บท 94: Game Plan (Conflict)
ELLE
"Sigurado ka bang hindi sayo ang lipstick sa long sleeve ni Kyle babae? Isipin mong mabuti baka nakalimutan mo lang." Vanessa said to me while looking again at the picture of the long sleeve who has a lipstick stain on it..
"Oo nga bakla. You know, hindi tayo agad pwedeng magconclude based lang sa nakita mong mantsa ng lipstick diyan sa long sleeve ni Kyle, unless may proof ka talaga na may other woman na nangyayari sa buhay niya.." Patty added.
"Alam niyo, pag kasama niyo ang isang tao especially ang asawa niyo, may malalaman talaga kayong bago sa kanya.. May bagay na lalong magpapainlove sa inyo, at may bagay rin na mapapaisip ka kung bat mo siya pinakasalan. As for Kyle's case, wala ng question sa pagmamahal ko sa kanya, sa dami ba namang nangyari bago kami ikasal diba?" Tumango naman sila sa sinabi ko..
"And besides, alam kong mahal rin ako ni Kyle.. It's just that..." Nagdadalawang isip kong sabi.. "It's just that what?" Patty asked..
I sighed..
"It's just that parang nagbago na yung Kyle na minahal ko dati. May mga gabing lasing na siya kung umuwi, everytime na tinatanong ko siya, he only says, nagkayayaan lang.. Isang gabi muntikan na kaming mag-away dahil he wanted to you know what I mean kaso I rejected him kasi nga pagod ako and wala ako sa mood that night.. The whole night hindi niya ako pinansin.." Nagtinginan naman ang dalawa sa sinabi ko..
"Hmm, wala akong masabi kundi sikapin mong maging mabuting asawa kay Kyle, Elle.. Boys have fantasies in life.. You need to fulfill their fantasies or else.." Vanessa paused..
"Or else....?" Tanong ko.. "Or else hahanap yan ng ibang init.." Patty said in a lower voice.. Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig sa sinabi nila..
"Pero sa nakikita ko kay Kyle, mukhang hindi naman gagawa ng milagro ang isang yun, Elle. Ang tanga na niya if magloloko pa siya diba?" Vanessa said maybe she's trying to light up the mood, but it didn't help. Lalong lumakas ang kaba ko sa sinabi nila.. Ngayon ay napapaisip ako if mabuting asawa ba ako kay Kyle...
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Kinagabihan....
Nasa sala ako at kumakain ng mansanas. Wala pa si Kyle at pasado alas 10 na ng gabi.. Kanina pa ako inaantok pero gusto ko siyang hintayin dahil wala pa nga siya..
Di nagtagal ay may narinig akong busina ng kotse sa labas. Dali-dali akong lumabas upang pagbuksan siya ng gate. Pinark niya muna ang kotse bago siya bumaba.
"Kumain ka na ba?" Tanong ko sa kanya pagkababa niya sa kotse. Ngunit tinignan niya ako.. At ang masasabi ko lang, lasing na naman siya..
"Bat gising ka pa?" Sabi niya at sumandal sa kotse niya.. "Hinihintay talaga kita. Kain tayo?" Tanong ko.. "Huwag na. Wala akong ganang kumain. Matutulog na ako." He said coldly at naglakad na papasok ng bahay. Sumunod ako.
"Ano ba Kyle, gabi-gabi ka na lang ba umuuwi ng lasing?! May problema ka ba?" Hindi ko mapigilang hindi mainis sa kanya.. He look at me.. That stare gives me shivers not because of excitement but because of fear..
"Problema? Wala naman. Bakit ikaw gusto mong magkaproblema tayo?" And with that he started to approach me. Nakakatakot ang awra niya.. Nanginginig man, ay nagawa ko pa ring magsalita..
"Alam mo, lasing ka lang Kyle. Halika na, matulog na tayo.." I was about to walk away from him when he grabbed my hand and lean me on the wall.. He stares at me like he's a stranger..
