บท 107: Her Conclusion

Han Meixiu recalled the first time she met her Mommy Yi. It was a group climb and both of them were complaining.

She wasn't really that talkative especially for someone she just met but the older woman has a bubbly personality that was contagious. While Madam Liu was talking about random stuff, she eventually forgot for a while why she was complaining and was entertained through out the activity.

Later on, they met couple of times. In all of their meetings, she never saw her in a negative mood. She was always energetic even though she complained about her children once in a while. She observed that despite the complaint she's telling her, there was an undeniable fondness in her voice. It was as clear as the day light how she loved her children.

Han Meixiu never thought she could actually enjoy the company of someone other than her best friend. When she opened up her problem about her engagement, the older woman casually suggested a plan involving her own son.

Yes, the woman who was always full of life experienced something so tragic. Behind her smiles and laughs were a kind of past too terrible to even think of.

She could never imagine how painful it would be being treated as an experimental subject.

Madam Liu could still vividly remember how she was tied on an operating table. The only part of her body that she could move was her pair of eyes but she couldn't see clearly as there was a bright light hanging on top of her. She couldn't feel anything but she knew there was something going on.

She would drift in and out of consciousness. She couldn't tell if it was day or night nor how long she's been there. There were times that the anesthesia would subtly wore off and she could feel an unimaginable pain.

Looking back, she realized that those people were actually considerate to her as they would induce her with anesthesia when she would produce a sound out of pain.

But if the drug gradually disappear from her system and the light was turned off, meaning nobody's around, her only option was to persevere. During those times she would feel an excruciating pain that she wished she's dead.

There was only one thought on her mind that made her survive those times. It was her boys. Her cute children who absolutely needed her. She would think that they're waiting for her return so she needed to pull herself together.

Never underestimate the power of mother's love. It was that power who helped her endure her situation. Every time she would almost lost her sanity, she would think of them.

She looked at her children. She has now three. Although she could be a little bias towards her daughter because she really wanted one, she knew the other two would undoubtedly understood her.

She looked at the young woman who was on the verge of tearing up. She didn't want her to cry.

"Meixiu dear…"

"I'm sorry…I'm sorry…I'm….sorry…" She's sorry for asking. She's sorry for opening the wound of her Mommy Yi. She felt that she was so selfish. If she didn't ask, they wouldn't be forced to recall what happened in the past. She said the same thing several times until her voice became a wailing sound.

Madam Liu gently shook her head.

Upon hearing her voice breaking Liu Zijian enclosed her to his embraced. Han Meixiu tried her best to suppress the sound coming out from her crying out of grief. She covered her face with both of her palms as the tears ran down like an endless waterfalls.

She even thought she didn't deserve being treated this way. She wanted to remove Liu Zijian's arms but at the same time she wanted the strength it brought her.

"Meixiu dear, you don't need to say sorry. You're bound to know this sooner or later." She reached out to also console the young woman but Liu Zijian was protectively and selfishly embracing Han Meixiu. She just retracted her hand and looked at Mr. Liu as if telling him to look at their son.

Mr. Liu simply nodded. He's not surprised anymore.

Liu Zilong was holding his amuse reaction when he looked at his younger brother. If the conversation wasn't serious he already said 'No one's gonna steal your wife!' The way he wrapped his arms around the young woman looked like someone would snatched her away.

"The breaking of your family was partly our fault." Mr. Liu continued when he saw the young woman started to calm down. "We want you to understand why we eradicated the base of black.com in Q City and later on in the entire country. We didn't want any family to experience what we have been through."

"I..perfectly understand…" Han Meixiu answered between her sobs. There's no way she would ever condemn their action.

"I thought it was the main black.com who kept Yi Min thus we eradicated their base in Q City. It was only later on we found out it was another subgroup group, Hisei. When they used the term 'sold' it actually meant 'exchange'. Your father wasn't part of Hisei. He was a member of 'army'. In that time, they're the one protecting the process of the 'exchange.' Although he probably didn't know what was the 'product' of the exchange, he was there to make the process finish smoothly."

Han Meixiu gradually lost her strength to even even breath properly. Her father was indeed involve. Although not directly, he still participated. Why did Brother Long omit this fact? Was it to protect her? Again, for her sake? For someone like her?

"How.. can you accept the child of someone who made Mommy Yi suffer?" She voiced out her thoughts. She raised her head to look at the older Liu couple. It was like her mind encountered a short circuit, it wasn't functioning properly. It was like she engaged in a selective listening process.

Her tear stained face was painted with pain not for herself but for the woman whom she now considered her mother.

Before Madam Liu and Mr. Liu could answer they heard their son's voice.