บท 54: Bad person

Without waiting for her reply, Kevin mockingly smiled and said," Huh what am I saying? You really should leave me if you find someone nice. I mean you deserve much better than this useless person who is sitting on the floor all drunk and too lazy to get up and sit on the bed. You know what, I give you the liberty to leave me and go away with a better man who can give you much more than I can."

Silvia shook her head and said," Why are you saying that? You are perfect Kevin. You are the kind of a man that every woman wants to have. Just because Emily did not value you doesn't make you an inferior man. She was blind and stupid to let go such an amazing person that you are."

Kevin chuckled and said," Well that makes me feel good. Just a little bit."

Pausing for a while, Kevin said," Watching her getting married wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. The feeling of having you standing beside me completely overshadowed the little pain that was feeling in my heart."

" Kev we can talk tomorrow. You need to rest." Silvia said.

" You know what happened after you left?" Kevin asked.

When Silvia shook her head, Kevin chuckled and said," I wanted to clear my mind so I decided to drink a small glass. I swear just a small one but then things changed when I started thinking about you."

" About me?" Silvia asked.

Kevin vigorously nodded his head and said," When I thought about you leaving me just like Emily did, I felt sour and unhappy. So I drank another glass. Then I thought about you leaving with another man leaving me alone, so I drank one more glass. Then I kept on thinking and drinking at the same time and I got drunk."

Cupping his face, Silvia said," I will never leave you Kevin. So don't worry about that take this thing out of you mind. You have to deal with my heavy eating habits for your entire life."

Placing his head on her lap, Kevin wrapped his arms around her waist and said," I don't want you to leave me. I don't know why but I don't want to lose you. You won't leave me alone right?"

Running her fingers through his hair, Silvia said," Never."

Pausing for a while, Kevin asked," Am I a bad person Silvia? When I was a kid, my mom used to tell me that bad things happen to bad people. So bad things are happening to me, so that makes me a bad person right?"

Silvia shook her head and said," No you are not."

" I forced you to marry me, obviously I am bad. I wanted to marry someone because I wanted to get over everything and move on in life. Well, I can say that I am slowly getting over everything but your life is ruined. You are stuck here with a man whom you barely know. You don't have feelings for me but yet you had to marry me. I know you wanted to marry out of love but I ruined everything for you. Now that makes me a bad and selfish person. I am sorry for doing this to you. I am sorry." Kevin said.

" Kev it's not like that. I married you by choice and not because someone forced me to." Silvia said.

" But still you had to compromise and marry without feelings right? Getting up, Kevin grabbed Silvia's hand and said," But I swear I will try my best to give a very happy life. I promise I will never let you down." Kevin said.

Silvia smiled and said," Come let's go and sleep."

" You trust me right?" Kevin asked.

Silvia nodded her head and said," Yes I do."

Getting up with Silvia's help, Kevin said," Well then that is all that I need. Trust me and don't leave me and I will make everything worth it for you and for us."

Helping him lay down on the bed, Silvia said," Sleep and stop overthinking."

Grabbing he hand, Kevin asked," You are not going anywhere right?"

" I'll be right here with you." Silvia said.

" Hmm then it's fine." Kevin said before slowly closing his eyes.

When Silvia heard his steady breathing, she removed his shoes and kept aside.

Staring at him for quite some time, Silvia took a deep breath before walking to the other side of the bed.

Adjusting the pillow under his head, Silvia caressed his hair for a while before dozing off you sleep.

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In the middle of the night, Silvia woke up when she him sitting up straight on the bed.

Placing his hand on his shoulder, Silvia asked," What's wrong?"

Pulling her into his embrace, Kevin murmured," Please help me, I am not like this."

" Kevin are you okay?" Silvia asked.

Kevin shook his head and said," Nothing is okay. I don't want to be like this. I wish to live a peaceful life with you Silvia. I don't want other things to affect me. I want-"

" Shh shh relax. Everything is gonna be okay. We will get over this together." Silvia said before wrapping her arms around him.

Pushing him down, Silvia kissed his forehead and said," Sleep for now. We can talk about this tomorrow."

Wrapping his arms around her waist, Kevin buried his face on her neck slowly drifted to sleep.

Caressing his hair with one hand and rubbing his arm with the other, Silvia also slept after she felt his steady breathing.

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