Capítulo 19: Chapter 18: The Spiral
Will edit later but it shouldn't be too bad now and I know you guys have been waiting
(General POV)
We start off on the blimp with the all the examiners around a table of food as Chairman Netero breaks out into a booming laugh.
"Six of the nine passed applicants are rookies!" Netero says through his laughter. "Marvelous! Marvelous"
"Has this ever happened before?" Buhara questions while putting a piece of meet in his mouth.
"Well there was a trend where we go so many years without a single rookie qualifying ans then suddenly we'll have a whole bunch of promising newbies!" Netero responds delightedlt waving his hands.
"This is the forth time I've seen if happen!" He finishes off as if to confirm his words while everyone looks on at him in silence.
"By the way chairman. What are we doing for the final phase?" Satotz asks.
"Oh yeah" Buhara joins in leaning forward. "You haven't told us yet"
"Oh right about that. I plan for them to partake I'm a rather peculiar fight."
"A rather peculiar fight?" Satotz repeats.
"First I'd like to speak to each of the nine remaining applicants".
(Yumi POV, Blimp)
The four of us were all casually talking with one another about our little excursion the day prior.
Well everyone else was. As I preferred observing them. Taking note of all their little habits and quirks. The rhythm in which they breath how they walk.
I relished in learning everything about them. It made me feel closer to then in a sense. Knowing that I knew more about the each of them then the entire world put a smile on my face.
That smile dosnt last long though as soon the speakers come on.
"I have an announcement for all applicants" Bean says over the loud speakers. "The chairman wishes to interview the remaining applicants. When your number is called please come to the first receptions room on the second floor. We will start with Hisoka #44"
As that number was called Gons mood visible dimmed into a more serious one which both me and Kurapika catch but only I know the true reason for.
'I hate that Gon has to go through all this because of that clown! Argh! Once I awaken my nen and get strong enough. Even if I'm not. I'm going to skin that clown a swear! But in the mean time I won't let him get to my Gon! Even in his head!'
I soon slip in besides Gon and speak to him in lower then a whisper.
"I might not knoe what happened with Hisoka but trust me thinking about it won't make the situation better. Knowing you, you'll be able to pay back the favor."
Gon gives me a light smile grateful. Of course this wasn't enough for me.
"You should be smiling brightly like you always do. Stupid clown ruined it. I'll kill him I swear" Yumi accidently says this aloud which Gon surprisingly catches on too as he soon burst out laughing causing the rest of the four to look at the two in confusion.
"I didn't know you thought about me like that Yumi! I'm glad you care so much. But please Yumi don't worry so much. I promise I'll be fine!"
"You'll be fine over what!" Killua asks perking up as he trys to make sense of why Gon suddenly started laughing like that and why Yumi looked so happy.
'I'm glad you care so much, I'm glad you care so much, I'm glad you care so much' kept echoing in Yumis mind making her smile a dumb smile.
'Don't worry Gon I'll always care so much! So does that mean you'll always be glad! I hope so! I just need to do everything and you'll all always be happy!'
(Netero POV)
'Hmm, it looks like that young lady is up next. Now this is going to be an interesting interview.' I think to myself as I ready my notebook.
"Hello there Yumi" The I greets as she enters the room.
"I just wanted to ask a few questions to satisfy my curiosity."
I begin like i did with all the others. Im further intrigued as she nods coldly and take a seat on the pillow on the ground the bubbly girl, and the murderous villan he had seem before long gone.
'Is this her true persona? Or are one of the other two? Now I'm even more interesting in her answers' of course despite my curiosity I didn't let any of it show on my face.
"First of all why do you want to become a hunter Yumi?"
She pauses, i assume its to either think on her snswer or to think on whether she should say the truth. After the long pause she finally opens her mouth to speak.
"I wanted to become a hunter to find my light. A smile that I saw a long time a go."
I raises my eyebrow. "You wanted? Why the past tense?"
Her eyes suddenly go distant as a warmth starts to peak throughher black cold irises.
"Well because I found the smile. I've actually found multiple already. So becoming a hunter is now only a means for me to serve those lights better. To be more useful to them"
I nod.
