บท 89: Decision
Han Meixiu slowly lifted her face covered with tears streaked. Her nose was slightly red and her fan-like eye lashes were still wet.
"Honestly, I'm conflicted." She answered. "I want to forget but at the same time I don't want to."
"I have information about her. But if you want to forget all about it then let's burn them all."
Her eyes widened and her lips slightly opened. She was surprised. She remembered what her cousin told her about the hidden network of the Liu Family.
"Take your time to decide. When you have a final decision, tell me."
Since she couldn't come up with any words to respond to him, she just nodded.
"Shall we go to sleep now?" He carefully asked as he stood up and while holding her hand.
She looked up and nodded once again before she followed his act.
When the two was about to leave the study, Han Meixiu stopped walking suddenly.
"When did you know I was looking for her?" She asked curiously. She didn't remember giving any obvious actions about it. She clearly didn't say anything to him either.
"The day our marriage was decided." He answered.
"That early?"
"Hmm. Mom informed me some details about you."
Han Meixiu could not exactly remember how much information she told Mommy Yi about her plans. She guessed it was necessary to tell Liu ZIjian during that time.
"Did you start gathering information that time?"
"You can say that."
'He must have a lot of details already.' She thought as both of them continued to walk towards their room.
Arriving in that conclusion, she became more curious what were the things he gathered about her mom.
After doing the necessary things before going to bed, Zijian popped up a question.
"Why didn't you tell me about this?"
It was a simple question yet Han Meixiu struggled to answer right away.
Liu Zijian slowly sat down on the bed as he also guided her to sit beside him.
"I don't want to bother you." She just repeated her words earlier.
"Why do you think it's a bother?" If other people could shamelessly asked him to help get information why not his own wife? He couldn't understand what's bothering about it? For him it was like she didn't trust him to know her issues thus she was keeping it a secret from him.
Han Meixiu lowered her head and in a small voice she answered.
"Zijian, I don't have anything I can offer you. We were married because of the Liu Family's good intention of protecting me. If I ask for further help, won't that be asking for too much?"
'Give and take'
This was what she's thinking. She could not just take continiously and not give something in return. Nothing's free in this world. She already took the position of being the wife of Liu ZIjian and the corresponding benefits of it. She could not afford to abuse it. Her problems have got nothing to do with the Liu Family.
He slightly shook his head before he answered.
"Then you have to work for me your entire life."
He could only make this kind of proposal for her to not feel indebted. Although he wanted to say that helping her would not be considered as a 'bother', the main worry that's on her mind would not be addressed properly.
His wife didn't ask for more than the marriage they're sharing together simply because she's thinking that she couldn't reciprocate the deeds.
Would that mean their marriage was like a mere arrangement for her? Was this the reason why in her mind there was always a 'what if'?
He already deduced that she didn't want to be left alone. He definitely didn't want to to leave her either.
The reasons behind her actions were getting clearer now for him.
He needed a proper strategy on how to make her fully understand that their marriage was already beyond the agreement in the past. It's a lifetime commitment they would share and nurture for the rest of their life.
"Work my entire life?" She asked again to verify if what she heard was correct.
"As a wife."
"What's the difference of working as a wife and the me now?" She was confused. Wasn't she a wife already?
"Big."
Han Meixiu was shocked. There's more she must do?
"What's the difference?" She asked again mustering all her courage to listen. Although somewhat a little afraid, she's surprisingly willing to do whatever it would be. She didn't want to continue being like a leech.
"A wife should not hide secrets from her husband. She should trust him."
'In short he wants me to tell him everything.' She now understood what her husband wanted. It wasn't something she could not give. It was something she unknowingly not willing to give.
Trust
A full trust
"Okay." She answered and she slowly moved up her head catching the slight smile on his face.
"Do you want to tell me now?" He asked feeling contented.
When she nodded, they changed their position in a comfortable one.
They're going to have a long night.
Liu Zijian also called Aunt Jing who was about to finish her work in the kitchen to prepare some light snack.
While Liu Zijian was talking to Aunt Jing, Han Meixiu was thinking what else a proper wife should be. Maybe tomorrow she should ask her Mommy Yi.
"Ready?"
Looking at her husband's softer expression sometimes she could not believe it was the same man Mommy Yi used to complain to her about.
His eyes that used to make her uncomfortable before, were now becoming her source of comfort. Although there were still times that she could not look directly at them because they could still make her lost in a different realm, she has no complain about it anymore.
He softly pinched her nose when she continued to stare at him without saying anything. Though her eyes were wrapped with undeniably fondness making him obviously happy, he could not wait to finally hear her story from her own words.
The action made Han Meixiu came back to reality. She blinked several times. She stared at him more than necessary and blushed a little when she realized it.
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