บท 49: Moral vs greed

After the rush of pleasure disappeared, all left was the loathsome feeling in his heart.

He had prepared and expected this feeling the moment he decided to choose over his greed, but this feeling was far worse than he had imagined.

In the beginning, he never had feelings for Ibara, and everything he did was only for the system, but with time, even raindrops would break through the stone.

He would lie if her gentleness and innocence didn't move his feelings.

While he didn't want to say this, he felt he had always felt alone in this world.

His parents weren't his real parents, his friends weren't his real friends, and the girlfriends he made were all because he was scared to live in this world.

He was cowardly and didn't want to die anymore, so he sought after the power to live a peaceful life in this messed-up world.

However, could he live a peaceful life when he thought about how many hearts he broke apart?

Frankly, what had happened last night couldn't be blamed on him alone.

Kendo also gave him a chance to move, and she also didn't hide her obvious desire. She even kissed him.

However, she couldn't be blamed alone, and it was unmanly to blame the woman when he made a move, knowing what kind of hurtful things he had done to Ibara.

His actions aside, he knew Ibara would have a hard time after knowing what he had done.

Yet would he tell her?

Probably not.

It was better to keep everything under wraps.

After all, in knowing nothing, life is most delightful.

He looked at Kendo, who slept soundly on his chest and breathed evenly yet showed exhaustion on her face.

In the past, he might lightly say that he could become a hunter that would hunt down every woman who could trigger his system, but when he had done it, he didn't expect that it would give him this kind of feeling.

Loathing, regret, agony, dismay, mortification, and many other negative feelings appeared instantly.

If he wasn't in the bedroom, he might vomit, realizing how disgusting he was.

Some people might be able to do this kind of thing easily, without thinking, and even happily do it.

However, it seemed he didn't have the knack for it since the feeling which shrouded his heart at this moment was far from delightful.

This feeling was horrible, especially when he thought of Ibara's disappointment in him.

Yet it was also impossible for him to show such an expression now.

He had to act and show a loving expression in front of Kendo since she had given him her first.

It was also impossible to regret, and he could think about what they should do after Kendo had woken up.

However, even knowing what he had done was wrong, he hated himself even more, when he thought about how he still had time to check the rewards he had gained from the system.

He didn't want to say this, but even so, the rewards he gained from the system had always been outrageous.

Unlike the rewards he got from Ibara, the rewards he got from Itsuka might be quite plain, but they were all amazing.

"Disease Immunity," "Poison Immunity," and "Psychic Immunity" gave him immunity toward the respective conditions.

"Disease Immunity" gave him immunity against various diseases. In other words, he couldn't get sick.

"Poison Immunity" gave him immunity toward various poisons. In other words, he couldn't get poisoned.

"Psychic Immunity" gave him immunity toward psychic phenomena regardless of their nature and origin (natural, supernatural, magical, technological, etc.). In other words, his mind cannot be controlled, damaged, read, influenced, emulated, altered, detected, or communicated with, forcing him to be telepathic. Still, if he gave permission, one would be able to use their telepathic ability on him.

However, those three abilities were only at "Expert" mastery, so he wasn't totally immune to disease, poison, or psychic phenomena, but he believed that he should be mostly okay since he had never heard of anyone who had an ability or phenomena which could destroy the world, so in this world, no one should be able to harm him or affect him with those respective conditions.

Still, what was amazing was that those abilities could be combined with his "Support Drink."

In the past, his "Support Drink" could only recover 50% of one's stamina, injuries, strength, etc., along with detoxifying poisons.

However, by adding his three new abilities, his "Support Drink" could also recover someone from disease, poison, or psychic phenomena.

If he was in the RPG game, he would be a powerful supporter now.

Everyone would excitedly come to him and invite him to their parties since his abilities were off the charts.

On the other hand, his last reward made him speechless.

He knew that once he did "that," the reward was just too much.

In Ibara's case, he got the "Lunar" (Master).

On the other hand, in Kendo's case, he got the "Stamina" (Master).

The effect of this ability was simple.

Unlimited stamina.

That's all.

It was as simple as that, but it didn't give him anything other than stamina.

It didn't increase his strength, speed, healing factor, or any others.

Only stamina.

As for how it works, please don't ask him since he also didn't know how to answer this question.

The only thing he knew was that he would never get tired, no matter the circumstances, including conceptual attacks, curses, or divine forces attempting to limit or weaken his endless and boundless stamina.

Even if he used his power without limit, he would still be okay, without feeling the slightest fatigue.

It was an awesome ability, but it made his mind numb.

While what he did to two girls was loathsome, the rewards he got from doing such a loathsome action were too outrageous.

His morals hurt him, but his greed was dancing with happiness.

He had a complicated feeling, which was hard to describe.

He rubbed his glabella and wasn't sure what to do for a while, but he knew that Kendo hadn't given him everything.

What they did was just have sex, and they didn't go out with each other, so he didn't get daily points from dating or three random rewards, which he would receive if he made a new girlfriend.

He looked at Kendo for a moment and was in a complicated mood.

"..You haven't slept yet?"

Kendo opened her eyes lightly and asked when she saw he hadn't slept.

"...I can't sleep for some reason. I always wonder whether everything is just a dream."

"...Do you regret what we're doing?" Kendo asked. Naturally, while she was happy, she also regretted doing this since she knew she had hurt Ibara, but she had given her virginity to him. He was the man to whom she chose to give her virginity, so when she thought he regretted what they were doing hurt her heart.

"No, of course not!"

He held her tightly in his arms and said softly, "I just still couldn't believe that a girl as wonderful as you can be with me now. I am a happy man."

While Kendo didn't know whether this guy was lying or not, she was happy hearing his words.

"So never say that, alright? I have never regretted my actions. When I am with you, it feels wonderful. I can be how I am with you, and you can always bring me a smile. I am happy that you can be with me."

"Me too."

Kendo smiled and asked him to hug her tighter, so they could be closer. "I love you. I don't know when it starts, but this is how I feel about you, and I am happy that we can be together." Her teal eyes stared into him, and she said, "Stay with me, alright?"

"I will," he said firmly.

<Congra—>

He deactivated the notification in his system. He sighed inwardly while brushing her bangs lightly. "Do you want to do it again?"

"...." Kendo.

"Well, you should sleep. I know you're tired. You should rest more since we will have school in the morning." He sighed with regret.

"Um."

Kendo kissed and hugged him tightly, telling him they should do it again tomorrow since it felt amazing. Yet even if it was amazing, she was exhausted and had to go to school tomorrow.

If she slept in class, how could she explain it to the teachers?

Watching her sleep, he sighed in relief and felt tired even though he had a "Stamina" ability (Master).

'Let's deal with this matter later.'

He also closed his eyes to sleep while worrying about what would happen in the future.