บท 63: Getting Better
It was the next day when I tried to do something about Vezena. After taking care of that creatures physical needs, it was time to try to see if I could heal its wounds. I have yet to actually peer at what I had caused in its mind-scape.
To make sure that I was not interrupted by other needs, I had already completed what I needed to do around the house, prior to facing this challenge. Without the knowledge on what I might face, being forced to stop in the middle could possibly bring about some negative consequences. Therefore, making sure I was ready to start before doing anything else, was key.
With my limited training in healing wounds caused to the mind, I did not have much hope in that I could heal anything with my first try. Depending on what damage I forced onto that creature, it might be a difficult task to even locate the damaged area, or areas. A small wound, in the mind, can be debilitating while being minuscule.
Forcing out all other thoughts from my mind, I am going to start delving. It is hard to describe what something's mind looks like, and I am ill prepared to justify what I saw. All I can say, was I found the problem after a decent amount of time. And then I found more and more, throughout my search.
A good majority of the wounds in the psyche that I was engaged with, had been there for a long time. Some of them had started healing in their own warped way. The troubles that this woman had gone through, was beyond what I could currently understand. What had caused all this damage to her, that was not of my own doing?
Now, life does cause damage to the mind. Some amount of telling damage was to be expected. A loss of someone close to them, realization of thoughts assumed to be correct, and later proven to be false, are just some of the things that can hurt somebodies mind.
Her mind, was damaged to a scale that showed off the suffering that she must have endured. Seeing wounds does not tell, in the slightest, on what caused them. There was still no way for me to tell what her reasons for attacking me, without going into skills that I had, but still had yet to learn how to use.
I am not a Good Samaritan to wantonly heal all the damage that she had suffered through. Growing up, and learning to live through some of the negatives of all, that everyone faces, is part of maturing. Some of those scars were needed for Vezena to be an adult, like her body showed that she was. But, still, I still had to patch together some of those pieces to help correct the tapestry of her mind.
It was days of labor, though not physical, till I presumed that I healed her to the extent where she might survive as a person again. I am not naive enough to assume that the work I did to heal her was perfect. But with what I have done for her, once she rests for a little bit more, she should slowly start to wake up.
Leaving Vezena alone to recover, I now have time to work for my own betterment. There is no more point on over-analyzing what may happen, as it will happen. Other than still keeping her secure, I can ignore her for the time being.
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While I do not mind eating just vegetables, especially fresh ones, my diet has been lackluster over the past couple days, as I had been tending to my patient. I had not spent any time on making any satisfying food during that whole time. Chores, a relatively quick meal, and then going about caring for her, that was all I had been doing. I spent a relatively little amount of time, on my own pleasures.
I need some food other than the produce from the garden. I want to eat some fresh meat. And the only way to get that, was to go hunting.
I have not reared any animal for consumption. The time and money to invest in that, I did not have. Especially with the abundance of wild animals in the surrounding forest, there was also not the need to waste my efforts on that type of work.
While in my previous life, hunting was looked down upon, there is a need for hunting, when wild animals are forced to interact with mankind. Mankind produces food in large quantities, that is simpler for animals to procure, then spending their time to hunt for their own food in other places. So as to limit the damage on my own effort, there is a need to cull the amount of animals that may become a scourge to what I spent many hours creating.
With the culling of wildlife, protecting my own consistent food source, other benefits can be acquired. No part of a wild animal needs to go to waste. Bones, skin, meat, fat, can all be utilized in some fashion or another.
Skills that I do not have, prohibit me from being able to use all the parts of the animals, myself. But, even though I can not use them, I can still trade them to some of the other people in the village, and obtain some money, or other needed items. So, for me, hunting is not a thing that I will not do, as I do benefit from it.
The income that I have made from selling animal skins, provided me enough money for me to acquire the most basic of resources, when I was first trying to start my household. It was not nearly enough for me to live a comfortable life, but it was a boon that I used. And unlike my previous life, I have no guilt over having to deal with what I could only deal with nuisances.
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ApollyonDais Just to be honest, I have no problem with people hunting for food. I also don't have a problem with people killing animals that threaten someone's well being. Though, I do have a problem with people killing animals, just to have a trophy. I'm not trying to be controversial, just stating my own thoughts.
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