"Okay then next question" I say as I write what she says down with a new notes of her loyalty and her tri personalities.
"Which of the other eight candidates do you have your eye on?"
"Like which one I'm worried about?" She asks. I nod again.
"I'm not really worried about any of the candidates. If I face any of them and I lose. Oh well. I really don't mind"
Her apathy confused me, so I proded a little further.
"What about if losing meant giving up the light you've found?"
Her previous cold stare turned deadly as she looked at me with a murderous gaze boldly.
"My last task would be to take that person to the grave with me. But if it truly took my death to defeat them I didn't deserve the light I've received either way"
As I stared into her eyes that expressed everything her face couldn't I challenged her with my own piercing gaze but despite it she doesn't budge. I chuckle looking down onto my notes.
'This girl truly dosnt fear death. I can't tell if it's bravery or machinistic. But, it clearly isn't fake'
"Last question, which one of the other candidates would you like to fight the least." Almost immediately she replied.
"Gon, Killua, Leorio, and Kurapika. You can't make me choose one. And if you did make me fight them I would drop out immediately or just kill myself to stop the match, but if it's worth anything number 288 and 45 are definitely people I would love to take out."
"That is good to know thank you very much Yumi for entertaining this old man"
The girl nods curtly as she begins to leave and then stops as she turns towards the man.
"After this exam when we meet again. Please just give me one week of your time. And I promise I won't disappoint you. I won't ask for anything else"
I was shocked as I begun to chuckle. "You know my time is a very precious commodity. And a week is a long time. Do you think you could make it worth while?"
The little lady looks at me eyes full of determination.
"Trust me it will be more than worth it. Once we see again you'll understand what I mean. I swear on my life"
"Ho ho ho! To swear on somthing so precious as you life! And you it seems like you a serious!" I look at the girl dead in the eye. "I look forward to it".
As the girl finally leaves the room I look down at my notebook and can't help but sigh.
"The responses where much more lopsided then I expected. Almost everyone mentioned either #12, #45, or #406. Very interesting indeed."
As the day started to approach its end I finish up my plan and smiled to myself.
"That'll do it!"
(Yumi POV)
I'm pressing my back on a wall of a hallway near where Gon and Kurapika where talking. I didn't bother asking Gon what actually happened due to not wanting to upsetting him. But I am still very curious at what happened as I swore that I killed Greta the huntsman so he couldn't have paralyzed Gon. It all just greatly confused me so I really needed answers.
'I'm a horrible person. I'm so selfish that I'm listening in on this very personal conversation because of my curiousty. How could I even think of somthing like this. What is they find you now. They'll call you weird, a stalker, theyprobablywon'twanttobeyourfreindanymoretheywillallleaveyoualonetellyouthattheyneverlovedyoubecauseimjustanexperimentamonsterIdontdersevetheirloveortheirkindnessImjustanexperimentascaredlittlegirlwhoesscaredtobealonescaredofthedarknessscaredofherownstupidthoughtsimsopatheicicantevenservethemproperlysouselessyouevenknewHisokawasgoingtohurtgonuselessuselessuselessuselessuselessuselessuselessuselessuselessuselessuselessuselessuselessuselessuseless
(They probably won't want to be your friend anymore. They will all leave you alone, tell you that they never loved you because I'm just an experiment. A monster. I don't deserve their love or their kindness. I'm just an experiment. A scared little girl whose scared to be alone, scared of the darkness, scared of her own stupid thoughts. I'm so pathetic I can't even serve them properly. So useless! You even knew Hisoka was going to hurt Gon! Useless Useless Useless Useless Useless Useless Useless Useless Useless Useless Useless Useless)
My thoughts began to spiral. I thought since I tranmiragted I'd finally be free of anxiety attacks like this. But I guess I wasn't. I guess it's because I've been constantly around the main cast that they were momentarily stopped. But now that I'm alone they came with all of their furry.
Soon my thoughts even blocked out the conversation I was supposed to be spying on. They walked away before I even noticed. I was stuck in my head.
This was why I hated thinking. If I thought to hard I'd be transported into this stupid world of self loathing. I hated it so much that I tried to create a more impulsive personality. Sh*t.
