บท 3: A CHANCE
My eyes were focused on the knife that he was holding and slowly, it wandered upon his eyes. I saw something.
Oblivion and vagueness that was seemingly, completely contradicting to the smile he was showing me.
And then there was a sudden glitch in his expression.
He briefly looked down like he was reminding himself of something and then stared at me with those deceptive eyes of his.
He let out a shaky laugh and hid the knife behind his back.
"Ahh kapitbahay, nandyan ka pala?" Sabi niya.
I stared at his eyes again and with that, I also lowered my defense and hid the baseball bat behind me as well.
Sinundan niya naman ito ng tingin.
"Bat ka may hawak na kutsilyo?" I asked him in my stern voice expecting a decent answer from this guy.
He looked at me again with that annoying boy next door persona.
Ahhh,typical.
"No no no no, it's not what you think. I'm not doing anything and no need to call for help miss!" Alarma niyang sabi.
"Do I look like I'm in need of help?" Sabi ko sakanya at tinabuyan siya ng tingin bago ako tumalikod at pumasok na sa room ko. I shut the door and placed my baseball bat beside the closed door.
"Huh, call help? You'll be the one who's calling help when I cut your throat and castrate you. Stupid motherfucker!" I cursed under my breath.
But the thought of some dude holding a bloody knife in the middle of the night and right outside my room is kinda unsettling.
Wtf is he doing with that knife?
Does it have to do with me?
Is he going to kill me?
Does he know?
Is he after me?
I don't trust the look on his face when he talked to me. And his eyes were...
I haven't seen him and I've been in this building for a long time. Bagong lipat? But why now? Maraming mas magagandang hotel at mga condominium na malapit dito.
Shit naman! Kailangan kong lumipat sa ibang building, better yet lumipat sa ibang lugar. I bit my lip so hard that I tasted blood.I close my eyes and breathe heavily, I have to be more cautious and alert now. He's a threat and I need to be wary of him.
I felt so restless that I checked all of the windows and closed all the curtains. I also dimmed the lights to feel extra secure. The darkness never scared me, it was my salvation and my only sanctuary that nurses my rigid belief of quasi-incessant fetish of touching human flesh.
My dark thoughts in a dark room felt reassuring. It feels that my world only revolves in the four corner of this room. The darkness has became my safe haven, a dark domain that I consider pivotal to keep my sanity intact and on point.
I sat on the couch with the dimmed light beside me. I hugged my knees and empty my mind. I do enjoy ripping into someone's flesh. It's a leisure that I enjoy and would never let go of, but their screams are starting to catch up on me.
Everyday. Every night.
Their agony of pain and cry for help, their screaming voices that the world didn't knew about and their constant sob for mercy. Their screaming cries that no one heard has ironically stayed in my mind and now, only I, am hearing it.
I felt the urge to close my eyes and sleep. It has been a long day.
Getting rid of a body that ended up being seen, police are probably catching up with my plans, and a man whose probably an undercover detective whose after my ass.
It is indeed a long and anti-climactic series of events.
Ahh, what a day!
I stood up and went to my bed. Walang nakaharang na dingding sa pagitan ng kama at sala ko.
Dito lang talaga ako natutulog kasi mas komportable, otherwise sa couch lang ako naka upo o nakahiga buong mag hapon.
Masyado ding maliit ang kitchen para paglutuan kaya madalas ay lumalabas talaga ko para kumain, pero ngayon dehado akong lumabas. Kahit nga lumabas sa room nato ay hindi ko magawa and I'm freaking starving. Buong araw akong walang kinain. Kailangan kong mas maging maingat ngayon lalo na't nakakatimbre na ang pulisya.
I don't feel safe sa building nato kaya bukas na bukas din ay lilipat ako. Wala namang problema sa pera kasi marami ako nun. Kailangan ko lang mag withdraw atsaka sa iba-ibang bangko ko din naman nilalagay ang pera kasi maraming maghihinala kung napakalaking pera ay sa iisang account at bangko lang.
Kailangan ko nalang ay bagong lugar na malilipatan at medyo malayo dito. Siguro sa hotel nalang ako. Walang mag hihinala na mayroong mamamatay tao sa isang mamahaling hotel.
Bukas na bukas din ay maghahanap ako ng bago kong malilipatan. Mas malaki pa dito sa kwarto ko ngayon since may resources naman ako. What are the killings are for kung hindi ko naman mapakikinabangan ang pera nila?
The leisure that I enjoy the most comes with a hefty amount of money. What a life!
Humiga na ako sa kama ko at nag kumot. Those things are for tomorrow to worry about, but for now, I deserve a long nap pagkatapos ng mga nangyari ngayong araw.
I need sleep. My mind needs to rest and that's exactly what I did. Let my thoughts flew out of the window, closed my eyes and empty my mind.
And with that, I escaped the reality.
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I reluctantly opened my eyes. A white ceiling greeted me. It felt like I've been asleep for only minutes. It has always been like this. Parang palaging hindi tama ang oras. I looked up to where the clock was and saw that it was already 2 in the afternoon.
Ang bilis.
Masyadong mabilis ang oras. Parang kulang na kulang pa ang tulog ko, like I've only slept for a few minutes but clock says otherwise. More than 13 hours din ang tulog ko but my body still feels worn out and tired.
