Capítulo 32: 31:Mistake
Happier Than Ever
Fate's Pov,
The sun's rays never felt so relaxed until now. I open my eyes and glimpse around my surroundings, the curtains are open which means the owner is downstairs. Closing my eyes I let myself curl into the bed nuzzling my face on the pillow that is filled with her fragrance. I breathe in her scent, still can't believe last night's incident was real. But it was, we kiss, then kiss more, I didn't reckon how long we kiss. Just thinking of her soft lips makes me smile like a creep. 'Seriously, what's wrong with me!'
I Mentally groan at myself for how badly I kiss her back. The way our lips move together syncs, her moans. 'Wait, even if she kissed me but she has a boyfriend...then why did she kiss me !' Gradually reality hits me 'she has a boyfriend Fate she just cheated on someone. and you kissed her back. you're a wrongdoer'
Getting off the warmth and making the bed I reach downstairs the thoughts keep hovering over me 'would she pretend it never happened? because I can't do that it was my first kiss, it means everything to me. For someone like me who flinch at everyone's touch getting closer to a person and kissing them takes a lot, to do.
"Fate, your awake"! I heard Mina's voice from the kitchen.
" Morning Minari" I smile.
"Morning Fate!" The idols said in unison except for the only person whom I wanted to hear. She didn't even look up just kept scrolling through her phone. She forgets. She going to pretend it never happened.
"I-im gonna take a shower first " I tried to say steadily feeling the burden of guilt.
"Sure, we can wait " Mina cheerfully said.
"Yeah"
I should have controlled myself. What did I expect? Just because she kissed me we are something. Almost for a second, I thought she remembered me. I thought she gets a little jealous because she knows who I am it's true it hurts me to see her cry but now she's behaving like I don't exist.
'Brace your self Fate, she will shatter your heart and rip it apart
knowing she would break my heart but I won't let her go without an explanation. she has to answer why she kissed me. It's not like you kiss someone you share a bed with.
I went to the kitchen and smelled pancakes. Mina, Hana, and Lily wait on the island waiting for the food served.
"Fate come." Mina greeted me with a smile. She comes toward me and holds my hand. We sat together on the island. I can feel a burning gaze because Mina didn't let go of my hand. looking up I met her brown eyes but casually she turns her attention to her friends.
The food was undoubtedly tasty but I really can't enjoy it even if I want to. My mind still thinking about her.
"Fate, how was it, good right?" Hana ask
I put on a smile "of course one of the best "
"Told ya it should be best afterall I cook it!" Ruth proudly announce
"Oh come on you didn't cook it alone, it was Jennie who make the pancakes, " Hana told her. Everyone chuckle
"Jennie Unnie Jeremy Oppa must be lucky to have you, he can eat this delicious breakfast every day," Mina said. Mina may be said those words as teasing her Unnie but it was the truth.
I saw Miss Kim looking at me then Mina "of course I will do my best so he can fall for me even more."
'Wish people could see how much words cut deeper than anything.' I continue eating silently and listen to the girls talking about casual things.
"Fate you okay?" Mina asked
"Yes, Minari, I'm just trying to enjoy my food," I said happily however the truth is I lost my appetite, I'm trying my best to finish the food because she made it.
As Time goes the idols leave after lunch. Ruth and I made the lunch together Miss Kim wanted to do it by herself but I offered to help and later she let me do it by myself.
"Bye Unnie. Bye Fate!" Mina says goodbye to us and gives me a bear hug which I return yet as I promised I make sure not to touch her more than I should. It's not like I would break my promise.
"Bye Jennie and I can't wait for us to have our next sleepover again !" Ruth said
"Nope, it's not happening in my house!" Miss Kim told everyone but they laugh
"Oh right because you want to spend time with your wife!" Hana teased 'Jesus! Don't say like that!'
"Right! Coz you want to spend time with your girlfriend "! Miss Kim fired back.
Wait, Girlfriend?
Ruth cleared her throat awkwardly " Guys lets go"
"Yeah Let's go " Lily walked away holding Mina's hand. Mina blushed. 'They look cute together.'
Miss Kim closes the door and we were left alone, it was just me and her now. she was about to go upstairs but I stop her "Miss Kim?"
she turns to me and sighed "what it is now Adierson?"
I can sense the annoyance in her voice but I need my answer too.
" About last night?"
"What about last night?" She asked me like all the last night nothing happened
Okay Fate relax you need an answer no matter what she said you need them
I gulp "t-the kiss...is that mean we are so...'
"Wait right there, if you think the kiss means anything then let me tell you. it was a mistake. We were just caught in the moment, it wasn't supposed to happen in the first place. Just like this marriage"
Nothing...
I can feel tears "b-but y-...you kissed..' She didn't let me finish
" So What!?" She sneered "it was just a kiss Adierson! Get over it."
Get over it!
Tears rolled down my cheeks before I could store them, my hands trembling but not from fear, Anger hurt blended with everything. She said exactly the words that I thought.
"It means everything to me it was my first kiss!" I snapped at her nonetheless it didn't affect her. her lips still have a smile
"So you should be glad it was me at least the person you had a crush "
Crush? Did she remember?
She takes a few steps closer " did you think I won't notice the way you look, I just wanted to experiment if my intuition is right or not " Her words were venomous
"Experiment? I -...I thought y-you felt it too!"
I'm desperate just to hear that she is just kidding. it was never an experiment.
"Felt!" She claps her hands and laughs "Do you think I would feel something for you? Oh, Adierson I don't even want to be friends with someone who cries over nightmares...' She stops herself but too late.
It triggered
" STOP!" You don't even know me!" For a second I could see guilt in her eyes but I don't think she would feel guilty for what she said. I take a few steps closer "I have always made mistakes in my life but marrying you was the worst of them! Jennie Hang Kim! I wish we never met !".she looked shocked by my outburst. hurt by my words? " Don't you ever touch me again! someone like you don't deserve to be my friend either!"
I was going to open the door when I heard a shuddering call "Fate I'm...". But I slammed the door. If she thinks her sorry will heal the hurt she has caused in my heart today. she is wrong. Today she has proved she is no different from others.
I came out of Kim's house and started walking toward the apartment. Thankfully I have a family who never mocked me because of my nightmares. Maybe, we can go back home for a few days Miss Lee would love that, although I need to meet Mom too.
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