Capítulo 88: Chapter 85
" That wasn't cool. You know that right?"
He knew exactly what I was referring to so there was no need for me to go further into details.
" I didn't mean it, "
His voice was partly muffled by the bed seeing as he was lying facedown, but I could still make out his words with minimum effort.
" You sounded like you did. "
" He gets me so fucking frustrated!"
" Why? And since when?...You guys used to be so close. "
" Things change Stevens. "
" You'll apologize though, right?"
" God! Why're you so hung up on this? Can we just sleep?"
I flopped him over until he was facing up, then I got on top of him and leveled myself above him such that our eyes were on the same level. I hoped he could see that I wasn't trying to attack him concerning the issue, it just bothered me for some reason. And he was also at fault so I suppose I felt responsible because I was so attached to him.
" I don't wanna talk about this, " he admitted, facing the side and away from me. A clear sign that he was serious about it and if I continued to push there were legit chances of him getting annoyed. So I kissed his cheek and pressed my forehead to his instead. Deep down, once you got past my disappointment with him for how he had treated his dad, you'd realize how glad I was that he was there. That he was actually spending the night.
Even if we had to get to school the following day.
" I'm happy you're here, " I told him. And only then did he look at me and smile. It was a slight smile, with that cocky yet dangerous edge to it. I liked how his hair fell back, making his entire face clear for me to study and observe. He loosely wrapped his hands around my neck. His eyes seeming far even though I knew his thoughts were right there with me. I liked everything about Austin, especially how at ease and satisfied he made me feel. Before he came back, the only thing that came a tiny bit close to making me feel the same way was when I got good grades. But this was a thousand times better than that. He'd just look at me with those in-depth grey eyes and I'd know that everything was okay. Even if it wasn't I'd feel secure and relaxed.
" I love you Kyle, "
Once again, it wasn't really about the words but rather about the intense level of sincerity in them. How he looked at me with both joy and fear. And at that certain point the fear was dominant. I could hear it even in his voice. Like he was scared for some reason. His eyes searched mine, looking for something foreign that I wasn't aware of. But I hope he found it if it meant putting him at ease.
" I love you too. "
I gave him a quick kiss, then I sighed and let myself lie on top of him entirely. Liking the contact because it managed to satiate that need a little bit.
" You're hardheaded and unpredictable and a bit unreasonable at times but I swear to God I love you. "
With everything that made who I was.
My lips curved up when he tightened his hold around me, I didn't want us to stay up too late because of school,and also I wanted to take advantage of that chance and sleep early. But I was willing to spare some extra minutes just lying there with him. Feeling his steady heartbeat and relishing in the fact that he was back and I had him.
" I'll apologize to him, " he finally said. Sounding a bit against the idea but willing to do it either way. It wasn't right for him to do it simply because I asked him, but I was willing to take what I got. I kissed his neck, realizing that we still had to wash up before bed. But when I attempted to get up he wouldn't let me. I laughed and asked him to let go.
" Let's get cleaned up and go to bed. "
" Later. I wanna stay here..just like this. "
" We have school tomorrow, remember?"
" Do we have to go to--"
" Don't even finish asking that question because the answer is yes! "
He groaned and shook his head.
" By the way, your friends are pretty okay. "
I leaned back just enough to look at him.
" You like them?"
" I said they're okay, I still have to know them better to judge whether I like them. "
" I'm sure you will. "
" I prefer the redhead though, that dude does not appreciate my charm!"
" Max is really nice, he just takes time to open up to people."
" Sure, whatever...just ask him to quit throwing me that hitman glance he keeps sending my way. Otherwise I'll have to resort to other means. "
I forced my way out of his hold and knelt down next to him. Then I randomly found myself tracing his lower lip with my thumb. I didn't want my body and mind to start getting any ideas seeing as to how close he was, and the fact that were once again alone in my room. But things like those were beyond my control, especially when it was him.
" No more violence. Now let's go wash up, "
I stretched out my hand and he took it, so I pulled him to sit up. He yawned and stretched, a clear indication that he was also tired.
" Together?" He asked, arching a suggestive brow which he decided to accompany with a devilish smirk. I rolled my eyes and got off the bed, knowing he was going to follow me because that's just how he functioned. And he did. We took a quick shower, and I gave him some of my clothes to wear because the crazy guy had just come over completely empty handed. He didn't even have any books with him, but seeing as he never even used them, that didn't seem like a big deal.
Lying in bed, I felt like we were ten again. Those times when I had craved just cuddling with him for hours in end without having to feel like there was something wrong with me. Only this time,there was no fear or doubt. And I actually got the chance to do just that. With our legs locked together and my head resting on his chest. He smelt like me, that lavender scent he always kept mentioning. He seemed so rough and cold on the outside. More than half the school didn't even dare approach him because of that very reason. But I knew the real him, I was well aware of how childish and genuine he actually was. And I took joy in the fact that I got to see a part of him that he didn't disclose to anyone else. The fact that he loved me in a manner that was unique and pure. And that other than me, there was no one else that could occupy that special place in his heart.
" Goodnight, " I softly told him. The lights were off, and I waited for him to respond so that I could finally close my eyes and sleep, but instead he used my hair to angle me to face him. An action he was starting to love a bit too much. There were mostly shadows in that small room so I could hardly even see him, and he knew that, but he had done that because even if we couldn't see each other, he liked knowing that I was watching him. In the darkness where our eyes couldn't meet and I couldn't make out anything about him, I was watching him.I didn't need sight, I could listen to the time of his voice, to his even or uneven breathing. I could tell from his touch on my skin whether he was nervous or a bit too confident.
" You know that one day, in the future, whenever that is.... I'll marry you, right?"
My eyes widened and I immediately sat up, looking at him with the most bewildered expression and wishing he could actually see it. But he just remained laying there casually.
" Wh..What?"
I knew Austin-style jokes. I knew how he said them and why he did. And that was definitely not a joke. I didn't have to look at him to know that he was indeed being very serious.
" I said I'll marry you. So you'd do well to get used to this because you'll be stuck with me for eternity... maybe even more. "
" Christ! Why are you so fucking random?" I asked. Because who just thought of something like that and decided to actually say it out loud?" And with so much confidence as well.
" What? You don't wanna marry me?"
" We're sixteen Austin. "
" Technically, were seventeen, I don't believe we have to wait till our birthdays to skip to the next age. "
" And according to you, seventeen is old enough to think about such things?"
" Any age is old enough baby,I can't help it if I know what I want. And I've definitely always wanted you. "
" I can't with you, let's just sleep okay?"
I laid back down, placing my head on the exact same spot it had been, with my palm right next to it. He brought the covers over us a little bit more. I could tell he wasn't sleeping yet. And when I thought about what he had just said, I couldn't stop smiling. I didn't even know whether I was smiling out of happiness or the fact that he was plain silly. He finally said goodnight, and his last words before he fell asleep were...
" You didn't say no, so it's official. "
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