Capítulo 39: what was Kaneki like back then? (2)

Natsuki: change?

Chikao: yes remember what I said about an avatar in real life?

Itsuki: now that you mentioned it again how does he have something like that?

Chikao: apparently it was not something natural he once told me he made it in his basement.

(wait basement? what does Kaneki-kun do in that basement?)

Chikao: he didn't tell me much but he said the avatar is something like a vessel of his that he can access anytime he touches it.

Is Kaneki-kun?

Natsuki: is he an ability user?

Chikao: well he isn't born with any ability but he told me he made his own abilities that includes the regeneration he showed us earlier, he is something like A.A.U's (Artificial Ability Users) but in his case he didn't go through the same things as the ones made in Hell.

Keiko: how... is that possible?

Chikao: honestly I don't really know, I didn't even know if it is true even now i doubt what he is saying is real... ok we're getting off track where was i again?

Kaneki: you were at the part where i started to change.

Kaneki came back.

Chikao: oh You're back! know what you should tell us about it.

Natsuki: are you sure Yuri-san?

Kaneki don't worry I'll tell you guys.

kaneki began to tell his side.

when Sasachi got her confidence back i somehow felt more relieved seeing my friends being happy seeing them work hard was fun but something was missing.

it turned out i wanted to join them but i couldn't because of the real life avatar I used called chachan can't do much so i couldn't join them.

but 5 days later those 4 invited me to join them on a dance practice for a video so their ranks would get up. well that's what I thought but.

Sachi: you want to join us right? c'mon let's have fun dancing, remember it's more fun if we are all together!

That's what my childhood friend Sachi Saki said so i did end up joining I have to admit it was fun... but.

when they posted the video there were comments like: "why is there floating marshmallow?", they are probably using that Marshmallow to get their ranks up"

the competition is a worldwide event for any age so when older audience saw the practice video they thought those 4 were using me and proceeded to insult them.

in frustration i logged out of the real life avatar and I was blaming myself for causing them trouble. i always felt like I was causing them trouble.

because most of their life they couldn't make any other friends because of me I was pretty violent when someone insults them and my family.

i always cause trouble for everyone and people expect me to be "normal" but i didn't want to. what I want is to get stronger and more power so i could keep my promise and protect those 4.

there were many times i thought about taking my own life but i know it would cause even more trouble for them so i didn't know what to do.

but those 4 were always there for me, when i couldn't think because of so much stress they always treated me nicely and when I was depressed that time I asked one of sensei's for advice because i didn't have any confidence.

my sensei told me "if you want to be at the same ground as your friends you must change yourself to the self you wanted to be"

i didn't understand what he meant by that but when I did eventually logged back into chachan those four just encouraged me to ignore those comments and they said "no matter what you look like we'll always accept you!".

when they said that I got more confidence. i did end up joining and we even went to a Jr. dancing competition we had so much fun.

but we got last place and all 4 of them were disappointed but i told them it was fun then they got their energy back.

then the next night when everyone was asleep Sasachi sent me the video of the dancing competition before she slept.

i did check it out and even though we were in last we were being praised even my irl avatar was being praised... but there were some comments that ticked me off the most.

"those 4 are pathetic for using a mascot", I can't believe those 4 girls used a mascot they must really think using that would get them to top 10" and many more comments like that.

they don't know anything! about how hard they work just to get themselves to the ranks they are in i honestly couldn't take it so..

i took my irl avatar and i decided to stop using it and i decided to make a new avatar one that is the reflection of who i wanted to be.

I went into my basement and i created a "vessel" that looked like a girl that if I touch it my consciousness would transfer from my body to that body it also works in reverse.

Natsuki: Wait! Wait! you have another Body!?

Kaneki: yup anyways.

i asked them to meet me at our hideout near the forest that is near Shimotsuki.

when they finally got there I thanked them for everything they did for me and for being my friends and i showed them the "vessel" I made and after that I told them to listen to a song I made.

after singing it they should refer me to a different name when I'm in that body.

i told them to call me Kotarou.

they did instantly call me that too and I did end up eventually joining the same competition as them.

Kaneki: well i guess I'll end the story there for now!

Natsuki: that was an interesting story but where is the body which you call "Kotarou" now?

Kaneki: it's in my basement it is connected to my soul so it also has grown up to be 15 years old.

Itsuki: ok that's cool but how do you transfer that Body?

Kaneki: I use a cooler.

everyone: that doesn't sound good.

Kaneki: I know but i kept it in my basement until I needed it again it is by far the most precious thing i created.

(I see Kaneki-kun maybe unfriendly but he is really caring so caring he is willing to change himself for his friends even if it means switching bodies)

Kaneki: if you want to know what I was like back then I'll tell you. I was friendly, kind and caring to those 4 and because of them I got more motivation to get stronger so i could protect them.

everyone didn't understand what he meant but Itsuki asked a question no one else expected.

Itsuki: Kaneki... are you The Hero of Hell/Atlantis?