Ben wasn’t in school today and yesterday. I wasn’t on the lookout for him but it’s easy to notice when a member of the band is missing. Leah and Mira asked about him, Calum was quiet throughout our meal.
I swipe to the next picture on the Mending Heart Instaagram page. There’s a picture of Ben in their customised shirt and another of all of us in one frame. He’s smiling at the camera. Looking at the picture makes me smile and I have to remind myself I shouldn’t be smiling.
It must be all the time I’m spending indoors that’s affecting my mood. I don’t miss him. I change into a more comfortable outfit and step outside with a small backpack and a metal flask. Knocking on the door to my parents room once, I wait for them to answer.