Tumayo na ako mula sa kama at diretsong pumasok sa banyo para maligo. Now that I think of it, masyado ding maliit ang banyo sa room ko. Pang-isahan lang talaga. Hinubad ko lahat ng saplot na nakatabon sa katawan ko at nag simula ng maligo. The cold water made me more awake and my mind more conscious. I washed my body and got out of the shower and wore my baggy hoodie and and jeans that hugs my leg structure.
Walang salamin sa room nato at sa banyo kaya malimit ko lang makita ang sarili ko. Not that I care about my appearance that much, all I do is slaughter people anyway so why worry about how I look?.
My stomach growled. It's already 3 in the afternoon and I haven't had a meal since yesterday. I need to eat in order for my body to function well. I can't be weak. I can't be vulnerable in front of my victims. I decided to go out and eat.
I'll take the risk of going out than starve myself to death in this room. I feel dizzy when I stood up but I still manage to put my shoes on and get my cap and put on my hoodie.
I got my keys and unlock the door. As I grip unto the doorknob something felt wrong. That guy from yesterday, what if he's waiting for me just outside my door.
Waiting for the perfect time to attack me. In that case I will be ready. I went back to the kitchen and since I don't cook and so I don't have that much of utensils including a knife, I just got a plate and held it high and let it drop on the floor.
It broke into several pieces and luckily there was a big chunk enough for me to grip and stab someone with it.
I pick it up and hold it and went back to my closed door. I slowly opened the door to see if someone is in front of my room.
Ahhh shit why do I feel scared. Lalaki lang yun, mamamatay tao ka. Get yourself together!I took three steps away from the door and with that, I decided to swung the door wide open.
No one was there. Not the guy from yesterday. No one but a bunch of containers with a sticky note attached to the top part of it.
Is this a trap?
Tinignan ko ang bawat side ng hallway at wala akong nakita kahit anino man lang. Tinignan ko ulit ang mga containers at sinipa ang mga ito.
It landed on the doorsteps of that guy from yesterday. I'm pretty sure sakanya din naman galing yan, binabalik ko lang. Natapon lahat ng laman ng mga containers at lahat ng yun ay mga pagkain.
Is this his plan? Poison the heck out of me? Putangina siya ,may pa sticky note pang nalalaman. Weird as fuck.
Tinignan ko muna ang pinto niya kung bubukas ba, kasi ang lakas ng sipa ko imposible na hindi niya narinig pero walang lumabas mula sa room niya. Baka umalis. Bahala siya, siya maglinis nyan. I locked my room at umalis na sa kinatatayuan ko at lumabas ng building.
Hindi ko alam kung saan ako kakain. Masyadong matagal kung sa restaurant pa ako pupunta. Kaya sa fastfood nalang ang kakainin ko. Nag order na ako ng pagkain, for three meals na ang pagkain na order ko. Ang hassle naman kung every meal pa ako lalabas para lang kumain. My ref naman sa room.
Kailangan ko iwasan ang mga CCTV cameras outside the building perimeter kaya iiwasan ko muna ang paglabas palagi.
I paid for my food at nagmadali akong lumabas at tinahak ang daan pabalik sa building kung saan ako nakatira. That's why I chose that building because of its convenience. Maraming eating places na malapit, stores at shops kung kailangan ko ng damit.
I don't do grocery kasi wala namang mapaglulutuan sa apartment ko. I'll transfer to a much bigger room in a hotel anyways so no need to worry about how I'm going to eat without going outside and risk seeing my face by CCTV cameras. Room service would be nice.
I entered the building and slightly looked down kasi may CCTV camera sa entrance at nagmadali akong pumasok sa elevator still evading the cameras and finally the elevator door opened.
I walk fast to get into my room and open my door and get inside and lock the door.
I was about to walk into the kitchen when a bunch of containers greeted me. And when I say greeted I mean surprise the hell out of me because I can clearly remember that I locked the door.
How did he....
I kneeled and saw another sticky note attached to one of the containers.
"Eat this!"
This demanding asshole. Not only did he went inside my room but also gave me this poisonous food. Is he that desperate? Tama nga ako. This is an active threat and he will fucking pay. I place the foods that I bought aside and grab the containers, unlock my door went in front of his room and kick the door that separates my livid annoyance towards him.
His door went down and I was gasping for air because of so much irritation . My eyes wandered in his room to find him and there he was on the sofa and his eyes wide open,lips slightly parted and his shocked expression when he saw me.
I was still gasping for air when I walked towards him. His eyes were focused on me but still shocked.
I handed him the food still emitting hatred and just stood in front of him taking deep breaths.
"Do it!" I said to him.
"What do you mean "do it"? He asked.
"I'm giving you a fucking chance to do what you have to do with me. So go on with it, I won't stop you. This is the only chance I'm giving you so fucking do it! Now!" I shouted and stared directly at his eyes.
"Really? You want it now? I- I don't think I'm in shape to do it with you but I mean if you really want to." He said which confused me.
He hesitantly help his shirt up and my eyes widened when I realized what he was thinking.
This asshole. I hurriedly ran back to may room slam the door and locked it. He really thought that I was there to satisfy his carnal needs?
I freaking gave him a chance. A chance to kill me or torture but he let it go. He let that chance go down the drain. It was useless to put up a fight with him because he already knew how to unlock my door and kill me easily and so I obliged and gave him a chance to execute what he was planning.
Stupid! Idiot motherfucker.!!!
I gave a chance, ONE chance and he wasted it. I'm not letting this go. Wala ng pagkakataon pa para mapatay niya ako. I will repay him.
Ako naman ngayon ang mag tatangka sa buhay mo. Even if you don't give me a chance to do so, I WILL kill you!
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