"Are you in a hurry, Elle? Hindi ba asawa kita and may obligasyon ka na paligayahin at pasiyahin ako?" He asked and started to lean towards me. I can smell that alcohol scent from his breath.. Urgh!
"Kyle ano ba, hindi ka na nakakatuwa!" I tried to push him away but didn't help instead he locked me up in his arms.. I tried to escape but he's just too strong..
"You smell so good, Elle.. I'm so lucky to have you.. Now..." And then he smirked.. An evil smirk... "I will own you.." And with that he started to kiss me on my neck harshly.. "K-kyle please stop!" I tried to push him away, pero ikinulong niya lamang ang mga kamay ko sa taas ng ulo ko..
His kiss started to roam my neck down to my collarbone and kissed me on my lips but I don't feel the love he's been giving me before.. He's different now..
"P-please stop.." Ngunit hindi siya nakinig. Sandali niyang binitiwan ang mga kamay ko na sa akala ko ay nakinig na siya ngunit nagkakamali ako. I was about to take a step away from him when he suddenly carry me and throw me at the sofa here in our living room. He then remove his clothes and lean towards me again. I tried to look away when he has the urge to kiss me again on my lips..
"Look at me, Elle. You're only mine.. Only mine! You get that?! No one can ever have you, ako lang! Naiintindihan mo ba?!" He held me on my chin as I felt hurt there. He strip my dress revealing my body to him. He looked at it like he's amazed but what bothers me, is the way he look at it.. A smirk has formed in his face..
"Kyle please stop, -- please..." Pagmamakaawa ko.. Ngunit gaya kanina, tila isang magandang musika ito sa kanyang mga pandinig.. He harshly massaged my mountains as he reached for my clit.. Without a warning, he slid his 3 fingers on my core giving me some pain below there.. Tears fell out from my eyes as what he's doing to me..
"D-do you like it, Elle?! Tell me, do you like it?" He said.. But I didn't reply.. He removed his fingers on it and positioned himself on top of me..
"Now, I will own you.. You're mine Elle.. Remember that!" He spread my legs and without any cue, he entered and thrust faster.. Lalong lumakas ang pag-iyak ko dahil sa kanyang ginagawa ngunit tila bumalik ang alaala ko nung panahong muntikan na akong gahasain ni Nick.. Kyle came to save me, but now, He's the one who's doing this to me..
"K-kyle... please stop... please... maawa ka..." I pleaded breathless.
What he's doing to me is no love at all. It's a pure lust and loss and hatred on myself.. I feel so wasted and worthless as to what he's doing to me..
"K-kylee...." Muling pagtawag ko sa kanya.. Ngunit hindi siya natinag. He started to move faster. I don't feel the usual sensation before, what I feel now is toughness, roughness, harshness in every movement he made..
Yung Kyle na minahal ko, never niyang gagawin saakin ito. Yung Kyle na minahal ako, kailanman ay hindi niya ipipilit ang mga bagay na ayaw ko. At itong Kyle na kasalukuyang pinagsasawaan ang katawan ko, hindi ito ang Kyle na minahal ko. Ibang-iba siya sa Kyle na minahal at nakilala ko..
Wala na akong nagawa kundi ang hayaan siyang gawin ang nais niya sa katawan ko.. Iba't-ibang styles meron pang nasasaktan na talaga ako hanggang sa natapos na siya..
I heard his snore.. He's into a deep sleep. I hugged myself letting the tears fall down from my eyes as I feel like I was being abused by my own husband..
I saw some scratches and red marks on my thighs maybe because of how hard and harsh he was a while ago..
With trembling knees and my clit is still swollen, I stood up and headed to the bathroom and opened the shower. I feel so hopeless.. I felt sexually exploited.. Hinayaan kong bumagsak ang mga tubig na nagmumula sa shower sa katawan ko ngunit ang bagay na nagbigay pansin saakin ay ang pagtulo ng mga luha ko..
"Why Kyle, why? Why'd you do this to me?" I whispered...
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