บท 1: prologue
Hi...
Before writing this, i Will ask you, where are you reading this ?
Who where you when you read this ?
Are you brother or sister ? are you male or female ?
Am i good mother to you ? ah, not you, but you guys ?
Is my guess wrong, if you have two ?
How about your father ia he the man on charge ?
If ia may guess, surely your father hasil avery, very handsome look ? has always told in novels.
Ah, i give up. i can't guess your faces and guess your father's face. i can now only hope that whoever will become your father later is a man who is responsible and always gives love and affection.
how is your life now ? are you happy ?
where are you and your dad now ? are you guys still with us ? or do you already have your own family ?
what year did you read this ?
I write this note for you to those of you who will be present in the future, i hope this note can be a memory in the future, and as a learning for me, you, and him.
this is also a reminder for me and my younger brother. a reminder that we were at our lowest point, a reminder that we are always grateful, and a reminder that we are always eager to face life.
it turns out to be true, if the wheel of life continues to spin. my be now we are at the top, and maybe someday we can be at the bottom. maybe now we feel happy, and maybe someday we feel lost.
life will never know, we will never know in the future what will be like ? only god can answer all for it.
oh, yeah, just to tell you guys. as i write this, i'm in my room, with a silence that always greets me. my brother is in school. it is now 15.48 western Indonesia time.
in the past, i often heard many people say " the world is cruel ", apparently, after i grew up, what they said about this world was true. it truns out that the world was cruel.
you don't need to worry I will always try to be the best. now I'm preparing myself to become a better parent for you guys later.
first, I had thought to get married at a young age. however, as soon as I realized, I did not deserve to be a good wife and a good mother to you. I am 19 years old now. maybe, one, two, three, or even four more years for me to be ready to get married.
there are still many dreams that I want to realize for now, I think I still have a long way to go.
I hope someday I can watch you guys grow and until you get married. if my hopes are wrong and God instead calls me or even your father first. I am sorry, sometimes there are plans beyond my will.
if that happens i believe in god love you guys. I want you to be happy. I always try to create a better life for you in the future.
make this book your future learning.
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