บท 38: day 2 of trip( he was just looking at me)

What the fuck…," Why is everyone staring at me?he whispered.

But the surprising thing was that Kakeru himself was asking to sit near Jihara. And Jihara was sitting in another bus so Kakeru also wanted to change the bus.

CHISHIYA was very surprised because KAKERU took so much interest in a boy for the first time. And just some time ago, KAKERU had told Chishiyan that he wanted to have a physical relationship with JIHARA. What CHISHIYA feared had happened.

CHISHIYA says ""Have you gone crazy?sit quietly , and change seats when the bus stops. Look, all the students are staring at you.

"I don't care....After this Kakeru shouted "Sir I want to change the bus." ,

Suya sir says angrily """" Kakeru you still think that everyone here is your servant???.

Why are you giving such a lecture? I just want to sit on another bus ,

Responding to Kakeru, suya sir says """Why did you come in this bus if you had to sit in another bus?

I have come to the right seat, but...

Suya sir shouted ""But what?

And then chishiya interrupts and says "ahh actually sir.. it's my fault." Because this is not my seat, I sat on Jihara's seat and Jihara sat on my seat. Kakeru wanted to make the bus stop for me because I want to sit on the same seat where I sat earlier.

What nonsense... Kakeru whispered

Chishiya kicked Kakeru and said """Will you keep your mouth shut?

Seeing both of them whispering, suya sir says """It is about Jihara, so I will get the seat changed, after this the bus was stopped on the request of suya sir."

And after some time, Jihara again came and sat next to Kakeru and the bus started its journey again.

Kakeru looks at Jihara's face and wonders """Was whatever I told CHISHIYA true?Do I only desire his body? Isn't this some other feeling...ahhhh...no no...That's because I haven't slept with anyone in a long time , but still it is disgusting to have the desire to sleep with a boy. But this feeling is the mess I can't run away from, it's only been two days since we met ,I feel as if I've known Little Bird for years, I don't know what it's all about but I want to hear more of it , i want to see more of him ,And sometimes I even want to touch him.....

"Are you okay? Jihara asked

Kakeru quickly takes his eyes away from JIHARA's face and says """"Nonsense... what will happen to me? ,

you were staring at me just now ,

Kakeru replied ""are you kidding me?

Why did the teacher suddenly change our seats? Did you tell the teacher?

Kakeru replied ""Why do I need this, I was having a lot of fun with Chishiya ,, Kakeru further says """What is your friend's problem?

You mean Kaito?

Kakeru replied """Yes, I feel like his blood boils the moment he sees me.

Hearing Kakeru's words, Jihara does not answer and starts looking outside the bus...

After a while of silence Jihara says """Before boarding the bus you told me that you wanted to sleep with me,,,,,, is this true?

After hearing Jihara's words, Kakeru looks at him with surprise """Yes, I want."

But when KAKERU looks at Jihara's face, he is shocked. Jihara's face was very sad ,kakeru felt like jihara was going to cry at that very moment Jihara's eyes were filled with tears ...kakeru says hesitantly """What's the problem?" Why do you start crying like girls, i mean what's there to cry about,You are crying as if I have fucked you forcefully.

But Jihara doesn't pay any attention to Kakeru's words and says ""Do you want to know further? ..I am remembering that night today... that night was a very big night ,

Kakeru started listening to Jihara quietly without answering...

Jihara further says """I was so helpless that night, I wish I could have eased Moon's pain. , he was lying on the sofa and his shirt was dirty with vomit .I sat on the ground with difficulty and opened the button of his shirt. , his body was burning with fever , but when I saw that Moon had belt marks on his chest ,I could say with certainty that someone beat him with a belt. When I saw those scars, I was very scared, as I told you, I was not even 18 years old at that time.I started crying out of fear and I placed my head on his chest…he was in a state of unconsciousness. .... But he suddenly opened his eyes and placed his hand on my head and said "Don't cry… why are you crying?" Don't cry... and he kept moving his hand on my head until he became unconscious again. ,

After this, I cleaned his entire body with a wet cloth, but that night… I understood that Moon was not as bad as the world thinks. And as bad as he appeared to be in front of the world, he was not that bad. .....I understood that night that he was my last love. , I had the courage to love him one-sidedly all my life ...and I don't remember when I fell asleep with my head on his chest. .... When I opened my eyes at 5 in the morning, my head was on his chest, he was lying on the sofa and I was sitting on the floor. But he had kept his hand on my head, I did not know whether his fever had subsided or not… At that time he was sleeping and I did not want to disturb his sleep. I was sitting silently like that and my eyes were closed once again... When I opened my eyes again, I saw that still he was also placing his hand on my head. But this time he was conscious... he was looking at me with tired eyes... he was looking at me without blinking... his eyes were red, he was sick but he was just looking at me.....