บท 19: The Forbidden fruit (3)

"Lindy my love, I am so sorry… I thought I was dreaming once again" He came towards me, held both of my hands and looked into my eyes. I gazed into his. We slowly shared a simple kiss. It looked simple but my heart danced just to be pressed by his lips, I felt like he wouldn't stop, it felt like we could carry on and on kissing. The warmness of his hug, gosh the scent on his shirt it gave me Goosebumps, I hang on tight as I tightened my grip around his waist. He could feel that this hug was tight, he placed his head just close to my ear I could hear his breathing, the warm air he exhaled as he caressed my back. It felt as if he was assuring me that everything was going to be ok.

"So this means that you guys didn't do it right?" Musa probed.

"If you mean the forbidden fruit, we actually did taste it!" J.R jested, as slowly loosened from me.

"Oh no!," Musa expressed in disappointment.

"He's joking Moos, we didn't do anything we are waiting for the right time… right babe" I probed.

"Certainly," J.R replied looking directly into my eyes and kissed me on my forehead.

"Yes, yes, yes I knew you guys would confine yourselves" Musa expressed in excitement.

We then sat on the couch and he uttered words that melted my heart and made me not want to move away from him.

"From the day, I laid my eyes on you; I knew from that very moment that you and I was a match made from heaven…." He said this brushing my hair. And I couldn't help it but to smile.

J.R should have become a psalmist because every word that he uttered always had a reason, he doesn't just speak meaningless words without reason. I gazed into his eyes and everyone there in the room could see that he spoke from the bottom of his heart.

"I think we should let these two love birds reconcile guys" said Musa.

"Yeah, I think so too" said Trevor.

"Sorry guys we'll meet up with you later ok… I still need to spend time with my lady here…" He said this facing me.

"Guys, uhm I'll be leaving soon…" said Sli as she walked towards J.R and I, her expression wasn't that convincing, her expressionless face showed otherwise. She wasn't happy at all.

"Are you going back to France?" asked Musa.

"Yeah, I have too, my work is done here" she said.

"You are not going anywhere up until our wedding…" said Mercy. Sli tried opening her mouth wanting to convince Mercy, but Mercy cut her through "No am not taking any of your excuses"

I just looked at my sister, knowing that she was after my man all this time, that's what brought her here at the first place, she came looking for love and didn't get what she wanted and now she decides of going back to Grasse. I didn't know what to say to her after all her behaviour was uncalled for I don't know why she did what she had been doing.

"Ok guys, I just want a moment alone with my fiancé there's a lot of catching up we have to do him and I" I said.

I looked at him as he walked them out of the door. We girls or women sometimes tend to hide our true feelings and still be scared to express ourselves. I sometimes blame myself if I have not fallen for Vusi perhaps my life would have been in a clean slate. And J.R on the other hand was also scared to disclose his feelings for me. I knew that he cared so much for me from the day he rescued me and on top of that he was so seductive towards me still trying to impress me, I can't say I didn't fall for that, cause I really did and that made me fall for him even harder but still was afraid to admit my feelings for him. So that day was my chance to reveal when I first developed my feelings for him.

"Babe…" I called out to him stretching out my hands towards him. He stretched out his and said.

"Yes my love" just having to hear him answer to my call with his deep voice and gentle tone, guilt crept into my heart and I could feel tears swelled up into my eyes. I just said to myself I should let it out of my chest.

"…you know from the very first time, you drew that picture of me, when we were sitting under the tree, you know on the lawn…you made me blush do you remember?" I described.

"Yeah, how could I even forget that day?" he said, looking into my eyes, by that time I couldn't lift my brows to look at him.

" … Well uhm, I'm trying to tell you something, can you please don't get mad at me…"

"Why would I even do that babe?" he probed.

"Uhm, you melted my heart that day… and I was already getting over Vusi just that… I wasn't expecting to find him with another girl cause in my heart I knew that he had moved on…"

"Baby, why are you telling me this now?" J.R was getting concerned.

"I want you to understand, it's not like you only melted my heart on the day you drew a picture of me you know…" my voice started to harden, I was trying to explain myself and he kept on cutting my lines.

"Oh there's more?" when he said 'oh there's more' I gave him my back I couldn't face him any longer because of the guilt in my eyes.

"Well, when I first visited your house, Musa welcomed me with warm hands, he illustrated on how well you knew me… your parents saw a daughter in law, you felt embarrassed but deep within your soul, your heart was smiling…I had a fight with him, even the way I expressed myself towards him, trying to delude my emotions, you never gave up hope…" I couldn't comprise the tears that had swelled up in my eyes. I allowed them to fall out of my eyes. He understood me far better than I knew myself. He walked slowly coming to me without me realizing that he had stood just behind me. I only got to realise that just when I heard him say.

"I did all of that because I love you…" I turned around; He pressed his forehead against mine. He was breathing heavily so was I. I looked into his eyes and I realised that his love for me was pure, his eyes were now teary. I couldn't help it, I can't stop now, I have to tell him everything. I tried cutting lose from his grip because I wanted to release everything that was cooped inside.