After that day I gave him two weeks
maybe it's for me to think too
After 2weeks I by Friday I went at my bestfriends shop to see Tohka so that I can invite her to church but ended up chatting there about Itachii
hmp just the thought of it makes me mad
he said he is no ones Oniichan
So I sat down by the side of my friends trycicle *Tohka!!! * her mother suddenly called for her then she gave me her phone and because we are best friends I knew her pincodes so I read her convo with Itachii
Then disappointment hit me
I read that tohka was asking if she could call him Oniichan and he agreed when he said to me that (he's no ones Oniichan!!!)
the fudge he's getting on my nerves !!!
~then I back read once again ~
he said that
[Claire reminds me so much of my ex]
and she replied [so Claire was just like a rebound for you!?]
I couldn't stand he's answer [I think so]
the nerves!
I was a rebound!
and he has an ex!?
for almost a year he never told me that and I guess he doesn't intend to
When all this time I thought it was all my fault
so I always stopped his suicidal thoughts
but then I realized it wasn't all my fault at all
then he dared to say on his chat with Tohka that I was backstabbing him!
when all I ever did was cry because of him
even if each mutual friends of ours only heard his side and I looked like the bad person I never blamed him, never!
then they returned and I went silent we just went to Tohka's house and we went straight into her room
then Tohka suddenly asked "what nightcore music do you want?"
"Don't watch me cry,then the just let it play all of the sad nightcores like "it will be alright", "happier", "I'm paralyzed" and so on
then we sang together and stopped then we both look away from each other then silently cried