Capítulo 6: Hurt
Why did I look for a job here of all places?!. Why does he have to be my employer?. This man caused me great pain, and he thinks he has the guts to still try to kiss me?. Who in hell's name did he think he is?.
I opened my eyes. It was noon already. I woke up on the bed. Wait a sec!. Whose bed was I on?. My eyes scanned the room, this wasn't my room. My room was not as exquisite as this one. I looked around the room from my laying position on the bed. There were huge framed pictures of me. What the fuck?!.
I tried getting out of bed, but someone's arm was around me. His grip was possessive, like he did want to let me go. Like he was scared of letting me go. I turned around to see who it was. It was him. It was Noah. He was sound asleep, like a baby.
I used the time I got to study his features. I touched his face, his low stubble on his jaw pricked my fingers. He had a five o'clock shadow. I missed how he would hold me like this every night when we would go to bed.
He really had gotten muscular, a lot muscular. Before, in the past, he would always tell me that he wanted to work out, so he would look more sexy for me, but I'll always told him, not to bother. That there were better things to do than start working out. His face would always fall flat at my response every time.
I only said stuffs like that because, I was always tired, stressed, weak, and frustrated from work, but most because, my husband always looked sexy and hot, no matter what. I laid back on the bed, my back facing him. His grip tightened again.
That brings me to my question, "We never got a divorce. So, does that mean we are still married? ". I asked aloud. I felt someone's lips on my neck. I couldn't help it, I moaned. He started sucking my neck, biting it in between. I very sure that would leave a hickey there. I felt his finger run through my my collar bone, then, I hear three snaps, he took off the buttons on my shirt. I didn't wear a bra, because my clothes didn't need any.
I felt him kiss his way down to my chest, and then I felt his tongue circling round my left nipple, while he palmed the other breast, pinching my nipple with his fingers. I had no option than to moan while my fingers went through his hair. I tried pulling his head away from my breast, but, he wasn't budging.
I felt him bite my nipple, before he started sucking it, I was a moaning wreck. It's been six years since I got intimate with any man. He raised my hands above my head, with his mouth still on my nipple, he clasped my hands together, preventing me from stopping his ministrations on my body. He resumed sucking my breast, while his other hand, continue palming my breast, and pinching my nipple at the same time.
I felt his hands caressing my thighs. I knew what he was going to do, but I didn't feel like stopping him.
He bit my tugged nipple, causing me to scream his name. "Noaaaahhh". I moaned out. He chuckled.
"There she is". He whispered into my ear. "You are mine, no one else's". He said and his mouth went back to my nipple.
"You are mine, no one else's, do you understand, Dani?". He asked, and I nodded. He took my innocence that night. And I gladly gave it to him. "I promise, I'll love you forever baby, I won't ever leave you. I'll stay with you, and make you happy. I'll give the world to you my love". He said as he kissed my forehead, and I drifted off to sleep.
"No!. No!. Stop, stop! You liar" . I cried trying to free myself from his hold. He made me empty promises, and he really thinks he would still have me for himself?. Bullshit!.
"Hey, hey, Dani, what the problem?". He asked letting my hands go. He was also shocked at my response.
Seeing the opportunity, I seized it. I quickly got off the bed. He had no fucking right to touch me like that again. I wore my clothes back. I was still sobbing, and my back was still turned to him. I felt his hand, come over my waist.
"Baby, please, let me explain. Please give me a chance to explain". He pleased placing soft kisses on my neck.
I summoned the least of my strength to get out of his hold. "Explain what?!. Huh?!. You left me! When I need a companion you left me, you left me when I need you! You had no idea what I went through!. You had no idea WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH NOAH!. SO , DON'T YOU DARE FUCKING TRY TI GIVE ME SOME STUPID EXPLANATION!". I said heaving while sobbing.
"Baby, baby, please." He tried holding me, but I moved back, sniffing, his face fell. There's no way, I'm letting him touch my body again!.
"I loved you Noah, I loved you!. I did everything to make you happy Noah. I did everything a woman should do for a man, but YOU! What did you do to me in the end?!. Tell me, what?". I questioned crossing my arms, still sobbing.
"I DID ALL THIS FOR US, DANIELLA!" He yelled back at me. "I promised to give you the best things of life, I promised to make sure you didn't lack anything baby. I wanted nothing more but to give you happiness, and for that reason…. I needed to work for it". He said coming close to me, trying to touch my cheek.
I laughed humorlessly. This man is really sick. "Listen to yourself, are you kidding me right now?!. YOU LEFT ME FOR WEALTH?!. DID YOU REALLY THINK THAT I WASN'T HAPPY WITHOUT IT?. I WAS HAPPY HAVING A LOVING HUSBAND TO COME BACK TO, I NEVER CARED THAT WE WEREN'T RICH, I WAS HAPPY WE HAD EACH OTHER!." I heaving heavily.
He cleaned his eyes, he was actually crying?. Does he think he had the privilege to cry right now?!. I fucking had a miscarriage because of this man!.
"Baby, please let me make it right, we are still married, I can make things right between us once again. All I need is a chance, a chance to make you love me, a chance to fulfill my promise to you. I couldn't do it then, but I can make them come true now." He said getting on his knees. "Baby, please, just give me a chance". He said sniffing.
I don't even know what came over me, my palm connected with his cheek. I slapped him. I was just too heartbroken. I crouched down and sobbed. "I HATE YOU NOAH, I HATE YOU". I hated him indeed, but I still loved him still.
Noah held me in his arms as I sobbed. I don't know how long I cried, but I fell asleep in his arms.
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