Before I even relised it the sun had completely set only putting me in more stress with it getting darker and darker around me. My breath became short spurts. Then I couldn't breath. Great I'm having a panic attack now. Dammit dammit!
Usually in my past life to get out of this cycle I'd get out a fee drinks cause I never really liked smoking. I tried weed once but in the end I preferred alcohol. The painful sensation I'd get as it went down my throat gratified my machinistic tendencies as well as spiked my thought process before mellowing it down. It let me forget everything in my head and focus on the pain.
But now I didnt have any alcohol. I really didn't want to do this but as I soon remeber the knife in my pocket fight myself from reaching for it.
'No. NO YUMI! WHAT IF SOMBODY SAW YOU! WHAT IF ONE OF THE MAIN FOUR SAW YOU! COMING INTO THIS ANIME WORLD WAS SUPPOSED TO MAKE YOU HAPPY! THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE AN ESCAPE NOT A NEW KIND OF PRISION! WHY CANT YOU JUST BE HAPPY!'
I remeber the words of my uncle as he past away. His last words after he told me how I was going to inherit everything he had and didn't react. How could I. I've only seen this man once before. He was the one that hated me not the other way around.
I just stopped seeing him as my family after awhile do then why was he angry at me for not crying or being happy or just not getting anything when he was about to die.
"Ungratful little prick" he curses at me with his last breath.
'I am an gratefully little prick.' I think at the end of that emotional turmoil. I just felt empty. I needed to think of somthing else quickly before I grabbed my knife but thinking was the problem.
Then someone touched my shoulder. When I looked up I only noticed then that I had croched down into a fetus position midst my attack. Out of instinct I put on a smile. This isn't my first radio when somebody catches me in a panic attack.
But when I recognize the face I almost flinch."
"Hey Yumi. I was looking for you. Do you want to raid the kitchen with me? Gon said he didn't want to. Such a party pooper." Killua says putting the hand he used to tap my shoulder back in his pocket.
"Oh um sure" I say trying to manage getting up while I'm still in a cast. (Yeah we all frogot about that)
Seeing my struggle Killua stops the motion of putting his hand back in his pocket and instead reaches it out to me. I gladly take it.
As she pulls me up he suddenly pulls me closer to himself starteling me. What scares me even more is the deep dark voice me speaks to me in.
"Yumi, don't you ever try to do that again. I saw you reaching for your knife. I know what you where going to do." This shakes me to my core as my body stiffns but as if realizing this Killua soften his tone as he let's go of me and turns around not letting me see his face.
"Let's just go do fun stuff. Take your mind off of whatever you where going to do. Please Yumi, what ever you where stressing about it's not worth hurting yourself. You aren't alone anymore. Where your freinds not your masters. Get it together"
And with that he walks away.
And as if on instinct I follow him.
Right then I relize that no matter how much I was drawn to Gons light in the series. Not matter how much I adored how he made everybody around him smile.
Right here right now.
I feel more comfortable in Killuas shadow.
And just like that all my spiraling thoughts dissapated as I throughly enjoyed all the shenanigans me and Killua git up to that night. (Come on reader get your mind out of the gutter. They're twelve
Hey everybody Seeker here! Not gonna lie to you all I kind of got too into this chapter. It kind of took me back but I kind of recently relised that I'm not the only one who has those kind of thoughts and that at the end of the day they are just thoughts right. Well they aren't but kind of but that's besides the point. It seems like Yumi isn't the only posseive one in the group. I'm glad I could give her and Killua a bit more time the bond though. Now if you guys didn't see I recently uploaded another fanfic recently. It's a Spy X Family one. I went with a more manipulative character then a sociopathic one. So you guys should definitely try it out!
Finally here's a question I started it for my spyxfamily fanfic (The name is 'The Backwards Pawn') and I think I'm going to stick with it from now on!
If you were transmigrated into this fanfic who would you go after?
1. Gon (kind of basic, a bit safe, he'll probably reject you though)
2. Killua (I can understand but like why?)
3. Kurpakia (you'll have to figure out how to deal with his trauma first)
4. Leorio (This would be cute)
5. Yumi (😑, I worry. I truly worry for you)
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