IT WAS MORNING. I arrived earlier than the proposed meeting time and sat on a bench.
I had some time today to talk with Ayanokōji-kun later.
Just thinking about him filled my heart with comfort and happiness.
But, that's something I really shouldn't do.
Ayanokōji-kun currently has a girlfriend named Karuizawa-san.
I must accept that as a human being and make a calm judgment.
That's why I can only enjoy this date within my heart.
Here, I can experience the feeling of waiting for a loved one as a lover.
"Kiyotaka-kun."
Alone on the bench, I muttered those words.
If we were lovers, we'd be much closer and call each other by our first names.
Ayanokōji-kun too might start addressing me as Honami.
Just the thought had made my heart pound heavily.
I never thought that my unrequited love would change me this much.
The only question is… how much longer I can suppress this one-sided love.
From the corner of my eye, I saw him approaching.
I cleared my mind and straightened my back, being careful so as not to lose my sense of self.
"Good morning."
Ayanokōji-kun greeted me, and I responded.
"Good morning, Ayanokōji-kun. Is it okay? Calling me out to a place like this."
"What do you mean?"
"This is a public place. If Karuizawa-san or the others around see us, won't they get the wrong idea?"
I actually wanted someone to see us.
Such feelings got in the way, but they were clearly wrong.
"No need to worry. I've already talked to Kei about today. Careless secrets and clumsy lies only become shackles in maintaining relationships."
"What will you do about the special exam, Ayanokōji-kun?"
After that, I briefly discussed the special exam with Ayanokōji-kun.
We were in a position to compete.
Because I was burdened with a battle I couldn't afford to lose.
That's why, At least during this exam, I must seal away these thoughts.
And that's why I quietly wished to feel happiness, even if it was just for now.