บท 17: Sasha's anger
They were safe for the meanwhile.
Emil had to wait for Sasha to wake up, so in the meantime, he soaked some clean cloth in the water to clean of the blood and mud stains on Sasha's face.
He even removed his shirt to clean his upper body! An outsider would might think something dirty, but Emil had a pure mind at that moment, he only wanted him to feel clean and comfortable when he wakes up.
While doing that, he realized how dirty he himself was and decided to take a bath.
He knows that it isn't the time for that, with the danger roaming outside, but he had nothing better to do until Sasha's consciousness came back.
Stripping his clothes, he took a quick bath to remove all the dirt he accumulated by rolling on the mud.
Now dripping wet, he made his way to the fire to warm himself up. He put back on his pants, but let his upper body free to let those water droplets rolling down his chiseled body, evaporate.
His wet black hair stuck to his face, making his skin look a lighter ton then it was and his silver eyes were glowing with a mysterious light, comparable to the moon; it was an ethereal sight, as if god himself crafted this handsome man.
Not many would be able to resist this guy, not even Chameleon could. But sadly, Emil's attitude did not fit his looks, he was like a mischievous child, hating to lose and loving to win.
If Emilié saw him, she would have been shocked by how much she resembled him.
People would even think, Bethea had cheated on Sasha with Emil, if it were not for Leevi resembling his father; God's creation is truly an incomprehensible mystery.
Emil sat next to Sasha, feeling the warmth on his skin, and in his heart just by seeing him. He only had to wake up and they would be out of here.
Emil looked at his unconscious state and contemplated. What should he do with those feelings?
Sasha and he were both married, he couldn't act on those emotions.
He knew it will be a torture to see, but not able to touch, but this was, how it was! He had to lock up his love for him!
Emil watched Sasha sleeping there peacefully and felt a magnetic pull calling to him to act on those secret desires he had.
He tries to fight against them, but in the end lost control.
He traced with his finger Sasha's eyebrows, wandering slowly down to his eyes, to his lips, down to his collarbone and his stone hard eight pack; that went up and down with every breath Sasha took.
He went back up to his heart putting his palm there, to felt the strong beats of Sasha's heart and appreciate god's beautiful work.
How could a person look so handsome? He thinks, while not taking his own looks into consideration.
He traced with his finger up and finally stopped on his lips, watching them with a fervent desire.
How he wished to taste them, those pink soft lips trembling under his finger; what kind of delight that would be.
Emil's mind being deeply gone in his secret desires, didn't notice Sasha's eyelashes slightly moving.
He was stirring up from his deep slumber and his eyes opened. He was still in a haze and his vision was blurred, he only saw black and silver colored streaks, mixed with the orange light the fire emitted.
These were the dominant characteristics of Emil, so only one person came to Sasha's mind, it was Emil; but he remembered them being under attack and had to seperate. How could he be next to him?
"Emil?"
Now fully conscious he sat up, waking Emil from his stupor.
Emil flinched and pulled back his finger hoping Sasha didn't realize anything.
The happiness in his heart grew with Sasha's awakening and to down play the wrong thoughts he had a moment ago, he prepared to jump into a bear hug with Sasha.
But before that, he was stopped by Sasha's questions, which made him pale and an awful side to look at; he resembled a bit of an abandoned puppy.
"Why are you here and where are the others? Are we safe now? Did back up come saving us?" he was confused.
Sasha felt something was wrong. If the others were safe now, why were they not here? He looked at Emil's face, which was getting unsightlier by the minute.
Realization dawned to him, he looked around with panic, there was no trace of anyone other than them. He looked back at Emil, his eyes wide with an incredulous look.
"What happened?" His sharp eyes bored into Emil, there was no space for deception in his voice, he wanted to hear the truth and not something Emil came up with in the spur of the moment.
Sasha knew Emil for long enough to know he would lie to him, for him not to feel bad.
"S-Sasha w-well ehmm.." Emil had no idea how to start, should he say he abandoned everyone to rescue their own skins.
Looking down on the stone ground, he gripped his pants hard, digging his fingers into his flesh.
He knew Sasha wouldn't forgive him for what he did. He swallowed down the accumulated saliva in his mouth and told him what has unfolded in the time he was unconscious.
Naturally letting out the part about that Sera woman, keeping that a secret. If Sasha heard he colluded with the enemy, he would label Emil for the rest of his life as a traitor.
That was not what Emil wished to be seen as, so he let that out.
"So you abandoned them.", came Sasha's hollow voice ringing in Emil's ear.
Emil immediately looked up from the ground tears wallowing up his eyes. "I'm sorry Sasha, but I had to! They were already dead, I could do nothing for them! You were the only one alive. I couldn't have you left there to share the same fate as our fallen brothers!"
"Don't call them that! You have no right to call any of them as your brother! They fought to survive, and YOU!! You ran like a rat, abandoning them! I had rather died in honor, then be so disgraced! You embarrassed me to such extent, how will I be able now to lift up my head in front of them and call myself their captain?!" He hollered at Emil, his voice growing louder with every word.
He had not appreciated one bit the effort Emil went through, just to safe his pretty ass. Instead he accused him and hurt his heart deeply.
Why could Sasha not understand, that everything Emil did was for him?
Sasha met with silence and soft tremors coming from Emil, his tears fell silently down the floor. To be seen as such a low person, he was just hurt.
He had nothing to retort back to Sasha's accusations.
"I will go. I want to die like an honorable soldier on the battleground. That is the least I can do to appease my fallen brothers! You can stay and cover here like a coward!"said Sasha and turned around to leave the cave.
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Quhon Notice me babble:
Don't be mistaken, this is a GL story and not BL, I just love to write sensual context, but that will grow fewer with the oncoming chapters, until Emilié's love starts to bloom that is 'smug face'
But I have to say, the almost rape scene at the start, was't fun at all, it enraged me (⋋▂⋌)
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