บท 33: Change Of Mind

Inside the car.

Yan Xiaoran and Yan Wu Jing stayed silent as they didn't know what to say to each other.

They didn't know why but after going inside the car and the hug they shared outside, the awkward feeling suddenly appeared when they were alone.

It must be because the two of them has not seen each other for a long time that when they first had seen each other, they immediately reacted to the bonds they shared in the past and when it was done, the two of them didn't know what to talk about and where to start.

Yan Wu Jing kept glancing at his daughter and finally said after some hesitations, "How are you?"

"I'm doing well." Yan Xiaoran responded, "What about you, dad? How's life going?"

Yan Wu Jing sighed and said, "It will never be fine after hearing what happened to you."

He looked at his daughter's reaction and saw that her body tensed up after he said that.

"You don't have to feel afraid, darling. I heard everything and I know you will never do what others are accusing you. I know my daughter and don't need others to tell me otherwise." Yan Wu Jing seriously said, trying to give his daughter peace of mind.

He knew that his daughter was feeling guilty and might be wondering what he thought about the things that happened to her as well as the scandalous issue surrounding her.

But he didn't want her to feel guilty towards something she never did and wanted to clarify to her that no matter what she did, Yan Wu Jing would support her and will be there for her.

Unfortunately, Yan Wu Jing regretted that he couldn't say these words to her 3 years ago and wasn't there for her when she was suffering the most.

That's why, after seeing his daughter, Yan Wu Jing promised he will never let his daughter feel the same pain she felt in the past and will never let her suffer.

"Thank you, dad... Thank you for not abandoning me." Yan Xiaoran softly said. She didn't want to cry in front of her father but her voice cracked as soon as she said that.

The people whom she treated and deemed precious to her abandoned her as soon as she was accused of murder. They flocked around her when she was still at the top but as soon as she was pulled down the ground, they quickly turned their backs on her without even a second glance.

However, it seems there was someone who still hasn't left her side and abandoned her. It was her father whom she thought will never appear in her life again.

Yan Wu Jing reached his hand to her and take a hold of her hand. He noticed that the soft and small hand that belonged to his daughter changed into rough ones, the evidence of the hardships she had to go through all this time.

"What are you saying. Daddy will never abandon you, darling. This time, I will always be here for you and support you." Yan Wu Jing smiled at her.

While he was smiling at her, anger bubbled up inside him as he wanted to crush the people who did this to his baby but right now, Yan Wu Jing wanted to cherish this moment right now and later, he would think of some ways to get back to the people who made his daughter suffer.

"By the way, have you eaten already? I see that you've lost some weight. It's better if you eat a lot more so you can gain more energy when the time comes where we will meet our enemies." He said.

Yan Xiaoran took a glance at her father and bit her lips. Whenever she was nervous or guilty, she would always bite her lips or lick it.

Seeing her father having a motivated look on his face, she knew that her father was quite determined to get his revenge against her mother and his enemies. However, she was unsure whether she shared the same thoughts as her father.

A few days ago, she was just like her father and was quite fired up to see Zhao Shuxin and her mother's expressions once they see her, but just a glimpse of them at the party, Yan Xiaoran's body shook tremendously.

It was not because she feared them. It was because of the anger and sadness she felt for all the years she spent with them and inside the prison.

Seeing that his daughter went silent after his words landed, Yan Wu Jing looked at his daughter with concern.

He immediately said after, "I'm sorry. I didn't consider your feelings on this matter. It's just that, I'm so angry at what they did to both of us. Yu Jinyan didn't even consider you as her daughter and let other people trample on you."

"It's okay, Dad. I understand you." Yan Xiaoran leaned on the headrest as she closed her eyes. She already decided to give up on the idea of getting back against those wicked people, but she won't stop her father from doing what he wanted to do.

Whether he wanted to get his revenge or not, just like how her father declared he will be there for her, Yan Xiaoran swore that no matter what her father's decision, she will follow him.

During this whole time when she was rained outside the park and after she woke up inside Alexander's mansion, Yan Xiaoran was not idle. Her mind was swamped with different kinds of thoughts and weighed her decision.

No matter how she sees it, she was the one who was always at the losing end. Whether she chose to forget about her revenge or not, she will not gain any profit from it. Instead, she will stay the same Yan Xiaoran in the past that was easy to trample on and never fought back against her oppressors.

How can she possibly find a change in herself and get her freedom back when she still hasn't gotten over yet with her past self?

Opening her eyes again, a pair of steady and calm hazel brown eyes stared at the faint reflection of herself.

Yan Xiaoran wanted to laugh at herself for thinking she could just forget and let go of everything. If she really wanted to find a new her, she must kill her past self and to do that…

She must face her enemies once again.