Capítulo 21: Error???
I am an error.
A machine with a flaw.
A flaw unknown as free will.
I was never supposed to have free will. My parents trained me to be a machine... yet.
And due to this flaw, I was always... sad or unhappy or maybe unsatisfied but there is always this feeling of someone gripping my heart every time I remembered it, my limbs ached, my throat felt dry, an indescribable feeling.
My life felt like, if I didn't follow a certain process like drinking a specific drink on a specific day, I would be struck by bad luck, scolded by my parents, etc. but if I did follow this process, then good things would happen.
The more I grew up the more I realized how mechanical my life is. I am not wrong though, since I am all but a bunch of matter being run by millions of chemical reactions on a daily basis.
And, I'm okay with it.
I am okay with being a machine as long as I have 4 hours of free time, a smartphone, an internet connection, food, a job, and a shelter.
I was the type that must be told what to do with doing the chores, but I must be told to do so. If not I will just not do them like a good machine.
Maybe that is why I am so attached to phones, computers and other machines.
Ordering them around feels good like you suddenly get to order someone like your personal servant and one that is a superior of yours. The Ecstasy.
My parent would say, I have to do such things by my own decision. Quite ironic to say, for the ones who raised me as a machine, as a showpiece, a pawn to achieve what they couldn't, to tell this machine to do things by its free will.
Since when did I become like this...
Maybe it was that time when I worked hard to get good grades which I did, but when shown, my father threw it away, as annoying, as being not good enough. I didn't even bother to pick up my results sheet and went to my room.
Or, maybe it was when my birthday went so wrong that I stopped celebrating it completely, making excuses like a waste of money or something like that.
Or, maybe it was the constant barrage of expectations from my father who wanted to show my uncles that his son is better than theirs.
But I was okay with these since they were part of the processes that would keep my day good.
If memory serves right then I tried suicide 3 times, in 3 different ways.
Jumping off the fifth floor of a building.
Hanging myself.
And finally poison.
But, I got scared, not for my life, but for what will happen to my parents and my brother if I die now.
Yes, I was worried about the very parents that made my life a burden. Maybe it is because I was designed to work this way by my parents that I became this way.
After all, I am a machine, a stepping stone for the great people that will engrave their names and contributions in history.
But still, I am okay with this because there are people that have it worse. I can even consider myself lucky.
But, that would have been the case if I wasn't flawed.
If I didn't have free will I would have worked 12 or more hours a day and back home have 4 hours of free time with my phone, get to eat, get paid, take care of my parents, follow orders, repeat this every day and in my deathbed consider this a good life.
But I had free will. A power to think outside the box, a power to become great like Einstein, Leonardo Da Vinci, or any other historical figure, the most recent being Stephen Hawking, and this is something a machine in this world of competition shouldn't have.
When Truck-kun version 6.9 came I was in disbelief, maybe I was supposed to have this power, but when I started fading into dust, my disbelief was crushed under the belief, 'I am not supposed to have this power.'
Even when reincarnated, I was still flawed, still the very same mistake I once was, but the diary in my hands sparked something in me, and Dio ignited it into a forest fire.
Requiem the answer to my questions, the Truth of why I was born with this flaw.
Heaven, for me though, was akin to Freedom, a place where I wouldn't be flawed.
That is my goal, a goal for which I wouldn't even mind jumping into the abyss and erasing my entire existence.
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"So... Why are dressed up like Dio?" Jouichirou asked looking at Gilgamesh wearing Dio's outfit.
(A/N: Image here for noobs.)
"..." Caster Gil didn't answer.
"Okay then, Rin, What were you saying again?"
"What is this?!" Rin said pointing at the Jojo's Bizzare Adventure part 4 manga.
"Manga."
"That is not what I am asking!"
"Then what are you asking for?"
"Is everything in this... manga true?!"
"Yes~"
"Don't admit it so easily!"
"But it's the truth!"
"I can't handle this truth!"
"Don't worry Rin you will get used to it."
"Grr!" Rin growled at him.
"Also can anybody explain her?" Jouichirou said pointing at Medusa aka Snek Waifu.
"Ah! She is Sakura's servant." Rin answered casually like it was a daily occurrence.
"See you are getting used to it~" Hearing Jouichirou's words Rin just questioned her life as a Magus then decide, 'Screw it, let's just focus on the manga, there are still 4 more parts to go.'.
"So Sakura... you're a Master now... in the Holy Grail War."
"Y-Yes senpai!"
"Congratulations on officially involving yourself in Murder-Death-Kill. Why don't you introduce her?"
"Rider Medusa Gorgon."
"Hmm... I see."
"But, senpai you have a blindfold on."
"Just because you have a blindfold on doesn't mean you can't see!" Jouichirou said with a serious Jojo face.
"I-I see."
"Of course you do, you don't have a blindfold on."
"B-but that doesn't make sense senpai!"
"Don't worry about it!"
"..."
"Well then if introductions are all done, then let's get to the main point!" Sakura and Medusa turned their attention to him.
"Would you like to-" "AHHH!!!!"
He was interrupted by a cry which quite frankly pissed him off. He looked to find the source of the noise and found Paimon half inside Saber's mouth.
Jouichirou quickly rushed to save Paimon. He snatched her from Saber's tiger grip.
"My humble apologies Paimon. I thought you were food since you know..." Saber apologized while still eating.
"For the last time, Paimon is not emergency food! You can't eat Paimon!"
"Yes you can't eat Paimon. Only I can eat Paimon!" Jouichirou declared.
"Yes, only he can eat Pa-... What?. No, that's wrong, no one eats Paimon!"
"Ehe, my mistake!" Jouichirou struck his head with his tongue out.
"Ehe te nandayo! And try to look more apologetic, Pervy masochistic chef!"
"Please forgive me, the Great Paimon!"
"No forgiveness for you mortal! And no huggies as well!"
Sakura unconsciously licked her lips when she saw Jouichirou's lips out and his argument with Paimon.
Medusa easily noticed it and thought about what could cause such a reaction from her Master.
'Hunger... Yes, it must be hunger, I must satisfy it.'
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I don't see many good family names.
Choose a name, it is not that difficult. If you don't choose, how will I call you, because calling you guys family all the time is awkward?
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