savage guys that want to Pop him outta his cocoon before he is ready.
- I think I need to say sorry to him, we said some rude things to each other before... that, hearing you now makes me a little miserable.
-Have you heard him properly? I mean when you confront him like today-
- Honestly is a rare thing between us, he is... so cute you can't imagine...
I smiled - So we are clear?-
-just out of curiosity have you two kissed, hold your hands or something romantic?-
- no, he was such a brat about his fever... My personality showed up, It doesn't disturb me, honestly you're a group of very talented and handsome man, but you don't have anything that matters to me that I haven't seen before and refused. -
- just wait to face reality we are so ... social?- I laugh at that and used the the sides of his chair to get up carefully, my legs hurt because of my body posture. - Didn't want you to do it so?-
- Do what?-I asked confused
- Smooch him senseless- I probably flushed at that but wiggle my brows , it was a nice outcome. He get up to knocking me down in the process, I reached him to steady us.
The door suddenly opened, it wasn't locked, but we know they were outside plotting something. He reacted because of the ruckus but made us stumble and fall.
I hit the floor first and instantly got smashed. It was as painful as it sounds so we groaned and tried to roll over to separate our bodies but here is a tiny space so he bumped more into me trying to get up. Yoongi was held captive in front of the door as Jungkook was responsible for opening up, his reaction was to close up again.
-Help us you doughche bag..-I couldn't finished the sentence, Namjoon almost stepped on my face uncoordinated hitting whatever was around him. I tried to stay still protecting my head with my arms until he could stand up and get outside. Hoseok came in to help me finally...
- Sorry - he said and I thanked his help as we reached the main room where Namjoon tried to get closer, I can sense he is sorry for hitting me but he was as unbalanced as before so I ordered him to seat down and look pretty for my sake.
He did as commanded and I scanned the room.
Jimin was playing with Liam on the carpet with some toys I didn't learn were they come from. Yoongi was muttering to Taehyung and Jungkook in a corner, he didn't look happy and the others couldn't maintain his stare. Jin was trying to figure out what happened from his seat. Hoseok and I seated on the big sofa in the middle of it.
Making them relax because it was just an accident and some jokes about the destruction Namjoon is capable of, the three guys in the corner were still at it, not to loud but seriously. Their faces were really expressive and nothing good will came from it .
-Yoongi ! why don't you go and check if we didn't break anything in the room? you know how those things should work and be placed and connected, don't you?- he marched there and the other were about to follow him but I gestured Hoseok to stop them and go him instead to calm down his friend.
I got Liam and asked nicely to Jimin to get Yoongi's medicine and make sure he have it before going to sleep.
I varely said to Namjoon to resolve this before the day ends and said my good nights to them before I decided to do the same with the rest.
I knocked the door and Jimin opened up We said my goodbyes before we made our way to my apartment. Later I was almost ready to go to bed when I heard something at the door that connects our living space. The was a note underneath it is a phone number but from whom?
Maybe someone has something to say so I picked it up and went to my room were my phone was.
I got in bed and put the headset on to not disturb Liam as I made the call, I don't know what app they use to message, so I pressed the call button.
I didn't heard anything more than the ring tone my phone does before they picked up.
I recognized the usualresponse, I recognized that voice.
My heart started to beat furiously but my mouth became dry and my mind went totally blank as he repeated the sentence more formally and lowder.
His voice echoed in my ears and could hear my pluse because of the headphones. I know how te greet back properly and opened my mouth however that's not what came out.
I said just his name.
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