When I got back to my room I laid down on the bed, gripped my phone and stared up at the ceiling. Just before I arrived back at my room, inside me, a different anxiety had been spreading. The consultation from Satou-san. The fact that she loves Kiyotaka. The story about wanting me to lend her a hand so she can become a couple with him. At the same time as I felt as a strange irritation, I could not help but also feel turbulent. If this case happened to be just a simple romantic affair, it might have been easier on me.
I had mustered up what wisdom I had in me, and I think I managed to back up Satou-san. But more than anything else, what I'm curious about isn't the romantic aspect of it. Is Kiyotaka going on a date with Satou-san out of interest in the opposite sex? That sort of thing. What if this doesn't have a "romantic objective"? Then that could become a huge problem.
I do feel like I'm overthinking this, but I don't know. In any case, the partner's going to be Kiyotaka. I don't exactly understand what that Kiyotaka is truly thinking of. What if he's not interested in this date as a member of the opposite sex, but rather wants to learn more about Satou-san herself? A date meant to determine whether or not she's a usable student. I imagined such a thing.
Just like he made contact with me, the fact that Satou-san could end up being the key to smoothing out Kiyotaka's school life, a part of me was terrified of that. If Kiyotaka's gaze falls on her, I wondered if it would end up threatening my existence. Depending on the circumstances, Kiyotaka who had been acting as my shield up until now, would no longer be so. I pressed the call icon, and brought up the keypad. Then I manually typed in a 11-digits number.
"I haven't even memorized my own number and yet........".
Before I knew it, Kiyotaka's contact number was carved into my head. Now all I have to do is touch the call icon again and the call will connect. Even if I called him, what am I even planning on asking? I asked that to myself.
Did you really think Satou-san would be easier to use than me? Something like that?
"What's that? That's just stupid.....".
Before I even start questioning him, it's almost like I want to be used by him. That's not the case. It's just... I wanted to protect myself. Using the shield known as Kiyotaka, I just want to live on while protecting my status at this school. That's right, that's obviously the case.
"Why don't I hear it from him directly?".
Thinking that, I put force into the thumb of my left hand. But, hovering at a distance where it's almost touching yet not quite so, my thumb won't move at all. In the end, I wasn't able to touch the call icon at all.
"Hah. I'm like an idiot".
Why do I have to ask him something like "Are you done using me?" myself.
And just like that afterwards, my phone shook.
"Uwa!?".
On the screen, the 11-digits number I had typed in earlier was displayed. I thought I had mistakenly pressed the call icon but that wasn't the case.
"....h-hello?".
I panicked and answered the call.
"I have something I'd like to ask you about".
That usual lethargic, flat voice came into my ears.
"What is it? The thing you wanted to ask me about?".
"Are there people around you right now?".
"None. I'm in my room".
Could it be, that he got worried about whether or not my health deteriorated and called me out of worry. But even so, it's too late if he's only calling me now at night. Still, my heart danced with that slight expectation.
"There's something I want Karuizawa to investigate".
But that expectation of mine was crushed in under 1 second.
"What's with that? You won't be relying on me anymore, you said something like that didn't you? Even though you deliberately warned me to erase your contact number"
I put that complaint (although I don't know whether such an expression is real or not) into words. In the first place, ever since the events of the rooftop yesterday until today. Doesn't he have a lot of things he should be saying to me?
Something like "Did you catch a cold?". Even if it's not tasteful words like that, at least he could say a word or so like "I'm sorry". The fact that he was pulling the strings to have me bullied, normally would ruin the mood and if it weren't me, he might have even been reported to the school. In whatever form it may be, at the very least there should be an apology. And to think the first words out of his mouth were "There's something I want you to investigate".
"Hey, Kiyotaka. Do you even understand your position? There's no more need for me to cooperate with you any further, or more like you better take responsibility and protect me forever. For free".
Having been frustrated from Satou-san's matter, I thought I'd daringly say something like that. But, those words became stuck inside my throat and did not come out. It was because I was afraid that if I said something like that, Kiyotaka would leave me.
"What's the thing you want me to investigate?".
"It's about Satou".
"...about Satou-san?".
In this situation, of all things, for it to be about Satou-san. Just how far will my surroundings go to piss me off.
But there's also the matter of the double date, I kept quiet about the fact that I met Satou-san today.
"What about her?".
"I want to know about who she normally hangs out with, what her pattern of action is. To be more precise, I'd be thankful to know about her hobbies and preferences. Of course, if you already know, then that makes it quicker".
I don't know anything about that. I maliciously whispered that inside my heart.
"Unfortunately for you, I and Satou-san are from different groups. That sort of thing is a bit distant from me".
"Distant, huh. It seems even the center of the girls has a lot of things she doesn't know".
"Muu.......you're saying some mean things".
"If you don't know, then please find out. I would much prefer a method that would keep Satou from finding out as much as possible".
".....well, if I ask Shinohara-san, I might be able to find out to a degree".
"Please choose the option you think is ideal. I'll leave the method up to you".
"I got it, I'll try asking around.....at least tell me the reason why".
"Please mail me the details".
It seems after finishing his business, Kiyotaka was satisfied with that, after saying his one-sided request he cut the call. Nothing came back in response to my questions.
"What's with him? Doing whatever the hell he wants....I absolutely didn't expect anything from him".
I should've coughed once or twice near his ears.
While spitting out those complaints, I sent a chat to Shinohara-san. Even though I'm being oppressed like this, I felt like admiring myself for my faithfulness in honestly following his instructions.
And as I did that, I was able to properly secure information regarding Satou-san from Shinohara-san. For a while, we idly chatted away as I gathered information. Compiling the information I had heard, I sent it to Kiyotaka's free mail address.
I didn't get a reply like usual but without a problem, it should have been delivered. As I thought, that guy Kiyotaka....is he interested in Satou-san? It's obvious that he plans on gathering information before the date so he can carry it out advantageously. That means, if the date goes well the two of them will start going out with each other? Or does it mean...it's an act meant to turn Satou-san into a pawn so he can use her. Even as I thought it over and over, no answer was forthcoming.
There was no way it would be so.
"Ahh mou! What does that guy want?".
I could not sleep tonight, it seems like it's going to be a long day.