Lunchtime soon ended and the day flashed past in a blur. I trudged through my lessons. I nodded my head to what others said when I wasn't listening. I forced my smiles, hid my despair. Soon, the day had ended, we finished with our duties, and with my backpack slung over my shoulder, I left the school building. The sky was dark with clouds, rainfall soaked into my thin blazer and my backpack, and dampened my hair. My mood soured like a rotten apple, a scowl drawn on my face. This was called Pathetic Fallacy; a writing device intended to show a characters mood through the weather. How appropriate. A pathetic term for pathetic weather which appropriately catches the mood of a pathetic nobody like myself.
Kaz had training with his e-sports team. Takana was ... Somewhere. My other friends were absent. As such, I walked alone. Usually, I would tagged along with Himiko, and I considered it for a moment. I turned my head and watched Himiko in the rain. She was walking in the opposite direction, umbrella over her head, and continued onwards down the road with her friends, chatting and laughing like nothing was wrong... As if her boyfriend wasn't standing in the rain, watching after her, despair on his face.
When I didn't speak to Himiko, she didn't speak to me. It was that simple. I was the one who initiated most of our interactions. Otherwise, she barely ever spoke to me. The realisation, which came when the shroud of teenage love was lifted from my eyes, was just another knife in the gut.
When I got home, I didn't express my frustration to my parents. They didn't pick up on it. I just didn't want to think about it. I went to my room and slammed the door shut. I only left for the toilet or to cook dinner. I just curled up on my bed, my mind stormy with horrible thoughts... Then, I tried to sleep. I failed.
...And in the blink of an eye, hours had passed. I stood up from my bed, checking out of the window. My street was cloaked in cold, oppressive darkness, the streetlamps shining down... Nighttime already. Gosh, already? I yawned. Atleast the rain had stopped. I returned to my bed and I laid there, too miserable to move, until it was late into the night and I was alone, the only person awake. I checked my watch idly; 22:10... I didn't feel much better. All I could think about was Himiko. How Mondo stole her away from me because I wasn't good enough to defend her... What the hell did he have that I didn't?! I suddenly hit my pillow in frustration. I was so... angry... so self loathing... I wish I could earn her respect, her smile, her laugh... I wish I could grope her ass like Mondo so carelessly did... Her ass....
Though hours had passed, I remembered what happened this morning. Her leaning over in her desk, giving me a glimpse of that booty. That scene of her fat ass in purple panties played in repeat inside my head. Goddamn.
...
Even though I probably lost her, she's still so fucking hot, guys...
My face burnt red. I buried my head into the pillow, a little whine of frustration leaving me. I was suddenly feeling, y'know, that way. It came out of nowhere, shoving itself uninvited beside my despair at my situation. Now, I was not only miserable but horny, with no avenue of relief available. Himiko wasnt living with me. I knew she lived a short distance away but I vouldn't just go over and try my luck. Ask her for sex? Are you crazy?! I couldn't even stomach being with her. In the back of my mind, I feared that if I called her and asked for permission to come over, Mondo's gruff voice would pick up instead. He'd laugh and torment me about what he just did to Himiko and I'd have to take it....
FUCK THAT! THAT PISSED ME OFF! Kaz and Takana were right, I should have killed that asshole!
Regardless, thinking about Himiko was off the table. It just made me feel sad... But I still felt... That way...
Today had been a stressful, miserable day, because the one aspect that differentiated myself from others was gone. I wasn't even average, because average people don't get cucked. I needed to take my mind off it all, I feel good... I needed to feel some relief. I wanted to do it while reading something good as well. Hey, there's nothing wrong with becoming cultured and educated while also having fun. Right?
So, I stalked out of my room to steal a roll of toilet paper. I rushed back, jumped under the covers. The darkness was lit up in gentle light as I got on my cracked phone, activated my VPN... What, you think I was gonna actually just buy a hentai to read? No, I sailed the seven digital seas. A pirates life for me. I accessed a certain website and I searched through the vast sections of hentai. I was a dignified connoisseur of finest wine, but my drink of choice was fat Japanese asscheeks. After much perusing through my digital library, I found it. I grinned. The perfect hentai...
Look. I'm a considerate guy. This is a private moment for me and it's a little awkward to just, yknow, write it out, so I won't just shove in descriptions of me doing it. You're probably here for the hot ladies and I respect that. Nobody likes seeing the guy in porn. As such, I will use the absolute minimum of detail.
The hentai I chose was about a hot office lady with a big ass and big titties... Damn... And then came a hot dumb coworker... Huh? Okay, whatever. I don't really want to see him, but I guess he's there now. After much flirting and buildup, the coworker pinned her against the wall and then came pages upon pages of steamy sex. My face glowed red. A giddy, dumb smile stretched across my face. They do it in the bathroom, they do it in the office, under the desk. Gosh, this bitch is a total slut! Now, it was at the ladies' house. She's on the bed naked getting plowed and she's moaning, those big titties bouncing and jiggling with each thrust... I couldn't help but bite my lip, eyes wide... Suddenly, it switches to a POV of her husband,bursting in on the— WHA?! WUH-?! WUH-WUH-WHAAAA?!
WHAT THE FUCK?!
I stared in bewilderment as the hentai shed it's vanilla skin to reveal the NTR predator beneath. It was like a jumpscare... an NTR jumpscare... it was also like a car crash, because I couldn't look away from my screen, I could only scroll the pages. Tap, tap, tap. The coworker kept on fucking his wife, while the husband could only watch, helpless.... Then the coworker gets up, leaving the wife laid sprawled on the bed, leaking his seed from her pussy. He gets up in the trembling husbands face and dared him with a sneer, "Do something, coward!"
A horrible chill ran down my spine. I don't know what happened next because in that moment, I turned my phone off and placed it beneath the bed. My heart was pounding, fear coursing through me.... But alongside the fear... Shame. The wound inflicted on my soul by what I saw only hurt more. Why couldn't I escape it? Why couldn't I escape my cuckoldry?!
My mood was ruined. By then, I wasn't even in the mood to get off. I sat back in my bed, utterly defeated, with nothing but a feeling of regret and a soreness down there. Shutting my eyes, NTR pages swam before my sight. My nut hadn't been blown, how could I ever blow a nut again when I blew my chances with a hot babe like Himiko by not being able to protect her? I figured by now, that the best path forward was to just shut my eyes and go to sleep. Maybe I'll feel better in the morning.... Maybe... God, I wish...
But my dreams were not normal. My dreams were disturbed, by a force beyond human comprehension. Perhaps reading that NTR story right before sleeping was a bad idea...
Because... Well, you wouldn't believe me if I told you. Just read the next chapter and find out.