บท 40: Forty: MTOABB

MTOABB

I didn’t need a pill to make me lose control, it was the thought of him alone that got the job done.

I’m outside _Gomes

At this time _Rossita

Why was he outside? He remembers now that I exist after a whole week of no communication - let me laugh. Annoyance couldn’t begin to explain my emotions.

Come outside, even if it’s just for a minute. I sort of miss your face _Gomes

Have you met my mother? I can’t _Rossita

That was the first excuse to many - he can’t possibly be the reason I am hurt this much, I’m too young for that. But… I can’t think of anyone that makes me feel important one second and not the next. I have so many questions for him, but somehow I don’t know how to ask them and yet they sit at the back of my mind, haunting me.

So you want me to leave? _Gomes

Yes _Rossita

He doesn’t respond and I have the urge to climb out of bed and peak through the curtains to see if he was still there and what if he was? What do I want to do with that information?